music of mine that makes u sleepy

so, for context about this sudden, somewhat off release, as the title says, this song was basically a vent, which is the reason it sounds so different from anything I've ever made. Let me go into some detail.
2021 has been the hardest year of my life. I know I'm only 16, so I'll have worse years to come, but it just felt like everything happened at once. A series of intense blocks wouldn't allow me to get anything done and I would constantly feel anxious that people would forget about sumic and it would die off as a failed passion. I built up walls around releasing and constantly sent my tracks everywhere I could hoping someone would tell me that there was something I could work on so I could keep improving it so that nobody would dislike my music. I sent my music everywhere so that I could improve it to "perfection" when in reality, I was just putting off releasing it because I was scared of the audience disliking it. This became a really bad habit of me getting demotivated to keep working on my music and throwing it away when I got too obsessed with what others thought that I forgot to care about what I thought of my music. 

This song is a big fuck you to that habit. I made it, got no feedback, only fixed what I thought needed to be, and released it as soon as possible. Whether people like it or not is out of the question for me, I just really want to put something out for you.

anxiety

Long Way From Home

this track will probably remain forever unable to be finished due to technical errors, but I'll publish it anyway

credit to d'art for guitar in the outro and also just being awesome go follow now https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/bCD1M

send a letter w/ d'art

(this isnt anything serious i just made this in like an hour)

So I've had alot of bad things happen to me over the last few days, im sure all of you know by now that I was hacked on my discord and google. Though, recently I got locked out of my sc account and soundcloud support officially couldn't do anything about it. Until I make a new soundcloud account, I'll be residing on my shift. account on soundcloud.

im on my way

Far And Few Between

all the way to the other side of the world

i didnt have a cover art for this one

also im not moving house

ps i might have some sort of plans for this track
dont get your hopes up my inspiration is not consistent

Moving House

one eighth

is anybody listening

is anybody

I've been debating on taking a hiatus from music. I've put it in my bio, i've tweeted it out, I've even told my friends that I'm going to, and I'm still debating if it's what I want. I'm having alot of trouble with my creativity at the moment, and i've come to the realization that my music is built upon dozens of bad, toxic habits and mindsets, which have forced me into this position that I'm in now. This isn't anything new, this has been happening to me for about half a year now, and it's only getting worse. I'm a little stuck as for what to do, or how to fix myself, because this is how I'm used to thinking. it might take a little while to go back to normal, so for a while, please hold

please hold

Like I Do original outro idea :)

and the original idea for that one suji collab

Panstarrs (old)

A complete ripoff of the Alexander Panos ID he showed on stream

greyscale

nurture ripoff made from a bunch of field recordings from earlier :D

A Walk With Me

when i was younger, my dad took me to two train stations in specific. i was a very stereotypical autistic kid who liked planes and trains. I loved the wind as the fast ones went by. Recently, my dad took me back to those train stations for nostalgia, and i've been thinking alot about those moments when making my art or music. I have to wonder if this is where my inherent emotional attachment to trains comes from. This was made from various recordings from the main train station i used to frequent as a little kid.

trains

you already caught me


debut album in production


previously shift/sumic

discord: linkedwinters

music of mine that makes u sleepy

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