Beautiful and heartfelt.  As always you provide a place of healing🙏🏻♥️

Literally could have been written for me. Thank you

This is among my earliest recordings on the 𝐅𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐱 𝐗-𝟐𝟖𝐇 𝐌𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫, possibly the very first I tried to do on my own, after inaugurating it with a couple of things with a friend in the late summer of 𝟏𝟗𝟗𝟒. I must have put this one down in 𝐍𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫, and it's just as primitive as you'd expect a beginner's work to be. But I love this song so much, and it means so much to me, that I had to give it a shot, even knowing it could only contrast how wonderful 𝐁𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐉𝐨𝐞𝐥'𝐬 original is.

I was very insecure about adding my vocals back then, so I never ventured it. Now, almost 𝟑𝟎 years later, I finally decided to sing on it. It may be that I had to get to this age before I could do that with a semblance of conviction. My heart was relatively unscathed then. Now it's been out there and found out what life can do to it.

As for the recording itself, I played the keyboard rather unevenly that night, so matching my singing to it now was a challenge. It's the kind of song that needs to be sung as it's played. It lives outside of regular time; it needs to be immediate and felt. I didn't quite nail it here. Maybe I'll try again someday.

And So It Goes

Often change can catch us off guard. It comes like a gust of strong wind and blows away the ideas and structures we have worked so hard at building. Sitting in the rubble we tend to forget the part of us that had been crying out for this very thing. We wish we could take back our secret prayers and scramble to put back the pieces of the comfortable existence we once had. 
When faced with great change we must trust what comes budding forth. We must quickly release our grasp on the old and familiar in order to plant our new garden. Resisting change is futile. The longer we fight our current and therefore only reality, the longer we remain in limbo, trapped somewhere between the past and future, far from the present. All change has been called forth from our soul our lesson is to learn to honor the knowledge of your divine being. 

PODCAST - ACCEPTING CHANGE

When we reach our limits in love, in the stillness of nature, in winter, what would it look like if we stepped one step closer into it rather than, as we so habitually do, away? When we’ve reached our breaking point what could these places of discomfort bring us, if we choose instead to explore them further? 
There is richness there, hiding at our borders, hiding in the places we don’t care to look, avoid or find our greatest challenge in facing with grace rather than resistance. If we could learn to wander in instead of away, if we crossed our road lines into the unknown territories we have called too boring or uncomfortable, what could we find?  


PODCAST - EXPLORING THE WILDERNESS OF YOUR DISCOMFORT

There are times in life where we must endure in order to be born into more wholeness. Times in our life where we must wait out great storms of unknown. Traverse through unfamiliar landscape. Wait in quiet submission and surrender. 

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S02-WHEN WE MUST ENDURE

Anger and warring shows us we are afraid. Shows us we are trying to protect our vulnerability and softness. Your walls are there to stop you from feeling, to distract you from hurt. But feeling your softness, returning to your nature is the only thing that will set you free. The only thing that will feed your life in the ways it is asking.

S02-OUR WARRING SELF VS. OUR INFINITE SELF (RELEASING ANGER)

Don’t forget how uncomplicated your life can be, that you my dear one came here to love. And if given the chance, you would do it all over again, only the next time to choose more of the love you denied the first time.

S02-DON'T FORGET

This week we take small steps toward weaving more truth into all the places we are not living it already. We learn the importance of taking care of the peace within, and discover the value of becoming more whole in being and life.

S02-I WOULD LIKE TO GIVE YOU PERMISSION (LIVING YOUR TRUTH OUT LOUD)

Presence, this word: overused and rarely embodied. Yet paradoxically the home of what we are committing our lives to finding.
Happiness is the highest desire of human beings, yet somehow seems to be the most illusive of pursuits. We have been looking in all the wrong places, we have been searching beyond, when really it waits here bellow our feet, in the soft sigh of our most beloved, in the pearl of dew on the morning grass, in the most simple of things that live vibrantly alive before and within. 
This episode explores the immense gifts always found in the present moment.

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S02-OUR CALL TO PRESENCE (THE HOME OF YOUR HAPPINESS)

Underneath the knots, and noise sits a loving, unaffected presence and universal heartbeat leading us each, to this same place. 
Even in our greatest despair, even in our most gutted places we are not just held, but uplifted, urged, encouraged, shown the truth underneath it all. No matter the size of pain, there is a stillness, a place of deep love always trying to lift you above the unconscious pain you were forced to feel.

S02-LIFE IS KIND (TOUCH SOURCE)

If we remember to still, we remember to feel. If we remember to feel, we enter our aliveness. This episode brings us home, to our non-doing, to the quiet well of peace living within us.

S03 LIVE AWAKE

S03  REMEMBERING YOUR STILLNESS

it is time to speak of what it joyous to us, to feed ourselves with love, to sit in the raw and present moment to wake the heart inside of us. It is time to harvest our light.

S04 FEEDING THE HEART & CARING FOR GOODNESS

The Live Awake podcast helps bring you back to your grounded center through reflection and guided meditation. 

This podcast lends a new outlook to some of life's hard landscape. Perspective is everything, and by choosing to live awake to all that blooms in front of us we begin to live a more empowered life where joy becomes our natural state of being rather than something we occasionally stumble upon.  Through living awake we become conscious participants in our life’s unfolding.

At the end of each episode you will be guided through a short meditation on the topic at hand to help loosen the spots we can feel victim to. By doing this we come to understand we can choose not our usual, painful unconscious habits but instead to live from a place of grounded awareness, free from suffering.  

Live awake is for all those devoted to their hearts, devoted to the soul behind their ribs that came here to grow and expand, to all those devoted to learning, respecting and honoring the ways they are being called to do so. 

It is a place where one can come to close their eyes and rest a while on their breath, and see all they trouble and toil alongside is truly a gold lined cloud, holding a message of great hope and learning cradled within it.


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