Christmas is over, but glad i found this 🎁 only now

my favorite christmas song and one of my new favorite vocalists :)

I’m so sad I didn’t know about this until now :,) next Christmas tho:)

I'm spilling red wine on my bed
I'm taking photos and hitting send
In the blue light glow
At 11:59
Mmm
And my glass broke at the stem
I'm soaked in cheap merlot again
As the world keeps on spinning
Just outside

At midnight
The comedown is quick and cruel and light
Another year settles heavy over me
Over me
What is 21 good for?
Other than a pass through the front door
To all the shit I've been doing since 18
18
"Good thing you've got a sense of humor"
I say to myself in the mirror
Mmm
Happy birthday to me

In the morning I'll go for a drive
And pretend to know why
I'm throwing punches
At my scrappy self-esteem
Mmm
I say to my mom, "I'm caught in the crossfire,
I'm teetering on the tightwire"
She says,
"It was never meant to work out perfectly"

But in all my dreams
Everything is clear-cut and clean
And when I speak I say exactly what I mean
I mean
What is 21 good for?
Other than sneaking through the backdoor
And blowing out the heavy smoke screen
Smoke screen
"Good thing you've got a sense of humor"
I say to myself in the mirror
Mmm
Happy birthday to me

What have I been doing my whole life?
Idly sitting by
Waiting for something to happen to me
Mmm
I never was a go-getter
But I'm trying to do better
Hold hesitation to the flame
And let it burn entirely
Let the ashes point me north
To what I'm looking for

At midnight
The comedown cuts through me like a knife
One more year settles heavy over me
Over me
I guess 21 is good for
A hard shove out the door
And making me question everything
Mmm
"Good thing you've got a sense of humor"
I say to myself in the mirror
Mmm
Happy birthday to me

21 (live take)

cover this is me trying by Taylor swift <3 enjoy <3

this is me trying (cover)

Original song by Lizzy Mcalpine (all credit goes to Lizzy Mcalpine). This is from an ig live, enjoy :)

Teeth colliding - Lizzy Mcalpine (unreleased)

a demo given out as a pre-save bonus. all rights belong to lizzy. 💜

i don’t really understand (demo) - lizzy mcalpine

Lizzy McAlpine - Firearm (live Acoustic)

https://li.sten.to/compan-y

Lyrics:
I have so much of me to give
Laying on my floor like I did
When I was seventeen
I crawl into the sheets

Watching white lines on the road
Try to keep from crying
I hate the in-between
Of real life and reverie 

I miss you for you 
But I’m not sure that's how you feel too
I wanted you, and you wanted anyone
Anyone at all

And I happened to be there
In my head, you were everywhere
I liked the company
Laid out in front of me

When midnight passed, that’s when I knew
You couldn’t love me like I loved you
I knew I’d lose again
And lose my only friend

I think of you in intervals
Your name still comes up at the dinner table
I wanted everything, and you wanted to pick and choose
Pick and choose the parts that worked for you

And I swore I would fix you
And you promised you’d try
But I didn’t get to 
Because we ran out of time
And I swore we would make it
But you were unsure
You never planned to break it
Said it just wouldn’t work

I loved you, I know you heard me say
And you loved me too, but in a different way
You held me near, then held me out at arm’s length
Said you don’t love me, at least not that way
Don’t say you do if you’re not going to stay

company

piano by Taylor Mackall
mixed & mastered by Eric Ruscinski
photo by Neema Sadeghi

Merry Christmas Darling - The Carpenters (Cover)

Lizzy McAlpine

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