you are no longer my biggest fan and for good reason
you are the queen of your universe and i committed treason
walking on tip toes for so long got me seasoned
it wasn’t how but why instead i was leavin

-floor creakin as i slipped out the back door
what for? anything to avoid the core 
a pacifist i never meant to start this war
but i keep forgetting what i want don’t matter anymore 

and i had all the answers but i just couldn’t give em
they all sounded hollow no matter how i flipped em
i never stepped it up, even on your birthday
I could never measure up, even on your worst day

the worst way to go about it, yeah thats the way i chose
i gave you back your soul but i kept all the clothes
and how it really went down, well no one really knows
but i believe in karma and you reap what you sew

yes i know intention doesn’t guarantee the consequence
so i guess this means shit if you think i’m fraudulent
tear down the monuments set fire to documents
lay back as you coast down my stream of consciouness

and i coast… and you coast…. 
it is what it is lets leave it at almost

see you thought i was done, but just give me a minute
not quite there yet but i can see the finish
line on the horizon, like i see your pupils widen
at the thought of living alone on your own private island

our chapter ended with a hyphen, and no words after
left it hanging like a noose is hanging from the rafters
a poet maybe, but definitely not a rapper
driving drunk in my glass house awaiting disaster

caution not a factor, cause how safe can you play it?
when smiling starts to hurt and the piper seeks payment 
but you’re broke, and you try to work out some type of arrangement
you gotta run, run until your soles meet the pavement

any way it’s painted, you must see the bigger picture
then tear it apart and stuff the whole thing into a swisher
cause we got a while before we’re all seen as victors
bottoms up let’s chase the stress with golden liquor 

the shade is where i summon most of my inspiration
if i pause the demons will pounce on my hesitation
so i write without the expectation of a standing ovation
i only hope someone will see themselves in my creation

and i coast… and you coast…. 
it is what it is lets leave it at almost

better days are on their way but i lost the tracking
and this is a lot to ask, so don’t worry im not asking 
now the bottom line is i hope it wasn’t all in vain
i still see you as a friend even if you forget my name 

if i were you i would, and that’s exactly what youre doing
without access to your life there’s not much left for me to ruin
i hurt you then spend 3 minutes speaking about myself
a perfect example of how perfection is probly someone else 

the scars we carry are proof we’ve been through hell & back
I wish when i was young someone would’ve told me that
but the best way to learn is often the hardest possible
the world is fucked up & beautiful and i find it comical

so when i get the urge to extend my arm and reach
i’ll respect your atmosphere and keep my days out your week
the good, the bad, the ugly, i welcome it all
cause i’d rather feel alive than numb when it’s my final call

and i coast… and you coast…. 
it is what it is lets leave it at almost

Lizzy's Album

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