This is really nice Tez.  Really primal, man!

What a wonderful spatial environment here...sonic wow...love it Dear Friend L XOXOXO

a dubby but eerie piece. this is good stuff.

Sweet sound! Atmospheric and nocturnal, pensive and chill.

Greetings and good afternoon to my SC friends. This is the 10th and final song intended for my upcoming album ‘What Color Is Your Paradox’. It is also my 7th mind-blowing collaboration with our dear friend Carlos Vivanco (https://soundcloud.com/carlosvivanco-1, https://carlosvivanco1.bandcamp.com). 

This piece was highly entertaining and challenging to work on. We started with clearly defined regions (mine being the more techno sounding stuff… Carlos building the traditional instrument sections). I then mangled the whole thing, and tried to blur the lines more as the song progresses, until both worlds felt fully merged by the end. At least, that was the goal. I’ll let you decide if the structure succeeds in that regard. :)

The title is also quite significant to me at this point in my life; based on the idea of ‘masking’, and our growing inability to do so. 

If you aren’t familiar with the term ‘masking’, one Mental Health Care website I found defines it this way: “Masking often involves suppressing or hiding true emotions, which can lead to a buildup of unresolved feelings and contribute to increased stress, anxiety, and emotional turmoil in the long-term. In the context of mental health and neurodivergence, masking refers to the actions or coping strategies that individuals use to conceal their genuine thoughts, emotions, or challenges.”

It didn’t really occur to me at first that I was masking when I was younger. I guess that idea doesn’t resonate when you’re deeply lost in the illusion; at least, until something makes it obvious. But in hindsight, I’ve worn many masks over the course of my life (Art Director, Technician, Pre-Press Specialist and Graphic Artist would be some of my professional masks. And I would even go so far as to include Husband, Father and Son, since I was on auto-pilot during the earliest stages of those as well). 

As my life progressed, I felt more and more insincere in those roles. I felt something was wrong. I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Then COVID (something that actually required us to wear real masks. What irony!) came along, and miraculously changed that for all of us. We gained the necessary space we needed, to finally see the illusion more clearly. Now, that illusion grows more fragile and transparent by the day. So while I’m still in the early stages of trying to figure out the new paradigm… I suspect the really critical takeaway at this point is just recognizing when we’re being our genuine selves, and when we’re lost in a role; especially if that role is debilitating to our personal growth and well being.

Another thing I’m thinking a lot on these days…. Society is dependent on me playing those roles. And society doesn’t really care whether I’m happy or not (as long as I keep paying my bills, and buying their products, and believing their lies). So maybe, just maybe, society doesn’t have my best interests at heart (as I had originally hoped). Maybe… just maybe… we’re going to need to redefine who we are personally, as we stop playing along with this globally unconscious and ultimately destructive agenda.

Thick and chunky topic, I know. But that’s the way the world feels to me these days… like we needed a brisk slap across the face to wake us all up. COVID was that slap (and probably just the first of many still to come). It’s time to prioritize our own self interests; because if we don’t, they certainly won’t. So rip off those masks, and let your freak flag fly. It’s our life, and we’ll be the ones sitting on our deathbed, asking ourselves if we lived life true to ourselves…. or if we just fulfilled the role demanded by this illusion.

We hope you enjoy “Cracks In The Surface”; and it inspires you to think about what aspects of your reality are cracking. Keep in mind… if you still have a pulse, there is always time to change things up. :)

Paradox?

Cracks In The Surface | Carlos Vivanco & GrevusAnjl

IPG1, Frawstakwa, and Gaz Roach
Special collab album, on the way. 
Enjoy Peace!

Get It-The Way It Is 176BPM

This is a follow-up posting of a wonderful collaboration Dan-T had invited Debra and I to contribute to.  Dan had posted it well over a year ago as a backing track to a dramatic French Fantasy production.  With his kind permission after the delay of a year, I wanted to post this as a celebration of a different kind of drama--life awakening from a long winter sleep. Dan's synths are sweeping and epic, Debbie's playing is measured and elegant like the words in a fine poem.  The Requinto guitar has a sweet voice sounding a bit like a Celtic harp to round out the production.  Hear more of Dan's French Fantasy (French Fantastic:) @dan-t-3, and Debbie's superb and poetic playing @debra_buesking.

Awakenings; Dan-T, Debra Buesking, David Dunham

Darkness invoking silence

Beats from Looperman
What Kind of Fear by KRIMINS9N
Drill Drumloop - Man U by Negusfirst

Silence at the end is a sample of John Cage's 4' 33"

Silence After

Lyrics:

Here comes the night to dim out the light
Burn the candle light until the morning comes
Things will be great if we can wait
Till then I sing this song
And hope it won’t be long

The candle flickers bright, giving us sight
As far as we can see, there’s stillness in the night
Another day has passed, wash away at last
The things that I’ve done wrong
And you know I’ve been wrong

So play guitar and pluck the strings
Forget all the wicked things
I don’t need to be angry anymore

The wind between the hills, giving me chills
The frost will be melted by the morning light
What’s lost we lament in holy sacrament
The distant sun will rise
And shine into our eyes

The morning dew will form, a new day is born
The birth of the light is beginning now
The birds they will sing, the sun beams killing
The darkness of the night
Today I’ll make things right

So forgive all your evil deeds
Sew the ground with your new seeds
I don’t need to be angry anymore

I Don't Need To Be Angry (Anymore)

Homeland (Remix)

Betray🖤(RedDeath)

Follow me
I will betray you
Ill lead you down the path of regret
Ill leave you alone
Ill take away your pain
But now its too late
Ive lost my sanity

Betray!!
Would you even care at all!!
Would you even know my name!!
You're lying to yourself again!!
Betray all that you know!!

Betray!!
Would you even know my name!!
Would you even care at all!!
You're lying to yourself again!!
Betray all that you know!!

Ive been alone!!
Too long!!

Ive been away too long
Ive betrayed all that I know!!
Ive been away too long 
Ive betrayed all that I love!!

Betray!!
Would you even care at all!!
Would you even know my name!!
You're lying to yourself again!!
Betray all that you know!!

Betray!!
Would you even know my name!!
Would you even care at all!!
You're lying to yourself again!!
Betray all that you know!!

Ive been alone!!
Too long!!🖤

allthatuknow(Betray)

Lyrics: Children of war 


Children should grow up with love and care
Instead they suffer, it just isn’t fair
Their innocence lost , the bitterness won
The wounds of war can not made  undone

Children of war, we should be aware
the seed of hate will always be there
Cause even when the war is gone
the wounds of war cannot made undone

Children Of War (composition, Execution,vocals, Lyrics, Production)

I'm happy Vocalatti invited me for a sax improv on this wonderfull cover version,
composed 1938 by J Fred Coots, with lyrics by Haven Gillespie.
__________ Vocalatti: Vocals & backtrack (via jazzbacks - piano, bass,drums)
__________ joerxworx: alto sax, final mix
.... for more wonderful vocals & brilliant tracks visit https://soundcloud.com/vocalatti

You Go To My Head // Vocalatti ft. joerxworx

Nice groove i think, Cool Low Rider Style;-)))
Thanks again my Friend Joerxworx for his Fantastic Sax Work
https://soundcloud.com/joerxworx

Lunatics 157 The Low Rider// Joerxworks & Ratzzz

https://open.spotify.com/track/0kYwYzVLZ2AVGOkahSKVjw?si=d3029db1fd6a444f

Free download https://meggifox.bandcamp.com/track/aschwangahama-pt-2

Aschwangahama Pt 2

Psych sounds, dub vibes and a whole bunch of FX in operation
SoundCloud collabs most welcome. Remixes, guitar bashing, conceptualising (a big word for a guitar player, I know) or whatever you have 😎

Member of the transatlantic music machine that is The Eclectic Collective

Member of Mid-Wales’ premier cheezepunk band The Recursives - watch us get down and booogie!!
https://youtu.be/NilRLxx6D8E 

Logo and cover art by Marianne

You may wish to check out my older dub based stuff here 
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/TwJYv9QgWsDdKNvu9

Silence After

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