finally.. real music, its a loded christmas

@attc
@100signs

I think I'm Schizophrenic

f-fuck it im gon air it out
Sorry im gon head out 
Sorry we aint hit it off ya
Dont know why Just had to run
Put my head down hit the books 
Lately ive just felt so dumb
Lately ive just been so done
I-I just cant like get enough
Ive been fucking up my lungs
i aint doing it for love
I just dont want it to hurt
so i play it off
s-so i play it cool

im gon break the law
im gon break that ho
i hope that she go
i want nothing more
i want something better (for u)
i was terrified
t-terrified (for u)

h2r @attc

nota: i have been in an intense period of emotional struggle recently and music has been one of the only ways that ive been able to maintain my personhood it feels like. with my job and school being incredibly stressful, and with my relationships coming and going, and having so much extracurricular social obligations, i’ve felt very worn out. this song is mostly about my dad if you can’t tell

歌词：
i’m missin her bad
don’t know how to act
i can’t switch out the bad for the good
that girl hurting me bad but it’s good

i ain’t talk to my dad in a month
swear it’s hate but im missin his love
when his brother died i was thirteen
he ain’t been the same that shit hurt me
i don’t think that he will ever change
i’m not his daughter so i changed my name
not a comic book so i changed my name
im not who he wanted so i changed my name
i’m not who he wanted so i changed my name
not his fucking son not the one i claim
out the fucking picture cut me out the frame
for my fucking trauma he’s the one to blame
i don’t like myself and he’s the one to blame
on his fucking armor where my lungs are flayed
my lungs are flayed
yeah taxidermy put me on display
put me in a box where my bones decay
i ain’t want fuck but he got it
my god won’t allow it
my god put a gun to his head while he showered
my god saw abuse and he god damn allowed
i’ll pull out my dick and i’ll piss on his grave
yeah i’ll pull out the blick and i swear it’s no space where it’s safe to be hiding
he want me to be who he wanted me to be i refused and that’s why he been treat me like dirt
i don’t fuck with the way that he treat me it’s like he would rather be dead than a man of his word
i swear to god it’s like reason could rain from the heavens and still he would find him a way to ignore all the manna been served

manna (luanne)

@zzoos @maxynejournal @heroz2299 @seraphicwings

@zzoos
i cant feel like this any other way
stuck inside ill see u another day
so much smoke all in my lungs i suffocate
i gave up n let it go its such a waste
my eyes stay shut
icant wake up
these pills all on the table  
i cant only take 1
pls dont say nun
i dont got no patience
i gave everything
but it couldnt save us

@maxynejournal 
if i fall apart again would you stitch me back together
i blame it on the weather
i still feel so untethered
cast a note down the river i hope that you get my letter
but its gone
but its gone
turn the lights on they lead me to you
give it up cus i got nothing to lose
except for you, except for you
as youre looking down at me i ask you hows the view

@zzoos
n it gets worse with every breath
i cant link w u rn cus i look like a mess
u just run around my head
my heart beating out my chest
take everything that i have
leave me here2 rest yaaa
or stay here w me forever
no matter what u say its not getting betterrr
i slept thru december
all my wires severed
light as a feather

@maxynejournal 
i get so cold when you're not around
and it feels like everything falls down
i still remember all the sounds
i just wanna move on but i dont know how 
x2

suffocate prod heroz & phana

prod qweshkka

lyrics:
uh sick as shit 
i cant let them know 
cant let them know my weakness
i dont feel like opening up
bitch yk im the weakest
i got that gas inside my lungs 
yk that im a fiend bitch
i done messed up so many times
i fucking numbed my feelings
i dont know where to go 
they throw me out n tell me im insufferable
but i cant let them know 
cant let them know that that was never who i was
cant let them find out whats the cost
can never build back up the trust

i cant help it 
i just dont know what to say
cause they ask me how tf i been
im dying everyday
keep on following the same path
but its leading me astray
oh im looking at these pills 
and i dont think twice before i take em
like uh before i take it 
ill make sure that ur well aware
that u will never make it 
ill make sure that ur well aware
that i will always take it from u 

(when god created me,
did he intend for me to live like this?
if so then..
i dont wanna believe in god, 
i dont wanna believe in anything.
if god has forsaken me like this,
then what else is there but suffering?)

uh sick as shit 
i cant let them know 
cant let them know my weakness
i dont feel like opening up
bitch yk im the weakest
i got that gas inside my lungs 
yk that im a fiend bitch
i done messed up so many times
i fucking numbed my feelings
i dont know where to go 
they throw me out n tell me im insufferable
but i cant let them know 
cant let them know that that was never who i was
cant let them find out, whats the cost?
can never build back up the trust

(whyd u leave me alone?
oh im scared on my own
tell me did i ever do u right?
oh did i do it right?
oh was i worth the time?
oh did i do it right?
what else is there but suffering?)

my weakness is insufferable

Production work dated from May 2025 - November 2025.
Cover Art by Me.


I've still got a long way to go before fully actualizing any form of original works and whatnot; but for now I'll keep posting small bits of my production work here and there for here and for twitter.

For leases DM me on my social medias (linked in bio), E-mail me at holyviscera333@gmail.com, or add me on Discord @butchfox

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End-of-year Assessment

@prodnami @n1lssture

when fall came i wasn't ready for the leaves
and im so ashamed thinkin bout what we could be
when it all came down wasn't hopin you would leave
and its so bad that im not surprised
made me so bad i couldn't cry
its not that bad im not surprised
when i look back i just wanna die
when i look back i just wanna die
i wrote this poem just for you
flowin just for you
i cried you a river size the ocean just for you
if i died right now would u care im hopin you would do
all i ask for is an ounce of truth
all i ask for is an ounce of you
but you couldn't really seem to follow suit
girl its all on you girl its all on you
he paid resale i pay the real price
dior on my body but ion pray to christ
dior on my body paid a big price
cuz its archive
had to chase a bag play my cards right
pulled up to the auto shop gotta get my car tight
rlly thought she was the one but she said that im not her type
im fuckin w saint laurent but other brands still got it right got it nice
when fall came i wasn't ready for the leaves
and im so ashamed thinkin bout what we could be
when it all came down wasn't hopin you would leave
and its so bad that im not surprised
made me so bad i couldn't cry
its not that bad im not surprised
when i look back i just wanna die
when i look back i just wanna die

of the spotless mind | prod. nami & n1lssture

1. 504 feat h3artch3rades prod angelo imani
2. show u right prod me + alijah4k
3. so bad interlude feat sedate prod me + alijah4k
4. thoughts about u prod me + alijah4k
5. idk.demo prod zayok
6. wasting time prod elxnce + me + sedate (guitar by all of us)
7. one to me (be mine) prod liko
8. in the past demo prod me
9. if you want to demo prod vampiremutual + elxnce
10. know it all demo prod 1kiro
11. goin in prod me + ATIVAN COREA
12. no way prod me + secre
13. waiting on me prod me
14. helping hand prod angelo imani
15. how much prod angelo imani
16. smokin loud prod me
17. letter to myself prod angelo imani
18. movin prod me
19. told you freestyle prod idk
20. losing you (hold my hand) prod me
21. cali smoke prod babyxprod + jackzorana + 1blazetazzle
22. test1 prod idk
23. change for the better prod me (background vocals by h3artch3rades)
24. last time (can't stay) prod angelo imani
25. about you prod angelo imani
26. wait on u demo prod angelo imani
27. all love demo prod liko + wusspurrp
28. bag for u prod diplo
29. admit prod chinapoet
30. all in prod elxnce
31. another demo prod angelo imani
32. feeling quite alright prod zekzo
33. test2 demo prod me + expressiv
34. habit prod zackaryarthur + liko
35. drugs, we should try em prod armaan + zackaryarthur + ilovehitech + julienearle
36. wait prod elxnce + umru
37. another one prod marsall + twinterrors
38. parts of me demo prod me
39. h3artch3rades- Mihara Yasuhiro feat jalenvlm prod me+ tunjijuju

lost files 12.14.25

come by (zeromandia, madoxy)

PlayedDumb(Official Audio)

Ferris Bueller (tomas)

prod. fewkie https://www.youtube.com/@фекви

lyrics

clash royale tourney i got a lot on the line
bossin up you can't stop me this time
two dollars from my own pocket on the line
if i don't win i'm getting evicted this time

some gon tell me that i'm making it to the top
2.6 hog cycle sneaky golem that's what's up
i'm not tryna lessen this blow for you
you ain't even gon make it in the top two

steppin steppin steppin i move
you ain't catching me paying taxes boo hoo 
you ain't see me cuz i got that motion in blue
you ain't see me cuz i gotta gamble to lose
you can't see cuz i'm like a rat on the move
i can't see you cuz prescription is doo doo
evo cannon i'ma hitchu with the boom
got a lot on the line can't afford to lose

timmy turner wishing he could be like this
2.6 hog cycle with a sneaky golem like this
you gon get trip crowned and i don't think you gon like this
you gon end up down and i don't think you gon like this

placing my hog you can't stop this
wasting ur elixir now you can't stop this
2.6 hog cycle going crazy
sneaky golem in the back he lazy
times 2 elixir we gonna go crazy
hog rider on your tower it's over

and i'm gonna build it like an architect 
bob the builder building pushes we up next
triple crowning you yeah sit back down

(yeah)

can't stop pushing hog cycle to the top
check out my skelly-g's yeah they on top
hit your skarmy with a zap and they all gone
hit your skarmy with a zap and they all gone
pushing hog pushing hog yeah you can't stop me
rat race to the bottom you first can't you see

placing that hog we getting crowns
from the bottom to the top now
placing that sneaky golem wow
watch how he place it he moves
watch how he defending moves
watch how he trading elixir with you
watch how his icy-g pulling yo troops
placing a hog it's over for you

how you gon run a sparky
then complain when you lose to me
i know you never saw it coming
sneaky golem in the pocket
walk around with a rocket
you ain't stop it you ain't stop it

of the spotless mind | prod. nami & n1lssture

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