9TAILS

amnesia ft. Yung Dough (prod. excedi)

prod. S U I C I D A L _S I N S

S U I C I D A L _S I N S: @suicidalsins-1

coughs and wheezes (prod. S U I C I D A L _S I N S)

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

sleep gang (prod. nadiak)

lyrics:

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when im alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my god 
oh my god

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when im alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my god 
i been busy scheming every night now

tainted lips 
never helps when i speak out
release my hips
all i wanna do is sleep now
feel the drug 
slowly spill into my braincells
oh my god
i been busy smoking every night now

i try try try
with you i tried
but i will die
hollowed out inside

i try try try
with you i tried
but i will die
hollowed out inside

winters in my bones
hatred in my brain
i will show no signs
i will show no pain

i lie lie lie
god its such a shame
everything has changed
i dont look the same

awake at 3am 
phone glow on my face
god its such a shame
everything has changed

arctic eyes (prod. nciku)

https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s
https://soundcloud.com/kuroimetsuyu

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=kD9OnxvwS1i2nZ6pF5RJjA
https://www.instagram.com/poppytears_/?hl=en
https://twitter.com/poppyxtears
https://itunes.apple.com/nz/artist/poppy-tears/1268266116
https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/


LYRICS:

poppy tears: 

I’ve had one too many sedatives 
lil black lungs and my bodies thin
put it on my tongue and I’ll finish them
think I’m gona swim then I fucking sink

it’s been sitting on my mind now its 3am
need some amtrip, a smoke and klonopin
it’s my only way too cope so I get it in
couldn’t tell you where I’ve gone or where I’ve been 

I’ve had one too many sedatives 
lil black lungs and my bodies thin
put it on my tongue and I’ll finish them
think I’m gona swim then I fucking sink

9TAILS:

water on my neck like a camelback
everything changed round the time I dropped heart attack
I can deal with sudden droughts in my happiness
but I can’t fuck with repercussions from the loneliness

and I can’t deal with all the thoughts inside my skull
seeing ghosts, when I smoke, ima die or hit a wall

feel fine when I’m up again 
dying out I’m never getting high again

I’m not ever coming by again 
I will take that to my grave and I will lie in it
all the memories that molded me to who I am
all the memories went up inside the firepit
inside the firepit..

ashes down in the centre of the graveyard 
all our pictures lying melted in the sim card 
all our pictures lying melted in the sim card

♡ spotifried ♡

sink w/ 9TAILS (prod. kuroime)

lyrics:

silence
i couldnt live in the silence
why is the world full of violence
if you know the number then dial it

i can already here sirens
muffle the screams of all my friends
theyre looking at me like im dying
i really hope im not dying

might as well take it all if you really wanna piece of me
you could suffer but ill never spare you empathy
all my thoughts co exist so carefully 
if you fucked it up than that would be the death of me

breaking brain
im insane
fuck outside i feel it through my window pane
lock the door
flip the shade
next to walk into my house gon catch a fade

fuck your shit
two legged drop kick
if this boy gon hit 10k then imma quit
really this is it
i said really this is it
if you all gon pick a side then theres no one im fucking with

silence
i couldnt live in the silence
why is the world full of violence
if you know the number then dial it

i can already here sirens
muffle the screams of all my friends
theyre looking at me like im dying
i really hope im not dying

silence
i couldnt live in the silence
why is the world full of violence
if you know the number then dial it

i can already here sirens
muffle the screams of all my friends
theyre looking at me like im dying
i really hope im not dying

light it up
light it up
im alive again
something in this
got me better then i ever been
let me go

silence (prod. landfill)

lyrics:

i could waste ur time
would u like that
blue text read sign
no reply back

make u feel so fine
know u like that
if i kissed ur lips
i know u'd bite back

focus on my grip
when i fly past
uber foreign whips
i only drive fast

its not battleships
ion play no games like that
got on designer kicks
and a couple pairs in the bag

smoking love potion
give baby girl a pass
where u buy this shit
i got a guy for gas

one day ill ease up
and i could let u in
but right now im too high
and im just not cluing in

come out
it was such a good time
i could see the downpour
coming through the treeline

i could feel the goosebumps
building through my whole spine
i could feel the heat rush
through me in a beeline

tell me
do u ever think that
we were meant to be
but we could never really see that

and i dreamed that
last night
tell me u believe that
u dont really see that
so i dont mean that

i could waste ur time
just let me know the place
and u can keep complaining
yell the words into my face
im headed downtown
im staying ten down
im from the east end
but im going southbound

i could waste ur time
would u like that
blue text read sign
no reply back

wanderer (prod. ʎpoqou)

produced by @teendepression 

art by https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

i used to be scared to just be myself
right until i fucking caved and just changed myself
twitching on the floor i dont need no help
i need to dump my thoughts on someone else

smoke up a zip all to myself
all this marijuana just kills my health 
i cough more than i can speak
if block that thought i dont feel so weak

if i block that thought i dont feel so weak
time moves fast and life looks bleak
before i pass i wanna live my dream

nights grow longer i lose sleep
mind grows stronger limbs grow weak
just put me out of my misery

i couldnt fuck with the vices soon
all of the shit has subsided blue
waters are filling my eyelids
i think im reaching the island

come out the water and feel renewed
all of the troubles have left from you
go do whatever you wanted to
when life doesnt matter its possible

oh god
how long have you been standing there
lights grow dim
i cant get air
i cant win and its not fair
and i cant move so get the fuck out of here

i couldnt win if i wanted
continue it when i say stop it
nothing else could ever hurt me
when im busy already hurting

i guess all my work was a waste shit
im getting sick of the way i say
my words cause im always eating them
and im getting sick of the taste

cold out
but no snow out
its august
but i wear a coat out

on the walk back
from your house
phones dead so i listen to the street sounds

i used to be scared to just be myself
right until i fucking caved and just changed myself
twitching on the floor i dont need no help
i need to dump my thoughts on someone else

smoke up a zip all to myself
all this marijuana just kills my health 
i cough more than i can speak
if block that thought i dont feel so weak

the island (prod. tinyforest)

produced by @white-shinobi

lyrics:

so many places to go
i wanna visit with u
whenever im not touching road
u give me something to do

baby could u call me back
i keep on trying again
girl u dont gotta hold back
just let me love u again

how u gon say u not into me
then get up on me again 
how u gon talk about trust
when u think im fucking ur friend

baby i know u been playing me
that shit it tears me apart
but i cant really complain
i knew that shit from the start

i been in the fucking zone
producers hit me on the phone
nobody can get enough of me
so why am i feeling alone

why am i feeling alone
come by cause im always home
ring the bell if i dont come
then im out back in the smoke

she always said im a stoner
but she get it from me for the low
i been feeling like a goner
but i guess thats just how it goes

im so sorry but 
this cant wait
i needed to go
i needed to tell u everything and then some more
i needed to know
if we feeling cold

u cant help but pull away from me
sometimes words are hard to believe
this may sound crazy if it dont make sense
so let me run it by one more time again like

so many places to go
i wanna visit with u
whenever im not touching road
u give me something to do

baby could u call me back
i keep on trying again
girl u dont gotta hold back
just let me love u again

so many places to go
i wanna visit with u
whenever im not touching road
u give me something to do

baby could u call me back
i keep on trying again
girl u dont gotta hold back
just let me love u again

wintr nites + morning rain (prod. white shinobi)

produced by @white-shinobi

art by insidetoout.tumblr.com/

lyrics:

lighter flipped out lighting up a spliff 
ive been told this is good as life'll get
heartbreaker and i havent broke a sweat
windbreaker white stripes on the back

push start thats the way i turn it on
when i drive she just like to turn me on
hide the ash gotta put it out fast
this is a rental and it got enough gas

they watching me like a trilogy
over 9000 with the energy
uber a porsche and i keep the keys
i hope u enjoy university
i hope u enjoy university
i hope u enjoy university
imma be off prolly overseas
imma be off prolly smoking weed
prolly spending stacks while i make em back
while the loud pack gimme heart attacks
its hard to breathe when im so relaxed

fucking my girl in the ghost
grind while we listen to post
celebration its a toast
im inebriated at the most

and all i wanted was to make u happy
girl why do u never text me
my mind is full but the screen is empty
but its been like this since u left me

make u happy (prod. white shinobi)

produced by @anobodyreally

art found at sad-space-kitten.tumblr.com

lyrics:

its 30 below
i see the blue in my toes
i feel the ice in my throat
and ive never been this cold
baby dont go
just when we start to see the light
clouds come block it out
the timing never fucking right
plaid green sweater
couple loose threads around the wrist
hole in the back
thats what i get when everythings thrift
ripped black jeans
and some bruises on my fists
my eye turned black
thats what i get when everythings shit

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

i cant help u
i cant save u baby
dont know how to

but dont worry maybe
we could find someone
that might know how to

flashing lights
streetlights when we in the benz
what was that
could u run that by again
going fast
not paying any attention
saw my page
now im always in their mentions

not my type
dont know why she wanna go out
i stay inside
and no u cant over to my house
got shit to do
u know im working all the time now
all these words
work their way into the songs now

woah
change my mind
all the time
i feel shit
now im fine
got so much of this free time
and i dont even count the nights

no
i wont text
i wont phone
think too much
when im on my own
i think its best
if you said u would go 
i think its best
if u leave me alone

im still walking home
think im freezing through my coat
where have u been
where should i go

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

warm (prod. ʎpoqou)

produced by me!

lyrics:

wait one minute
this hotel got a bathroom in it
my heads spinning
made it home but i still hear music

feel so garbage
roll one up put the green stuff in it
smoking on green tea
smoking on spinach

u say that u wanna go
but baby u having a good time
vodka and cherry coke
20 degrees in the night time

tattoos in the ripped jeans
u lookin so fine
if u wanna go lets go
and have some alone time

why did i wait
swear i had it all made
but i dropped it all and she dont even see me in her free time

u didnt call me saturday
there go the plans that we made
i shouldnt care at all but frankly baby ur my only lifeline

what u mean u cant see me anymore
slow it down tell me what u yelling for
say to quit i think i might just roll some more
3 grams to a zig couldnt pack more

wait one minute
this hotel got a bathroom in it
my heads spinning
made it home but i still hear music

feel so garbage
roll one up put the green stuff in it
smoking on green tea
smoking on spinach

song sampled: Benjamin Francis Leftwich - Pictures

after party (prod. 9TAILS)

produced by @chivnti

lyrics:

nose lame as fuck get it peirced like a bull
i live and i die to be different
if we fuck just know that my hearts not involved
i learned i could numb my emotions

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

mid september ill be fucking crazy
swear to god im ugly no one wanna date me
i been so fucked up i want it please dont save me
whenever im stuck like this all my dreams amazing

when i make plans respond within the fuckin minute
im not busy but i hate it
10 minutes tops and im not waiting

like what the fuck u comtemplating 
for so long
u wouldnt do this if i made it
and blew up

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up

at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

i went from always being late
to pretty much never showing up
i went from i dont have a plug
to damn my plug is coming clutch

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

art found at http://johnnysboots.tumblr.com/post/76103773768

scissor hands (prod. chivnti)

produced by @killedmyself

lyrics:

back on my bullshit
back on my bullshit
all my songs sound sad as fuck
if u dont like it dont listen

u playing my new shit
i hear it in ur shit
if you dont like why u sound like it
if u want a verse just say something

if i dont fuck with u
then i wont click the text
i got friends up in my inbox
like i know them but they on read

know them but they changed up
hate me if ion link up
theres lonely nights i wanna go out
but they dont hit me if a song up

ya my girlfriend said our times up
all my close friends in a limbo
young artist i dont give a fuck if
my gmail full of beats tho

my iphone got a cracked screen
that shit not even rose gold
i wake up and spit some listerine
think of new words and a new flow

soon its new phone i got new hoes
its new drugs but the same bros
new songs keep coming out
like 2 a week i dont slow down

2am in a ghost town
its fl till the sun down
i need a song all about this shit
if it dont exist well it does now

every love that i once had got a new guy and they real good
when i open up my newsfeed and i see them i dont feel good
brain cells that i used to have all dead now but the weeds good 
the only lighter i ever use she bought for me and i miss her

she said my new shit it dont sound good
if somethings wrong you can tell me
i dont say shit to anyone
so thats why my songs all about me

back on my bullshit
back on my bullshit
all my songs sound sad as fuck
if u dont like it dont listen

u playing my new shit
i hear it in your shit
if u dont like why u sound like it
if u want a verse just say something

back (prod. killedmyself)

produced by @killedmyself

lyrics:

wrote this song around 7 oclock this morning
with the drapes open on a wednesday while its pouring
how can i live like this
i was waking up at like 4 oclock
now im sleeping in but im up by 6

come thru to the back round 8 we could roll up spliffs
blow a little smoke but girl u gotta go round 9 gotta make music

how did i do all this shit
without ever leaving my room
none of my friends are bumping my shit
but im still on the move

still on the move
mid afternoon but im still on the juice
my baby confused
she tell me i live like theres nothing to lose

girl i got plenty to lose
but why is it worrying u
im caring for u
well stop and just leave me to do what i do

girl it dont concern u
never meant to hurt u
swear my flow and all my lyrics dont say shit about u

u know im not with that shit
problems id just say it to u
they never come out when i spit
my word is as real as it gets

everybody wanna snap chat streak
i havent been on snap all week
i been fucking with the wavs all week
dont put no pressure on me

gucci red snake sweater on me
hate put no stress upon me
i got no drugs up on me
but i got some in my body

i see light at the end of the tunnel
except im not dead 
im in bed
and i sleep in the breeze from the window

i feel so alive
trust me they never could feel what im feeling
i set bars so high that they touching the ceiling
my come up is coming i know i can feel it

wrote this song around 7 oclock this morning
with the drapes open on a wednesday while its pouring
how can i live like this
i was waking up at like 4 oclock
now im sleeping in but im up by 6

how did i do all this shit
without ever leaving my room
none of my friends are bumping my shit
but im still on the move

how can i live like this
i was waking up at like 4 oclock
now im sleeping in but im up by 6

september (prod. killedmyself)

produced by @anobodyreally

cover art by TrapSirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

alot of things make me fucking nervous
alot of things get me really scared
i do not fuck with like none of these people
im smelling the fake in the air

sneak bitches they fake and the phony
sneak disses bout me like they know me
u'd fuck me up if u knew bout the shit that i do
when ur girl call me lonely

i smoke a blunt now snoring
still fill a cup with the porridge
that would be problems for old me
i dont give a fuck now so lets get it going

i got the fade for like 40
vodka but chase is a 40
they talkin like damn i go hard
but frankly this party is boring

i smoke a blunt now snoring
still fill a cup with the porridge
bad bitch from new orleans
she call me daddy like maury

i aint a father no maury
but im gonna son u like morty
ur girl just told u she was sleeping 
but im in her house like im cory

i think yo girlie my mistress
she run the dome like a beep test
i let her grip it like viscous
she want me to spray like im windex

ruby stay hot like a furnace
all this success cause i earned it
this shit is not bout the earnings
its me excersizing my purpose

you know this
im focused
this beat i just hit and i owned this

the shadows
im cloaked in
allow the emotion to soak in

the words all
have meaning
think bout the shit that im screaming
even if you got to see it
it'd be such a reach to believe it

garbage
fucking garbage
i pick and destroy every target
sometimes i dont think im an artist 
most of my ideas come out sounding fucking garbage

garbage
fucking garbage
i pick and destroy every target
sometimes i dont think im an artist 
most of my ideas come out sounding fucking garbage

garbage
fucking garbage
i pick and destroy every target
sometimes i dont think im an artist 
most of my ideas come out sounding fucking garbage

alot of things make me fucking nervous
alot of things get me really scared
i do not fuck with like none of these people
im smelling the fake in the air

sneak bitches they fake and the phony
sneak disses bout me like they know me
u'd fuck me up if u knew bout the shit that i do
when ur girl call me lonely

i smoke a blunt now snoring
still fill a cup with the porridge
that would be problems for old me
i dont give a fuck now so lets get it going

so much garbage (prod. ʎpoqou)

produced by @mileex

cover art by csidesuicide at csidesuicide.tumblr.com/

lyrics:

take a look at my perspective
come take a look at my perspective
medicine bottles and music thats mad reflective
of who i am as a person
its my perspective
come take a look at my perspective
at my perspective

im finally sober
i find that drugs get more fun as u get older
allow u to look into ur mind and break the borders
let u create genius ideas and store them just like a horder

creation not a disorder
mix vocals just like a mortar
ill crush u like im a pestle
and fling u just like a mortar

stay fly like a spaceship
so fly im too high to fit my placement

i been feeling real ugly lately
people rather stand than sit beside me on the transit lately
ya i guess im kind of crazy
and anxious and awkward but maybe u still could be my baby

i dont lift
but im holding up this rep up on my chest
i dont sip
but ill get u feeling wavy like i did

take a look at my perspective
come take a look at my perspective
medicine bottles and music thats mad reflective
of who i am as a person
its my perspective
come take a look at my perspective
at my perspective

perspective (prod. mileex)

produced by @idealismus

this track is completely non-profit

lyrics:

the comedown
nothing good happens in the come down

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

life just didnt work out that way

slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked
u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok

homie wake up at four
10 alarms said 8
but i been up all night and soon enough ill be up all day
working hard no pay
i dont care it feels great
accomplishments im glad i made

living the dream and the dream way too lucid
all of my fans said they knew i would do it
im never stopping so dont get it twisted
im sorry but music is over the mrs

808 earthquake
am i always sad no way
sacrifices by drake
hell nah i feel great

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

the comedown (prod. idealism)

produced by @killedmyself

cover art found at 80sanime.tumblr.com/post/134500403407

lyrics:

look at me catching breathe
i got way too many problems on my chest
tell the clock that it gotta reset
im sitting in my room i should be running up a cheque
needa vent
got so many thoughts evolving in my head
some of them could show me id be better dead
fuck em block em out and focus on the bread

its 1:50 
view dizzy
drink fizzy
heads spinning
blunt flicking
bong hitting 
cant lose
stay winning

574 new balance
blue polo player pajama
words make u sweat like saunas
bars bring heat like llamas

petrified
u look dead inside
but i can tell u scared
no u cant hide

look at me catching breathe
i got way too many problems on my chest
tell the clock that it gotta reset
im sitting in my room i should be running up a cheque
needa vent
got so many thoughts evolving in my head
some of them could show me id be better dead
fuck em block em out and focus on the bread

9TAILS

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