Sick

a reason why

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Produced by @prodguda

Artwork by Bleu:
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Lyrics:
I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know

I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know
'Cause I'm just sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all
Sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all

Hard decisions
If I pick either one, am I really winnin'?
I'ma be gone in an instant the second that I am finished
Will I go missing for a minute or am I trippin'? Listen
Am I really doing this all for myself?
It's the only thing that really help out with my mental health
I've been working real hard to play the cards that I was dealt right
But I swear all this working and working has never felt right
I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know

I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know
'Cause I'm just sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all
Sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all

Thinking-Thinking 'bout it all
Think-Think-Thinking 'bout it all
I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know

I swear to God, I'm so paranoid with all these eyes on me
It's like everybody around me got some time for me
I swear, like, I just wanna be left all alone
All by myself inside my room is all I know
'Cause I'm just sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all
Sitting in my room staring at the wall
Thinking 'bout it all, thinking 'bout it all

paranoid (guda)

i think it's fucking stupid
i go to sleep and wake up
like what the fuck am i doing
the way i see your fucking face
i get why i'm pursuing
the opposite of what i want
i guess i'm fucking moving, i'm moving

i'm moving towards a direction that i don't like
i think about when you cross my mind once or twice
in a day in a hour
any day, any power
that i can't withhold
that i can't hold back


i think i've got a problem
i think i barely see it
i'm getting fucking clingy
over shit that i can't be in

i dont wanna fix it 
cause girl if i fix it
then i will forget about whatever we had
don't wanna end it like that
i'm not going out like that
i'll never go out like that
i feel the pain and its bad

i know the second that i see you
i'll be fucked up when i meet you
fuck, fuck, FUCK

i don't like where this is going (bloom)

Instagram @izziiv

Lyrics:

4 in the afternoon and I’m just waking up
I got no empathy so I pour another cup
and what u said to me, I wish Youd shut it up
I’m fucking ending it because I have had enough

All the time
I’m tired all the time 
I’ll be fine 
I promise I’ll be fine 

I’m tired all the time x3
so tired all the time

and I really fucking meant it 
you act like ur a menace 
these bullets leave u dented 
U flex the cars u rented

and this is the beginning 
you see that I am winning 
I shoot it and I’m hitting 
know Viizzi never kidding 

No I will never act out for anyone else 
And I’m getting all this knowledge from the books on my shelf
There’s 11 in my mag cos I was shooting at 12
and u messing with my brothers and we send u to hell
The reapers ringing the bell

All the time
I’m tired all the time 
I’ll be fine 
I promise I’ll be fine 

I’m tired all the time x3
so tired all the time

all the time ( p. plxce )

on all platforms!!
@k4rson
yea i knew that u would lie
bitch i feel like u jus never rlly tried
howd i let this happen so many damn times
but whatchu know abt ur friends hitting my line 👀
and ive been feelin suicide 
spinnin in a cycle 
i just keep my eyes closed
and u know that i been chillin now
did this shit all by myself
this shit aint even worth the help

i know u w/ karson (shinju & cutspace)

self prod again

lyrics
tell me what you want 
you cant even tell me what you wanted in the first place
treat me like im wrong
if i say i mean it then it’s probably in the worst way

cause it’s all the same to you and “you and me”
and the seasons change but you're the same to me.
(i feel critters on my skin)

and i tried to change for everyone to see
but the only one they talk about is me

is it really hard to make amends?
or would you rather play pretend with me
sure they’ll stay the same
but they can never get the best of me
(i feel critters on my skin)

critters

#us #wip
credits:
@haveonlyonechance
@ogpichu

intro from love is war 

[hook]
is it my fault
if u dont care anymore
shes making me blush
and i just stare at the floor
knew it was coming felt it in my core
asked u if u still like me u said not anymore
2x

[verse]
you said i would be hard to forget
you knew a different me, way back then
i cant take back things i said
but i still remember the day that we met
i put my life into you
it was all for nothing
i put my time into you
wish i got away with something

bridge from kaguya as well :P

hook repeat yup

spotify

my fault (tenoji)

i keep making the same damn song
ride around drunk till my wheels fall off again
i see you
i wanted to be you
but u couldnt care less

see its one of the pros of the sidelines
its always wrong place at the wrong time
eyesight gone by midnight
but im bleeding out quick till sun rise

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

its one damn thing to say that i miss it, real shit
i could never stand to visit
cause i always got drunk
never check my phone cause im too fucked up

i said baby do u trust me
and she said i would rather kill myself
am i disgusting?
or is it hard to fucking heal myself

i wouldnt change its perfect
i always crack but not on the surface
watch me break

watch me break

SPOTIFY

watch me break (yungspoiler)

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dylann - dizzy +8485

eden, ‘scruff [su me]

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Imma go right back
Cried loads cause you did that
Said fuck you and never paid back
Got a new one but he's so whack
You so down bad that I lost track
See a mirror in your eyes
Are you like me or just disguise 
Like can you choose can you decide 
I don't know what to do do do do
I think I love too much
But Im not healing enough
Don't take my space nah nah 
I want you more than I need you
You asked me it's all true
Can we make what we´re going through
I can't tell

Oh you’re changing so fast
Take a minute to look back
You can choose now if you wanna leave me in the past
I’ve been in the dark I really don’t know where we’re at
In a state of shock don’t know if I should cry or laugh
I know I fucked up and I’m sorry about that
You deserve better and I’ll leave if I have to
I’m gonna miss you
And all that we went through (oh, oh-oh)
Maybe you’re too asked to ask me, I would let you know
Spent so much time doing nothing, I wish I was with you
I can’t turn it back around
It’s too late now
Cause you’re nowhere to be found
And I missed out

Imma go right back
Cried loads cause you did that
Said fuck you and never paid back
Got a new one but he's so whack
You so down bad that I lost track
See a mirror in your eyes
Are you like me or just disguise 
Like can you choose can you decide 
I don't know what to do do do do
I think I love too much
But Im not healing enough
Don't take my space nah nah 
I want you more than I need you
You asked me it's all true
Can we make what we´re going through
I can't tell

I think I lost too much
i think you’re out of touch
We came from stupid love
Too high I fucked it up
But we can’t turn into dust
Don’t even say one word
No you can’t break my trust
Way too broken hearted
Should’ve kept your promise
Should’ve kept your promise
Boy I know you doubted
Honestly at this point I don’t even think about it
We can lose it all
not the same without it
Swear it comes around and
Simple as a promise
Symbolise your promise
Simple as a promise
Simple as a promise
Way too broken hearted
Should’ve kept ur promise
Should’ve kept ur promise
Boy I know u doubted
Honestly at this point I don’t even think about it
We can lose it all

Mirror w/ Rosesleeves & Ezekiel (o0o & Rosesleeves)

thats all i get thrown against the glass
i see right through your intellect
because i cry tears sometime
but you just gotta say im here
still anyway
cuz i dont see you that way
that way (x12)

(i gotta talk to you about something)

wanna talk about it now
wake up feeling dead but i been tryna leave the house
maybe one day ill be sleeping in the ground
wanna feel your touch do u even want me now
lemme calm down
i saw creeping in the door ask me if im better now
silence in your face ur always sneaking out the house
something has to give wanna make it better now
make better now

thats all i get thrown against the glass
i see right through your intellect

because its long nights talkin
the risk of walking
i feel so sensitive
have no options
i cant find closure
i lose composure
dont know what we’re doing but i want u closer
cuz all that u have is what i want 
cuz all that u have is what i want

shattered +ridgely2k

SPERMGANG Tour Llif3 (prod. pentagrvm and snowblower)

worth it (nihil+kintsugi)

THIS IS NOT MY TRACK

This is an emergency reupload of this song on this platform due to the original being taken down, please, visit Quannnic’s and Lieu’s accounts and show them their support.

Lieu
https://on.soundcloud.com/T7R1K2CEMPSAke747
Quannnic
https://on.soundcloud.com/PRBSPpKeuzZz75K37

[Intro: lieu]
And you're so annoying, you give me a headache

[Chorus: quannnic]
Everywhere I go, I get weird looks
Wish I could say "what the fuck are you lookin' at?"
At least its not long till you're back
I guess I just can't change that
And it takes so long to move on
Pick up the razor, keep fucking falling back
I can't stop to fuckin' do it
If you ask me I fuckin' blew it


[Verse: lieu]
Yeah that's tragic
Tell me why you're acting
Don't jump to conclusions
I'm not one to panic
You made me feel useless
Wonder why you're out of the way
Cause I do the same thing everyday
But I looked at you first
Considering ignoring you
It only makes me hurt
Rеminiscing about something that I'll never havе
I like thinking of the stuff that I will never get
I like hurting every time until I regret

[Chorus: quannnic]
Everywhere I go, I get weird looks
Wish I could say "what the fuck are you lookin' at?"
At least its not long till you're back
I guess I just can't change that
And it takes so long to move on
Pick up the razor, keep fucking falling back
I can't stop to fuckin' do it
If you ask me I fuck-

[Verse: lieu]
Bahhh
Yeah that's tragic
Tell me why you're acting
Don't jump to conclusions
I'm not one to panic
You made me feel useless
Wonder why you're out of the way
Cause I do the same thing everyday
But I looked at you first
Considering ignoring you
It only makes me hurt
Reminiscing about something that I'll never have
I like thinking of the stuff that I will never get
I like hurting every time until I re-

quannnic-Tragic feat Lieu (reupload)

(prodheavn)
@blackwinterwells
https://app.matter.online/tracks/67750

Stream

end it +blackwinterwells

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head

awful ft. orchid (odel)

produced by rosesleeves

lyrics-
(i don’t love you)
(lemme, lemme book your room [no dad] at a hotel for a [no, dad] couple of nights, why [dad, i] don’t we just go get some food, can you say goodbye at least? bye dad)

i don’t wanna see your texts on my phone anymore
you make me feel shit, that i can’t ignore
it’s not helping me, it’s not helping me at all
(oo yeah, oo yeah) it’s not helping me at all

you make me mad, you make me sad
i can’t stop it, i can’t stop it
you ruin my nights and you ruin my life
and you won’t stop it, and you won’t stop it

and you won’t stop it, and you won’t stop it
(oo yeah, oo yeah) stop, stop, stop
and you won’t stop it, and you won’t stop it
(oo yeah, oo yeah) stop it, stop it, stop
(i don’t love you)
you won’t stop
(oo yeah, oo yeah) stop it, it, it
stop
stop it, it, it, it, it, it
(oo yeah, oo yeah) and you won’t stop it

see me
i wonder how they all see you
you’re not okay, okay me too
what will it take just to be you
i don’t want no one to help me
the way that i’m living’s not healthy
my mind is racing at max speed
i do it all to feel healthy
i just hope that you can see me
i wonder how they all see you
you’re not okay, okay me too
what will it take just to be you
i don’t want no one to help me
the way that i’m living’s not healthy
mom i’m just racing at max speed
i do it all to feel healthy

and you won’t stop-stop it-it-it-it
and you won’t stop it, and you won’t stop it
(oo yeah, oo yeah) stop, stop, stop
and you won’t stop it, and you won’t stop it
(oo yeah, oo yeah) stop it, stop it
stop, stop, stop
help me 
(help me)
stop it, it, it
stop
stop it, it, it, it, it, it
(oo yeah, oo yeah) and you won’t stop it

every road is a dead end and i can’t get out
cause i don’t want you to hurt yourself
i don’t want no one to help me
the way that i’m living’s not healthy
my mind is racing at max speed
i do it all to feel healthy
(oo yeah, oo yeah) it’s not helping me at all

stop it, stop it-it

(can say goodbye at least? 
bye dad)

Help Me w/ Osquinn


@lei
@lei
@lei
prod me
does she love me?
i dont think she cares at all
does she trust me?
does she love me?
i dont think she cares at all
does she trust me?
on red tuesday
ima shoot her heart down like its d-day
idk i cant see straight
if i look between the lines its a false fate 

lei:
and i cant take her
and shes just talking a lot of trash
cant face her
and i cant keep going out like that
and ive been so sad
as of lately lately
shes finna save me
can someone take me
dont call me baby, cause i know you hate me
cause you keep on faking
wish it was easy, wish it was basic
i wish i could tell you that you look amazing
running from you i cant love you
oh i cant trust you
cause you lie and i do
and im a hypocrite in all
and i dont care at all
so tired it makes me yawn
cause i aint ever do you wrong


does she love me?
i dont think she cares at all
does she trust me?
does she love me?
i dont think she cares at all
does she trust me?
on red tuesday
ima shoot her heart down like its d-day
im breaking up with her tomorrow
im breaking up with her tomorrow

red tuesday w/ lei

@mental @3dssucks @kurai

THIS IS A TRUE STORY.

The events depicted took place in Minnesota in 2006.

At the request of the survivors, the names have been changed.

Out of respect for the dead, the rest has been told exactly as it occurred.

what if you're right, and they're wrong? w/ mental (3d$ + kurai)

I make edits on youtube

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