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Crown of My Spirit

oklou ~ fall : lonelyspeck flip

unofficial bootleg remix just bc it's my soty and i'm obsessed #ALPHAZ
produced by me
filtered acapella by MTMC IS ALPHAZ
artwork by me

XG ☆ shooting star ✶ lonelyspeck flip

debut EP "Presence" out on @plzmakeitruins
https://plzmakeitruins.bandcamp.com/album/presence

Disinter

Heatdeath

Sympathy is a knife by charli & ari but lonelyspeck flipped it

Lyrics:
In the mirror, swimming
With my dream girl rendition
Crown of my spirit
Mantles once given
In the deepest of my lineage
Plain sight and hidden
With all my wishing
With all my wishing
With the static in my vision
And the ringing when I listen
I find new ways of living
Unriven
My fears are my ambitions
My softness my resistance
With all my wishing
With all my wishing
(I wish I was born)
(I wish I was born)

Wishing

Lyrics:
Through the tunnel sliding out of my lung
The taste of metal on the back of my tongue
There are things I hold onto as a son
Now I know
In the liquids underneath and foaming
Forgotten writhing of the boy I phoned in
Disintegrated from the salt and only
My stone
My stone
After all, I keep you with me
Around my neck I hang my amulet
Taking all I saw as ugly
And turn it into something else
Something pretty
From the fossils of the bones that I shed
I string a necklace with the stone they beget
Iridescing with the ills and epithets
In my head
All the things I tried to leave behind remain
But now I know that there is nothing they can take from me
I keep it safe with me
I keep a changeling
My stone
My stone

Amulet

Lyrics:
Does it drown the pain
Make you feel you’re ok
Is everything you lost
Just a fantasy
Another rock in the ground
The fossilizing sound
Of everything you lost
Can you hear it now
Are you doing it right
Are you doing it like they told you
Are the elements in your palm
Do you know better
Yeah
Are you doing it right
Are you doing it like they told you
All the yelling in your body
Can you drown without knowing
Yeah
Tell me we’re the same
We’re the same, we’re the same
Like it doesn’t matter what you do to me
You got nothing to say that I haven’t heard
And I don’t need the words
Are you believing in me
Or your reality

Fossil

Lyrics:
Chasing tails around the sun
Blind dogs in their endless run
Somewhere there I’m wasting days
Running up my only ones
And I try and I try
But the tether’s too tight
And I try and I try
But the tether’s too tight
And I try and I try
But the tether’s too tight
And I try and I try
But the tether, tether
Cracks in all the surfaces
Let the cold and dirt come in
Through my walls and through my skin
I wanna throw it all out and start again
Ask if it was worth the weight
The words don’t always feel the same
When I die I guess I’ll see
The future holding hands with me

Tether

Lyrics:
Earthen
Burden
You’re my favourite of the shadow beings
Never saying what you really mean
Every night I find you in a dream
Keep my faith in what the spirit sees
Pieces of my claim in my hands
I don’t have another plan
Reduced to moraine in the sand
I’ll wait
I pronounce you my burden
Everything I do for you
My crown, stone and earthen
Breaks my neck in two
Drawing the flesh from the stone 
I can’t do it on my own
I can’t— Wait, okay
I know we keep on falling
Everything crumbles in the wheeling of it all
I ask instead, will I care when I’m dead
Will I carry the memories to wherever I’m sent
Cause I pronounced you my burden
Everything I do for you
My crown, stone and earthen
Breaks my neck in two

I’ll be honest I don’t have a clue
Just know I been bearing the blues
Since the days I was there in the two (two)
Had about four to a room
Daddy’s so Taurean (earthen)
I know I carry it too
Pallbearing the burden
All terrain with a flute
Stand in the back of the funeral
Lower man down for the crucible
I got dirt deep in my cuticles
Twisting the work in my hands like a Rubik’s (cubed)
Dress in all black like Ryuku
I’m scribbling something inscrutable
If you knew what I knew (if you knew what I knew)
If I knew, I still couldn’t give it to you
Got me like mute, got me like [whistle]
Got me like dumb, got me like who?
Got me like, is he right here in the room?
Got me like cuz, got me like wound
Got me like
Ándale, underway, ultralight
Featherweight, steady pace, heavy days
Got me like
Meditate, concentrate, seminary, empty plate
Got me like, wait, is that the way?
Got me upright, got me up late
Got me up bright, got me on praise
Got me for days and days and days
Got me like (got me like)
Got me like (got me like)
Got me like
Got me awake

Drawing Flesh From Stone (feat. BAYANG (tha Bushranger))

Lyrics:
And now here in the clay
Will you still love me as I change
As I come undone from the weight
Of where I laid
Cause I’m still scared of loss
But I try to hold onto myself
All I learnt and the things I wrought
All I learnt

Estuary

Lyrics:
A bath in alabaster ichor
Mirror on the ground
Crying in the evening cipher
Turning inside out
Go ahead, go ahead
Let it all wear me down, wear me down
Till the end, till the end
Till I turn inside out, inside out
Cold air on the nerve
Yeah it fuckin’ hurts
I don’t wanna fight back
I like that
At the end of the earth
I find my real worth
And I can follow my tracks
Right back
Sometimes I’m so far from the moment
I forget how to come back
Unravelling like thread out of your hands
But don’t worry ‘bout that

Wear Me Down

Lyrics:
You go, you go, you go
Falling now
Take it slow
Before I come apart
On the rock below
I lay myself
A bed of light 
To catch me at the bottom
Of the height
A liquid form
Dripping down
Pooling in the holes
That it once quarried out
The rising tide
Solvent kin
Revolving in the waters
I breathe in
(Tell me again)
Pinned and needled on my frame
(How I belong to them)
The lessons in my name
(Tell me again)
The more I’m here the more I stay
(I’m breaking for the mend)
I’m more than me
You go, you go, you go
Falling into the cradle
Tell me again
How I belong to them
Tell me again
I’m breaking for the mend


Breaking for the Mend

Lyrics:
Eyes so tired, voice so weak
Gravel in my throat when I try to speak
It’s so fast whenever we meet
But so slow the way you hang around with me
I live my life for you
Nothing else to do
And I won’t lie
In some old time
I tried to find a way out
Of these cycles
In denial
Of the ties that bind us
You did it again
You did it again
Did it again
You did it again
Out the other side and straight back in again
But in between I catch my glimpse of everything
In a tunnel of dark
Lacerated on shimmering shards
I live my life for you
Nothing else to do


Cycles

Lyrics:
Tell me what you, tell me what you know
I have nothing left that I can show
Cutting through the static with a stone
I don’t need a piece in your control
I feel that there’s another place to go
Watching every part of me implode
Is it time for us
I’m doing what I must
Glitter in the dust
I feel all different ways
In and out of phase
In and out of trust
Learn it all in time
Draw out what is mine
Leave the rest behind
Given of a heart
Turning with the stars
Take it as a sign

Trust

Lyrics:
In the end I don’t know who to turn to, no
Scrubbing hurt from my bones
Was thinking maybe I could be like you
But maybe I won’t
Is this the way it is now
Is this the way
Is this the way it is
The way it is
Could I ever really let you go
Could I pull the marrow from my bones
Maybe you’re like me and I’m like you
Maybe I make it so

The Way It Is

From the new EP, Lave, out now via @teefrecords
Buy vinyl or digital: https://teefrecords.bandcamp.com/album/lave

All My Skin on the Air official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItLEF1H2vqU

Noisey interview: https://noisey.vice.com/en_au/article/its-meant-to-be-jarring-watch-the-first-ever-video-from-lonelyspeck

Lyrics:
i remember how you feel about every little thing
i think about how you’d feel about every little thing that i would do
clung on the bluff at my edge
you’ve been enough for my head
i tried to pull it all out like a thread
unravel the dress
make me naked
i want all my skin on the air
it isn’t about you
it’s about me
i don’t even care like that anymore
it’s just what i’m left with
i said i wouldn’t write anymore words about you
but i couldn’t get the rest out the door without saying this too
i tried to pull it all out like a thread
unravel the dress
make me naked
i want all my skin on the air

Lave

All My Skin on the Air

Buy Lave EP

From the new EP, Lave, out now via @teefrecords
Buy vinyl or digital: https://teefrecords.bandcamp.com/album/lave

Lyrics:
unfold me
there are still things that i am trying to rinse
poke a leak
to let them flow out and in
put a river in me
i feel okay but tired a lot
it’s too quiet with the window shut
i opened it to hear the air caught in the leaves
and then in my breathing
scoop out the core
and lather it onto the mantle
no one has lived here before
i gather it was inhospitable
i feel okay but tired a lot
it’s too quiet with the window shut
i was walking through the park and i thought
i don’t hate myself
i don’t berate myself like i used to

Happy New Year

From the new EP, Lave, out now via @teefrecords
Buy vinyl or digital: teefrecords.bandcamp.com/album/lave

i-D article: https://i-d.vice.com/en_au/article/lonelyspecks-settle-feels-almost-as-good-as-asmr

Lyrics:
gravity helped me slip down and be eaten by the ground
helped saltwater fall out past the corner of the mouth
at least something’s moving
i’ll trust that you know where to go
you can’t tell me what i want to know
let my body quiet and fit
settle in the cracks like a liquid
it’s the same speed when i want slow
it’s too bright when i want the light low
easy to hurt if you wanna have a go
i’m not strong enough to hold my own
you’re the one who pulled me in
now pull me out the other side
sick of feeling like i’m falling

Settle

@solokisoloki asked me to make a remix and i couldn't turn it down 💞
https://soundcloud.com/solokisoloki/liquid-luck
@owakerecs
art by skimchi https://www.instagram.com/skimchi/

So Loki - Liquid Luck (Lonelyspeck Remix)

A previously unreleased first version of the track that would ultimately find its home on Lave(2017, @teefrecords) as ‘Happy New Year’. Mantle was a working title for Lave and a thematic thread through its imagery.

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWV8EPPWwJM
Download: https://lonelyspeck.bandcamp.com/track/mantle
Lave: https://teefrecords.bandcamp.com/album/lave

Mantle

Video

5 in the morning (lonelyspeck flip)

Lyrics:
Warmth of the earth
Benthal birth
Never was a strong swimmer
Never learnt

There is nowhere to go back to
I build a lot that I don't have to

Warmth of the dirt
Second birth
Never was a strong swimmer
Never learnt

Abyssal Body

Warmth of the Earth

Lyrics:
I mull on things I'm not born with
I make up stories I fit in
I dream a place I might belong
I dream one place where I come from

I imagine different lives lived
If we'd known each other all these years
I don't regret but I reflect on
Things I got and things I don't get

I know you love me, but what if you don't?
I live so far away and it's all I know
I know you love me, but what if you don't?
What if you, what if you

Forget about me when I'm not there
Though we have the same nose and same hair
I overthink it, I know I do
Did I get that part from you too?

I know you love me, but what if you don't?
I live so far away and it's all I know
I know you love me, but what if you don't?
What if you, what if you
I know what I am, but what if I don't?
An empty space where the rest of me goes
I know you love me, but what if you don't?
What if you, what if you

Picturing simpler ways to be
Where you already know me for me
Where I'm stronger than I have been
And I don't worry what you think

I know you love me, but what if you don't?
I live so far away and it's all I know
I know you love me, but what if you don't?
What if you, what if you
I know what I am, but what if I don't?
An empty space where the rest of me goes
I know you love me, but what if you don't?
What if you, what if you

What If You Don't

Lyrics:
I've been waiting
While you rain
Nothing changes
You've got so many ways
That you seep back down to me

I'm the path you clear
I'm the least resistance
I'm erosion from years

Deeper and deeper I dig
Trying to find your end
But you're still there
Down at the bottom of me
The soil I grew in

You're the mountain rain
To the river basin
You're the weight in the vein

Deeper and deeper I dig
Trying to find your end
But you're still there
Down at the bottom of me
The soil I grew in
Groundwater soaked in

And you're stepping on me
To get where you're going
I'm just a rock in the bed eroding
I don't remember when this started
And it's no effort for you
To push me down
But I live here too
I never wanted you around

Seep

Lyrics:
Born in salt and brine plume
Further than the light will ever penetrate to
It's just the way I learnt to live
Under the veil of the abyss
I don't hide myself from me
I hide myself from you

I'm not afraid of the dark beneath the ocean
It's where I stayed for the longest time
I'll be fine
It's just the way that I can't touch my emotions
Breathing the brine

Is it just how I'll stay?
Drifting around, unattached to every night and day
I wanna feel my weight for once
I wanna be the one I trust
I deny myself to me
When I define myself your way

I'm not afraid of the dark beneath the ocean
It's where I stayed for the longest time
I'll be fine
It's just the way that I can't touch my emotions
Breathing the brine

Maybe it's easier for you
I have this dream where it's all what it seems
But it's not like that for me usually
Usually
Is it because I have all this other shit to dig through?
Is it because I don't have the strength I need to breach through?
Is it because I'm wrong
I'm wrong, I'm wrong
I'm wrong, I'm wrong
I'm wrong, yeah

I'm not afraid of the dark beneath the ocean
It's where I stayed for the longest time
I'll be fine
It's just the way that I can't touch my emotions
Breathing the brine
I'm not afraid of the dark beneath the ocean
It's where I stayed for the longest time
I'll be fine
It's just the way that I can't touch my emotions
Breathing the brine

Brine

Visualiser

Lyrics:
Your beacon falls for miles
Traces my outline
Down in the blackest biles
Where I lie

Dry off my macerate skin
Raise me up the line you cast
Do you still think about me
And this old dark

I can see you down there in the night
In the night there
I can see you moving
To the rays of light here

I settle where you've been
Fit in the shell you shed again
Are you doing better out there
Better than I am

Dry off my macerate skin
Raise me up the line you cast
Do you still think about me
And this old dark?

I can see you down there in the night
In the night there
I can see you moving
To the rays of light here

I remember you
Remember the dark you get through
You never elude it
I'm here 'cause of you

My Angel Goes Before Me

Lyrics:
I've got a weight on my chest
Blood to my head
I've got the pressure of depth
On my neck
Take a deep, take a deep water breath

But why should I pretend that I've got air to breathe?
And why should I listen when you're not there for me?
And why should I lay down and drown?
Yeah

You can't tell me what I wanna do
You won't help me when I make it through
You can't tell me what I wanna do
Yeah

Under the cold of your skin
Wearing thin
Open you up with a pin
From within
Take a new, take a new body for a swim

But why should I pretend that I've got air to breathe?
And why should I listen when you're not there for me?
And why should I lay down and drown?

You can't tell me what I wanna do
You won't help me when I make it through
You can't tell me what I wanna do
Yeah

Lonelyspeck

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