I feel like dying - teen suicide cover

Toxicity Low (prod Born Hero)

FINE.

voice memo 1

the dogs in the yard
are barkin loudly
i can hear it fine
my ears 
are hurting

noises 
all around me
are so big
they bounce in my head

all this food is making me sick
nothing in my bed
nothing in my fridge
nothing in my chest

i’m dulling out
i will not stop i will not stop it
i’m dulling out 
i will not i will not
i feel it still
the claws in my brain trying to remember 
but i’m too dull 
to recall what it was i wanted to not forget

i’m dulling out
overstimulated 
unprepared for the consequences of my actions 

i feel myself
dulling out 
my senses are getting weaker 
my sense of self is growing smaller 
 
the moths that used to crowd me
are no longer attracted to my glow
they’ve found something brighter
than what they used to know

i can feel my brain as it gets older
sense my hair turning grey 
at roots
i will not cover them
i will not cover

i’m dulling out
i will not stop i will not stop it
i’m dulling out 
i will not i will not
i feel it still
the claws in my brain trying to remember 
but i’m too dull 
to recall what it was i wanted to not forget

the crows have come
they’re singing softly
they can see i’ll be there soon
they can smell it on my breath

Im dulling out.
Im dulling out

Dull

ugly brunette - horse jumper of love (Scruffpuppie cover)

I found a sketchbook I owned when I lived in texas, this isn't really a song, but more of a story about my growth from an ignorant, selfish child, from a young boy who began to experience hell and hurt, to somebody who wants more than anything to help those experiencing hell and hurt. I hope you enjoy.
the story:

7 to 13 years ago
your little sketchbook snuck it's way into your posession. so little. so carefree
when you were a selfish brat who never saw the world outside of the light load you carried

you left home 13 years later
young, naive, and scared.
clinging to your materialistic desires.
and look at you now;
not so naive anymore.
you've learned so much, but it's not so easy now
18 years later you've discovered so much happiness subjective
not too many are as lucky as you 
life is pain but you know that now 
you know relentless pain
you know the endless rain
everything is burning as you sing
trying to save broken minds
take them under your wing
anything that you can do
to help the souls who felt like you
sometimes words make do
when you don't stop asking who
who will help me thru

you know hell

I spend every single day thinking about how it’s always someone’s last, and it’s never going to end, until it does, of course.

learning to know hell from the beginning

i dont know the lyrics and i taught myself the chords via ear lol

nose bleeder- horse jumper cover

How To Save A Life (cover)

machine

shoutout reece for the drums and elle for the cover art :-)

@reece.carmeme and @elle.ramosss on insta!

I feel like dying - teen suicide cover

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