more Hip-Hop inspired by Black Metal. this song is about facing the inner thoughts associated with depression and anxiety, and how it can be hard to function in the real world and interpersonal relationships because of them. image is of Nattram from the band Silencer. not actually a cut up human

Lyrics:

never know how to give the shit a rest
always locked within my mind, what's their feelings take a guess?
destined to feel like a plague, a virus holding pest
try to erase all the pain, can only do my best
always afraid that i fall, the pavement breaks the skin
it's hard to feel like i'm truly accepted in the end
always have doubt that i'm ever considered as a friend
is it just me? i can't help but notice my thoughts descend
try to uphend passing thoughts that im nothing but a curse
i try to get out the spiral, and somehow shit gets worse

never known to get rest
silencer, a bloody mess 
deep scars skin shred
put me to my final bed

feeding hatred to myself, can i handle it?
i'm losing light it's like i only got the candle lit
i'm blacking out while feeling like i'm facing banishment
to fight the darkness, i gotta give it acknowledgement
within my chest i feel tense by thinking i'm a mess
like those i love are just drifting off fading interest
like i am losing the grip i struggled for years to gain
like i'm an outcast in to everyone in the human race
like it'd be better to silence everything i could say
am i presence that's needed? i only wish to stay

SILENCER (PROD. BY THORN BEATS)

tonight was the first time this song debuted before Soundcloud. 

this song is me on my Lil B shit trying to forget the sorrow and remind myself of why i do this. i’ve been doing Hip Hop in varying degrees for the last 10 years and i won’t lie, i was absolutely terrified before i decided to even release this song. when i first recorded it and practiced, i thought this song was going to be ignored. hated. people would walk out during it

jesus fucking christ i can’t believe i was wrong about this. from after the first use of the hook, the entire crowd seriously welcomed me. it was the first time i felt accepted by the weird dichotomy i have forged out

and i will never forget a single person in that crowd

hearing people scream BIG BOBBY ROSS and GO AND GET A CROSS having only played this song once was a dream i never knew i wanted to come true until it did

thank you to Zach, The Holloway Tape, Kravn and D, Shining Wizard (who shouted me out, i’ll tag with you guys any day), Freak Scene, and Noah from Blistering Defilement. you all made everything worth it tonight; along with every crowd member

thank you all for making me realize i shouldn’t be afraid to do this and put myself out there

now available: Big Bobby Ross for listening!

BIG BOBBY ROSS (Prod. By SennsCurse)

THIS IS THE OFFICIAL REMIX TO THE SONG BIG BOBBY ROSS

to get very intimate (as if this is something new to anyone who has followed my musical journey), recently i have rekindled a seemingly thought lost friendship. i reconnected with one of the members of Karma Army, Beastabrooks, and we decided a great way to usher in this rekindling would be to create and present an official remix to the song BIG BOBBY ROSS. this remix is intended to be an emphatic statement, exclaiming our desire to keep this friendship growing and to also regain lost flame by doing something we did best: terrorizing tracks together.

this feels like a very cathartic moment, and by making this song it has only reignited the flame of us wanting to bring more music to people together. with this remix, we express personal feelings of the rift that was driven between us as well as the circumstances that helped drive it. while we cannot change the past, we can certainly mold the future before us. here's to this song, our friendship, and many more dope tracks we have in the pipeline.

Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Rito Aguirre at
Additional harsh vocals by Baaron
Beat created by Sennscurse

BIG BOBBY ROSS (Remix) ft. Beastabrooks

this is a release that may or may not serve as my penultimate journey in releasing hip hop music. sometimes i get really discouraged from doing this. for multiple reasons. do i have a place here? why do i make these songs? am i fully healed? have i done right by the people that matter the most to me?

this is a collection of songs that have been written and recorded over the past year from 2022-2023. this mixtape deals with themes of depression, loss, love, triumph, tragedy, drug abuse, mental illness, political and social unrest, and the overarching theme that things might not be as well off as they seem. this is intended to be a big coming out part but also more than likely my final stop in the world or hip-hop due to squandered potential, lack of engagement with other people, and feeling like a general annoyance to the world.

i appreciate anyone and everyone who listens to this. this release is my heart and soul for now, and i hope whatever i do next is worth all the time.
credits
released March 30, 2023

Production on Tracks 1, 2, 3, 5, 6, & 7 by SennsCurse
Production on Track 4 by Savages
Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Lord dealwithit
Recorded in Lakeland, FL. Finished in Augusta, GA

Special Thanks: my mother, my brother, my father, Yasmeen, Liam, Ned, Danny, Zach, Lil B, Lil Ugly Mane, Public Enemy, Nas, all the hip-hop artists that inspired me as it would be too many to list, life changes, Velvet Cacoon, the darkness of my own mind, the ability to uproot myself and attempt to live life on my own terms. i love this world, i just don't know what my place in it is.

REVENGE

Production handled by SHIMMIE BOYZ, go follow and check out the sick beats on the page: https://soundcloud.com/shimmie_boyz_beats

this track came together after SHIMMIE BOYz hit me up through DM's and he offered me this beat to use. while musically this is too much my style, the first obstacle was the length of the track. i have not written a rap song touching this length since my original demo mixtape RITVAL, which was the catalyst for the inspiration of this song. taking the sombre tones of the Depressive Suicidal Black Metal influence in the beat, and adding the howling haunting shrieks of The Cartographer, the one man behind the Florida based Black Metal project Queen of Heathens, couple that with lyrics influenced by my old days starting out in hip-hop, and how my life has changed in perception from that time to the current day. at almost 6 minutes in length, INCANTATION may be the most heartfelt, personal, and soul bearing song i've ever written.

INCANTATION (Ft. The Cartographer) (Prod. By SHIMMIE BOYz)

What's Poppin FREESTYLE

i got the wise idea to rerecord the first true rap song i ever made and released, THE/COMMVNION from the album RITVAL. not really much to say about this one. early days show, but i still love this song and i think the rerecording give it the ferocity it always deserved. now at least this can be the version listened to if anyone ever goes back. unless i just decide to rerecord the entire RITVAL album...

THE/COMMVNION 2k20 (Prod. by Lord dealwithit)

EXPLOSIVE ROUNDS (Prod. by Liam Mahan)

Using the Instrumental of The Joy by Kanye West and Jay-Z (The Throne) produced by Pete Rock. 
Track 1 from “3 Piece, No Biscuit” 

Co-Mixed by R. Stein

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The Joy Of A Dozen Roses

Produced by ProdFreezy. Check out his Beatstars Page. Found this instrumental on YouTube after this woman I was dating called me “fake”. She told me it sounded like I have multiple personalities and that I was acting Fake. I asked her how so? And she never came up with a response... so I made a song. Enjoy!

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I’m Fake

The Instrumental used is Yonkers by Tyler, The Creator! After the events that took place during Quarantine 2020, I made a reactionary vibe using my voice and a beat. My life matters as equally as the next person. If something happens to me, people would be hurt, and lost. I’m black. My black life matters just as equally as everyone else’s. All black lives matter just as equally as everyone else’s. If you don’t understand that, understand all of the lyrics in my songs.

Co-Mixed by R. Stein.

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Fear Of Us

CONTACT EMAIL: lorddealwithit@gmail.com or mprinceiii@gmail.com
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