LYRICS:

Yeah, I heard you say
all the things that carve deep
but today I know you well enough
And I feel sorry for you
(for) the way you're hiding in the dark
in desperate search
for a scapegoat to point blame to

Losing hold of yourself
just like a thread that is severed
enstranged to all around you

Torn and broken inside
just like a thread that was severed
You're put down from your throne

And you know you fooled yourself
you played pretend for too many days
The pain feels real now
Yeah, I feel sorry
Don't know why you would doubt me
The one you used to put your trust into
Forget entitlement
when you're about to cut all ties
A thread severed is what you are

A thread severed (demo)

Re-Upload of the FFH song with my former band.

LYRICS:

(So deep asleep)

You gave up too easy
delivered to their hands
offered no resistance
brought this on yourself

You gave up too easy
delivered to their hands
And the sickest part about it:
You keep smiling still

All-aware, no synapse uncontrolled
Your thoughts aren't your own now
Always searching for a greater truth
expressed in numbers

Slender men
dressed in black
know where you're going
know where you've been

They pull your strings
and you start to dance

[instrumental break]

Pray to the machine
and hope it's all a dream

Cut off from your surroundings
The noise is all you hear
Forget your life preceding
There is purpose that awaits you here

But you don't seem to
suffer from this anymore

All-aware, no synapse uncontrolled
Your thoughts are your own now

Slept for so long in a casket of glass
The great dream eater has come for the feast (x2)

Slender men
dressed in black
know where you're going
know where you've been

Slender men
at your back
they drop your strings
and you lie down (dead) (x2)

Far From Heart - Narcotics (feat. Ben-G from I Watch Mountains Grow)

Homerecorded Demo with my former band FFH

LYRICS: 

Es beginnt
als leises Pochen
tief verborgen in deinem Kopf.
Nur der Schatten eines Zweifels,
der dich verfolgt.
Jahrelang nur ganz am Rande
vage und verschwommen
wahrgenommen.

Ein selbst-destruktiver Impuls
brennt sich tief in dich hinein;
wird zum Zentrum deines
selbstbestimmten Seins.
Die Hand bleibt ruhig,
Der Puls geht hoch.
Das Ende des Kapitels,
Erlösung aus der Not

(Endlich frei)

Kann es denn sein?
Du bist dein Feind?
Mit dir allein
holt es dich ein. (X2)

Kann dich hinterfragen
vor dem Tod bewahren? (x2)

Und es war immer
so wie du sagst.
Du wandelst taumelnd,
unbeholfen auf schmalem Grat. (x2)

[Instrumental]

Und es war immer
so wie du sagst.
Du wandelst taumelnd,
unbeholfen auf schmalem Grat.
Es war wie immer
selbst-prophezeit:
Verbrannte Brücken, gebrochenes Herz,
verdammt auf Lebenszeit.

Dazu kommt noch Angst
vor vorbestimmtem Versagen.
Hoffnung zieht vorbei
mit der Aussicht auf die besseren Tage.

Vater, vergib mir
doch sieh mich an:
Entstelltes Selbstbild
und seelisch krank
bedingt meine Scham.

[Instrumental]

Und es war immer
so wie du sagst.
Du wandelst taumelnd,
unbeholfen auf schmalem Grat.
Es war wie immer
selbst-prophezeit:
Verbrannte Brücken, gebrochenes Herz,
verdammt auf Lebenszeit.

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

It begins
as a faint throbbing
hidden deep inside your head.
Just a shadow of a doubt
that keeps haunting you.
For years at the edge of awareness
only perceived vaguely and blurred.

A self-destructive idea
burns deep into you;
becomes the focus of your
self-determined existence.
Hand remains steady,
while the pulse rises.
The end of the chapter,
salvation from distress.

(finally free)

Could it be the true?
Your enemy is you?
Alone with yourself
it catches up to you. (x2)

Can questioning yourself
save you from demise? (x2)

And it has always
been as you say.
You're tripping clumsily
along a fine line. (x2)

[Instrumental]

And it has always
been as you say.
You're tripping clumsily
along a fine line.
As always
it's been self-foretold:
Burned bridges, broken heart,
doomed for a lifetime.

To all of this adds fear
of predetermined failure.
Hope drifts past
with the prospect of better days to come.

Father, forgive me
but look at me:
Disfigured self-image
and sick from the soul
causes all my shame.

[Instrumental]

And it has always
been as you say.
You're tripping clumsily
along a fine line.
As always
it's been self-foretold:
Burned bridges, broken heart,
doomed for a lifetime.


Far From Heart - Spiegelgeister

Homerecorded demo of my former band FFH.

LYRICS:

I'm giving up
despite a love that can't be drowned
despite the light still shining bright within our eyes
Could I have denied to live a lie?

What more could you ever take from me?
What else could even affect me
enough to leave?

But we keep being told
that it is smarter to be moving on
Not to even hang up on what touched
our hearts the most - so shut it close
What has passed should stay in the past
but what if it was meant to last?
What has passed should stay in the past
Just make it last

I wish it wasn't this way
-but-
your eyes keep giving away
the doubt we cannot escape
Don't turn from me

despite a love that can't be drowned
despite the light still shining bright within our eyes
Look at me and tell me now
our time has passed and I'll be gone

So what more could you ever take from me?
What else could even affect me
enough to leave?

We're growing closer and yet we are falling apart
This struggle ties us together but makes it impossible
Impossible to leave, impossible to breathe
Fuck! Fuck putting mind over the heart
and fuck the rules that in secret govern our thoughts
I remember a time where we could breeze and sing
A time before our pride had swallowed us
and stripped us of our wings

And now I'm crossing that line again
for I just cannot let you leave
And now I'm crossing that line again
though it barely feels real
Now we're crossing that line again
I think it's meant to be
We are crossing that line again
but it doesn't feel real

Far From Heart - On moving on

My take on a mix and vocal cover of Killswitch Engage's Rose of Sharyn.

LYRICS:

Numb and broken
here I stand alone
wondering what were
the last things I said to you

Hoping, praying
that I'll find a way to turn back time
Could I turn back time?

What would I give to behold
Your smile, the face of love
You never left me
The rising sun will always speak your name

Numb and broken
here I stand alone
wondering what were
the last things I said to you

It won't be long
We'll meet again

What would I give to behold
your smile, the face of love
You never left me
The rising sun will always speak your name

It won't be long
We'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long
We'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting

I mourn for those who never knew you (x2)


It won't be long
We'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long
We'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting

(hoping, praying
for a way to turn back time
your memory is never passing)

Rose of Sharyn (Killswitch Engage Cover)

Learning to sing and play at the same time - so I covered the Rihanna - only version of the song.

LYRICS:

On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I wonder why I'm still surprised

Even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

Just gonna stand their and watch me burn
but that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand their and hear me cry
but that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war you'll always right
even when I'm right

Cause you feed me fables from your hands
with violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

Just gonna stand their and watch me burn
but that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand their and hear me cry
but that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Love The Way You Lie (Rihanna Cover)

New guitar based rendition of an old piano song. A bit softer than previously.

LYRICS:

Maybe they can't see your face the way I do
behind frail fingers you hide from truth
And maybe you got caught so you could run away
But you can't run all day

(and I saw)

you stir you in colors that linger around you
and no one else has seen
why I refrain to touch you
cause that trembling in your eyes
will turn into shivers
crawling painfully down your back
And those squirms could make you
stumble from your way
And so fear of yourself
makes you stall until you halt

When all goes against your ways
I will try and fix everything
And maybe you only had to fall
so I could see you

breathless

When The Storyboard Stabs You In The Back (Guitar Version)

This is the entry I made for the "For The People" vocals contest that Hardstyle DJ and Producer Frontliner held. It was seriously interesting and fun to work with his material. All of the music is his work.

LYRICS:

It is strange to see
how small we must become
but at the same time 
think so much bigger than before
we couldn't see the sun
we cowered in the dark
and now a single ray of light
opens a path into a new life

Don't you fear the wild
the haunting, and wounded
There is no point in being afraid

To overcome
we must fantasize beyond
You'll find answers within
Make your thoughts into words
let your fire within be heard

You better not
live in silence

This is welcome
to a new world, a new culture
transcend and evolve
break the cypher and grow
We will find ourselves new horizons
for the people we become

Every one is part of
every single part of
what's about to commence
and it's everybody's business
whatever your name is
you are part of this revolution

We'll pave the way for
for the people we become

For The People (Frontliner Vocal Contest)

A short, simple and slow song, that I personally like very much for its mood. Looking for someone to maybe do real drums for this one. I feel it would add greatly to it.

Bloom

LYRICS:

You won't see wonders like these again
you'll try to find 'em but you can't
take a look at what we've done
now they're gone, they're gone for good
Their presence has faded and soon we will, too
Stop breaking the things which you don't know how to repair
understand what it's like to meet your end
with the smell of your dead siblings in the air
Do upon others as you would do upon yourself
You have forgotten the way that it hurts
to be scared and alone
to be driven from your home
Helplessly exposed to a tormentor much more dominant
Atrocities you said you would oppose
Why didn't you get involved, bitch?
You didn't think that you could solve this?
Well, now you can't.

Don't just say that you're sorry
I wanna see that you're sorry
Haven't you thought of this before?
Haven't you heard of this shit before?

Did I hear you say you're sorry?
No, you're not. You still don't give a fuck
Did you think you where the only person
that was careless enough
to think that everyone else would care just enough
to take action against a problem 
which could be easily postponed and forgotten
And now you missed your moment
You blew your chance to make things right
The struggle is over and all survivors will die
There is no hope of coming back from the desctruction
you have left in your wake
and those who suffered the most won't be around 
to see that it's too late

Earthchild (demo)

Singer and song writer of many styles from Vienna, Austria. Always looking for other open minded musicians to collaborate with either in person or over distance, so don't hesitate in talking to me.

Please also take note of my other projects:

WHISPERS BREAK SILENCE - http://soundcloud.com/whispers-break-silence
YOURARMSAREBROKEN - http://soundcloud.com/yourarmsarebroken
LOWLIFE - http://www.facebook.com/lowlifehc

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