why go far away?
thats what i am, myself. 
but answers aren't coming. 
i just want to go now.

why run from who we've been?
i know its been so hard to go 
so why do we ask ourselves whats right and whats wrong?
hold on
i know we're gone
hold on.

are we gone now?

Why won't my love stay here
when im here, when im here
and now that i've gone over
he stands there, he answers:
dont go far, i'll meet you half way.

why didnt you say yesterday
it was that way, then i could stay
now im gone (dont go far) 
so far i can't come back. (im walking your way)
(now im here) no i cant come back. 

don't go far (go far)
i'll meet you (ill meet you) 
wherever you want (im here im here)
dont go far (go far)
im ready (she stands there)
Im changing (she answers)
don't go far  
I want you (she's changing)
why won't my love stay here?
i can't go back now.

why won't my love stay here?

hard to handle, its always been this way.
but oh... i'm sorry. 
im known to kick and scream
i was made for some other world. 
and now i heard you, you brought me to you
i cant forget you, my love. 

hard to handle, its always been this way
did you hear, i'm sorry? oh, sorry. 
forgive me. 

im sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. im sorry.

forgive me?

why go far away?
thats what i am, myself. 
but answers aren't coming. 
i just want to go now.

why run from who we've been?
i know its been so hard to go 
so why do we ask ourselves whats right and whats wrong?
hold on
i know we're gone
hold on.

are we gone now? (louder vocals)

 just leave. im tired of hearing your voice.
calling, you're calling. why won't you stop?
just a memory, oh you're just a memory
so fade back where you belong. 

each day is a struggle now. 
im trying to move on. 
i think im free and then i see you somewhere i want to be. 

taunting, just mocking, like this is what you gave up
and you want to show its better somewhere else. 
its better somewhere else
its better somewhere else
its better somewhere else. 

hes different and its true
hes nothing like you
and thats the way i want it to be 
no, she didn't give up anything
she gave up what you mean to me
and i won't leave you i won't go away
whoa-oh, she gave up everything
this new place isnt any better
nothings better now.

is it better for you?

 im not alive, but somewhere, somewhere im alive. somewhere, somewhere
and here, the colors they hide
then there they are in all their beautiful light
their light. 
colors wash over me, i feel them in my throat
im not alive.
they choke at the sight of me
im not alive.
but somewhere im alive. 
im not sure that that ill survive.
the colors come from the sky, they are everything i see.

am i from the sky?

silent heartache in me,
wrapped around
my home
my head.

hello?

one take, off the top of my head.--

why dont i meet your standards, father?
you know i want to be the one you're proudest of.
why do you push me away, father? 
you know i've thought about ending my life so many times. 

but you dont know. 
no, you dont know, no you dont know anything 
about me. 
no you don't know, you don't know
anything.

why do i get your scorn my father? 
you know i want to be the daughter that you love. 
why have you given up, my father?
on me and my mother and my brother, yeah him too.

but you don't know. no you dont know anything 
about me. 
no you don't know, no you don't know why i sing. 

no you dont know why i draw, why i cry sometimes. 
no you don't know why you're so cold, you don't know you'll get old.

why don't i meet your standards, father? 
i know you must wish you had someone else to understand. 
i dont think that you're happy, father. 
why won't you let someone who loves you help you out?

cuz you dont know, you dont know anything. 
no you dont know no you dont know that its me.

Why, father?

An old song from 2015 I made with a terrible snare drum sound I wish I could erase from existence. (:

Raise it like a knife, hold it to your breast
Faith is like the coming home of everything
I am hiding. I am hiding. 
Race like the runner headed for the finish line
I’m just hurting from the other night. 
Heart like a beast, some kind of unwell energy
Did they do it like they said it when they said they’d burn it out of me?
Out of me

I’m on their side
But I am not come from the light. 
I’m on their side
But I am not one of their kind. 

Break it like a mirror unhinge from your gaze
Take another step towards the end of everything
Are you crying? I’m done crying. 
Fake it like a player cheated by the game
Take it like the liar when the fire turns around and comes for you again
Love from me. 

I’m on their side
But I am not come from the light. 
I’m on their side 
But I am not one of their kind.

The Fall (Demo 2015)

Ghost

Noping out of there 99% of the time.
my band: https://soundcloud.com/nightsoundsband

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