Hamilton - this life (prod. 4am)

with @greenwood2000 <3

(greenwood)
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that i
counted steps on the way home
dream of you in the dayglow
do whatever you say so
fell asleep in the same clothes
from the first night, what you do to me
everything, just partially
i could stay but i could leave yeah
i could change and i could be
something you want but like shit it was never that easy yeah
i’m only starting to drop and you’re thinking of leaving yeah
its cool ok its fine but i just need it yeah
and i don’t even have the words man you just gotta feel it
sick of being me here in secret
sick of saying things i don’t feel yet
stake it all and i reject yeah
take a lot til i see less
the textures so faded, like lotus i’m dead weight
quit smoking cause i hate it
just the last year i’ve been chasing
beautiful is it painless?
all the feelings i’ve wasted
only thing that feels safe is cold feet i’ve been wa

only thing that feels safe is cold feet i’ve been waiting
literal, i got metal inside of my bones now
keep me inside of my home now
i don’t think that you know how
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that i
counted steps on the way home
dream of you in the dayglow
do whatever you say so
fell asleep in the same clothes
from the first night, what you do to me
everything, just partially
i could stay but i could leave yeah
i could change and i could be

(speedlmt)
i thought it would get easier
let her lie and now i cant even bare seeing her
but now im leaving you
cause i aint tryna get hurt again
ik your lying cause i asked your friends

so what do you see in me
burn holes in your black tee
burn holes in my white tee
thought you were just like me, yeah
you said its my fault you're jaded
now im sitting in my room getting faded

(speedlmt and greenwood)
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that

catatonic w/ greenwood

im losing reality
got no grip of home
lost the skin on my bones

ive lost my mentality
the mirror bestows
which path that Ill go

have you taken it out of me?
the monster that roams
deep, within my skull

cases of lobotomy
prove that I'm alone
no-one picks up the phone 

anymore for the loner
make your decision when will this be over
I'm on a path towards destruction while sober
I cant keep up and I've lost my composure
(are you coming over?)

are you coming over
are you coming over
tonight I can't see my self when I'm without you
but I think I'm better off dead than around you

how should I talk when you make it about you
and question the shit that I say I despise you

i despise you (prod safeatlast)

[intro]

Awake with northern lights 
My body is alive 
I now feel things inside
The mud is all my life

[chorus]

Outside, I can hear the steps of death
I hide, hoping he can’t hear my breath 
Decide, if it’s worth leaving the nest 
So bright, his lantern shows his every step 

[verse]

The sludge that I made from it comes from the Earth
I’ve always been running since the day of my birth
It’s only for game, they do it for earnings 
Vicious the cycle it’s all just absurd
Bullets they hurling from iron they stole 
Feeling parts of me flying by, that’s my soul 
Shattering when they fly by and they miss me 
Parts of me of gone that’s just causing me misery
Walk alone while I try to visit this city
No eye contact, they’ll know that they’re missing 
I don’t want no one to see me and pity 
But I know that they won’t 
They’ll try to kill me with the sorrow I hold 
The monster I am they just see me as coal
The longer this go on the worse it gets it’s getting old 

[chorus]

Outside, I can hear the steps of death
I hide, hoping he can’t hear my breath 
Decide, if it’s worth leaving the nest 
So bright, his lantern shows his every step 

[verse - vails]

Maybe I won't get it wrong
If there's a next time
Then maybe we could get along
But I've facing all this pain
I'm seeing faces in the rain
You tell me I was all to blame And that's why i have gone insane
Outside, I can hear the steps of death And it's been beating in my chest My heart is failing like a test
Yeah
I hide, my thoughts of running out of town Don't want to ever be around
Can't keep my feet off of the ground

[chorus]

Outside, I can hear the steps of death
I hide, hoping he can’t hear my breath 
Decide, if it’s worth leaving the nest 
So bright, his lantern shows his every step

mud (feat. vails) (cxrter & yunny goldz)

all i wanted. (trying.)

lyrics 


i give u the world n u spit in my face
pour up this drink n im hating the taste
im out my head im out my brain
feeling like garbage i think it was laced
look at my stats n i think that i made it
all of my body i swear that i hate it
hand on my waist
hand of my face
all that i prepped
has all gone to waste
bb jus gimme the time of day
im too busy i need u to stay
i carry on me a big ol blade
im not a barber but im handing out fades
in the future we will both be erased
u will forget me when im in the grave
im in my bag, what else can i say
sorry my bad
im waking up late

i do not care
im shackled in chains
floorboards wear
under the weight
concrete walls
metal plates 
silent hall
in the basement

 i grabbed my heart out the clutches of the dead
u will think u live in hell when u wake up again
i feel pounding
i feel nails in my head
i wake up the fire that was sealed in my death
god save me
im too deep
sinking quicksand
and its up to my knees
god save me
im too deep
i cant see
under all these leaves

i give u the world n u spit in my face
pour up this drink n im hating the taste
im out my head im out my brain
feeling like garbage i think it was laced
look at my stats n i think that i made it
all of my body i swear that i hate it
hand on my waist
hand of my face
all that i prepped
has all gone to waste
bb jus gimme the time of day
im too busy i need u to stay
i carry on me a big ol blade
im not a barber but im handing out fades
in the future we will both be erased
u will forget me when im in the grave
im in my bag, what else can i say
sorry my bad
im waking up late

average friday for sm1 like me

succumb ($adthrax)

Suicide is never a good option. If you or someone you know is struggling please call (988)
You are loved. Your life matters.
 , Scott Fullerton

Never Ending Battle Meets An Impossible Forfeit (the Note For When They Find Me) [Final]

[he4vy]
harder for me
tell me you get it you see 
nightmares all over and over again tell me what it could be 
i just dont think
down on my knees 
suffer in threes
ive seen a lot in my years but id still never do this again
lately talk outta my ass
lost and dont know what to do
passing up time doesnt last
dont hit my line 
i been through
faded like memories black
tasting the blood from a pool
cuts on my body 
they claim me a hero 
still jestering right from a noose
nightmares inside it
bloated cant fight it
all fast no intake
run from death like a relay
might talk down
i still need pay 
i dont get rest 
i dont feel great
danger of a mistake 
need help post it on myspace

[quinsea]
Need help but i cant post it
No wifi in the lions den
Speak to me like the serpent did
When he offered up a false gift 
Burning time cuz i hate it here
Wishin that i could disappear
The rain is heavy but my vision clear
nightmares keep coming
But i swear that

nightmare ft. quinsea (falci)

dont_leave w/ REØ SAI (prod. hazel)

Hammy - Mine

just let go, and let the wind blow you away 🌬️


It’s all love.🌹

If you think you don’t have a home, or somewhere to belong. I have a place for you 💕

a lot of songs on here I regret, but I keep them up to see how far I’ve come day by day.🌱

NON-PROFIT ACCOUNT.🐢

I dislike money. If someone offered me a million dollars, or some fried chicken right now. I’d take the fried chicken. I’m trying to go vegetarian, but it’s so hardddd. 

https://www.instagram.com/hazel.045?igsh=bnphYzI1c28zdnY1&utm_source=qr

https://youtube.com/@linkrun21?si=6yxGQE4afdmGl0JC

all I care about is these people, love, and my heart.

pay attention to detail with me. With everything.

I thank God you and I are alive everyday, and that those in death will never be gone.

I wait for the day filled with sunshine ☀️. The day where someone tells me pain no more. They will take me to happy, and safe place. 
I love you. 
Waiting for my world to save me. I want nothing. But you’re love my friends.

I’d die for love 

Heart of gold 

I’ll never fold

Numbers, money, and hate mean absolutely nothing to me.

succumb ($adthrax)

hazel

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