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Produced by Forlorn.
FREE DOWNLOAD: https://shinobutherapper.bandcamp.com/track/second-guessing

LYRICS:
I feel insane, or maybe same as I've just always felt
My brain's deranged, detached membrane but failed to ever tell
Maybe today I'll end up dazed or something never dealt
I'll never say what flows throughout my brain and causes hell
Always unchained, my life just burns as all my joy just melts
Always in pain, I have no mouth but I wish I could belt
Out words in blaze, never contained within my awkward gaze
But life's a haze and I just wish that I could simply phase

Up on out of this realm of existence
Phased by nothing but I still feel like rubbish
Whipped by my passing thoughts, it's nothing but torture
Gripped by my lasting thoughts, I can't settle no score
My soul is fading away, I don't know what I could say
To make it last one more day, cause I just don't wanna pay
I thought I found myself but I'm still a lost soul
Tryna find me some purpose with no real large goal

Anticipation killed my ambitions beyond belief
Expectations ruined everything that I ever achieved
And it's a hard pill to swallow
Just move forward is my motto
Because ain't no use getting stuck in my own shell
When all it's done is created my own personal hell
That I wish to escape any time, any date
Let me out to see the sun and what I have done

Second guessing first impressions
Lacking blessing and I'm stressing
Overworking, overthinking
I was floating, now I'm sinking
Where has my mind gone lately?
It's felt like a gun pointed toward me, off safety
Convinced everyone I know hate me
Times slowly ticking as depression's constant kicking
Leaves a mark and doesn't stop till it's finished
Or leaves me feeling diminished
Bleeding out every positive feeling that I've ever kept
Instead of using these emotions, I just gave up and wept

Tears run across as my face as I put the pen to the paper
Put my heart and soul towards all of it but I still gotta cater
To those who'll never care what I deal with, or what's in my favor
To them this life is but a game and I'm simply a player
Playing into they hand, or simply playing myself
Constant reminders of time passed, I think I need some help
But I can't find the energy to ask for assistance with what I done dealt
Or simply speak the words to what I done felt

So instead, I'm just folding like some origami
Cause in the end, I'll just probably
Never find the answers, hardly
Ever expected more, only expected folly
But where should I even go now?
Where do I continue without a how?
Drowning at every moment of overwhelm
So, how could I ascend?
As I'm progressing through life, I feel more like an inkless pen
Moving forward without any real path or passion like I ain't actually

Worth anyone's time or a even moment of talking to
Used to feel bruised and purple, now I feel more and more blue
Used to feel bruised and purple, now I feel more and more blue

Second Guessing [prod. Forlorn]

wasn't ever planning on dropping this at first but friends convinced me

art by amias <3
produced by @louisbedroom

lyrics:

heard he was a sweet talker
heard he had a plan
he ain’t never heard of me darling
he ain’t ever rake the land

so momma why’d you give it away
momma why’d you give it away

im turned off by love songs,
they don’t make no sense

boot licker 
so he brought the whole army
I was fucking with you daddy
then you had to go and harm me
adolescence ain’t at fault
it’s the heart inside a vault
it’s the flaws the flaws
since you tucked it all  away
and your crime ain’t the passion
it’s emotional attachment 
it's the life that never happened 
it’s you stuck inside your ways
so rest in it bitch
you look just like Ging Freecs
on my momma 
we are better off so wallow in your peace 
we not doing this no more 
we ain’t spoken in some weeks 
or some months or years
I’m feeling like an outcast 
to all my peers 
they watch and sneer 
is it all inside my head
or inside this beer ?
...
just like the 2nd one

Sweet Talker (prod. louis bedroom)

visualizer - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q75r74sYNrk

tape coming out soon :3

(x2)
WhY Yo sPlItS ReD ??
LiL BiTcH
iM OnLy gOlD
YoU In mY HiTsCaN
PuSsY OnLy tAlK WhAt hE BeEn tOlD
YoU TaLk yA ShIt mAn
i mOcK Ya tRaCkS
yOu tHiNk iM JeAlOuS?
YoU Be pOsTiNg eVeRy mOnTh
bC Ya fAnS FoRgEt yA PrEsEnCe

i kEeP TaLkInG AlL My sHiT So u kEeP TaLkInG UrS
u lItTlE BiTcH
iM BaNgKoK DaNgErOuS
SuPpOrT 4gOt uR WaRdS?
iM ThAt tUnA BoY
SoRa sO BoReD
Of uR LaUrA LeS CoPy
i gOt pUsSiEs iN My dM'S
TeLlInG mE My mIx iS SlOpPy

bItCh
i kNoWwWwWw !

Im tHe oNlY ReAsOn
nObOdY ElSe sEeMs tO GrOwW !

yAlL AiNt cArPe dIeM
ThAtS WhY BeEn mOvInG SlOw !

i bEeN MaKiNg mOnEy mOvEs yAlL MaKe iT To mY ShOw ??
i jUsT RiDe oN IlY'S BaCk sHeS WhAt i lAcK ThAtS AlL I KnOw !

(x2)
wHy yO SpLiTs rEd ??
lIl bItCh
Im oNlY GoLd
yOu iN My hItScAn
pUsSy oNlY TaLk wHaT He bEeN ToLd
yOu tAlK Ya sHiT MaN
I MoCk yA TrAcKs
YoU ThInK Im jEaLoUs?
yOu bE PoStInG EvErY MoNtH
Bc yA FaNs fOrGeT Ya pReSeNcE

CL1NT.ST3V3N5.L00K-4L1K35

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(☍﹏⁰)｡ (tell a lie)

hellcat get cracked hayabusa
so much kick that i could turn a dragster to a loser
put an opp thru chicken run and can him like some tuna
i got blue cuts and my wrist like ocean water with the moon on

hellcat get smashed hit the booster
everything big like orchestral my manouvers
i just keep it dark till we march like some troopers
in the pool sippin whiskey stargazin bumpin grouper

time travel i just came from looper
i been makin money on computers
spin the wheel issa 6 shooter
fuckin with me now im in my uber

quad damage on me with the ruger
break her back like i been runnin thru her
i think half these rappers need a booster
new bitch got some blow just like a tuba

at my back and im not there
talk a lot but i dont care
walk in, they stop and stare
in my closet what do i wear

ice all over me i got a fracture
always been a buck above your stature
if your bitch is broken ima patch her
fuck it, rings bring the rapture

i double up hayabusa
i turn that bitch to a loser
enby blow me like a tuba
i get my cash from the sewer

i got no face, my spirit away
i dont got a gun but my pants are a k
i sever the base of your neck when i aim
ripper on me now you know your mistake

HELLCAT VS. HAYABUSA (prod. GIRLFROMPLUTO)

I made her cry

art by @kuuuuba !

featuring @sor-uh

produced by @phansyphish & @kunoui

cortez:

hearing deftones, i’m filled with adrenaline
had a lot of shit to talk so i’m penning it
almost retired but i’m on my shit again
like my bitches head i’m always scoring 10/10
fuck a ex bitch on igor shit like are we still friends?
bitch i’d put you in the dirt first chance that i get
tryna act like you was down but you finding dory
swimming round them messages
make me sick to my stomach
spitting intestines

living melancholic, haruhi suzumiya
drop a bag with my bitch at a fucking pizzeria
rappers talking shit but i never seem to hear it 
catch em in public like a sample bitch you better fucking clear it
don’t have my license but i’m tryna steer
clear of all the fuckery
i just need my bag and my bitch to come fuck with me
like my bitches thighs in the summer she gon be stuck wit me
no three 6 boy you never touching me


sor uh:

boy i talk my shit
got alot, 

gotta light my spliff,

hittin heavy like my shots,

aiming at some pussy bitch !!

typin online,
think he really on time
to clear?

boy u aint fine
got my ily
aiming sights
in here !

u been on some bitchmade getup
aim to flick,
need some wristaid
when i twitch they 
switch they setups,

on that glitch trademark talk,
biting at my heels 
yall need to bitedown
on some sidewalk !!

curbin all yo shit demos,

servin only day 1's,

throwback to them days 
when we were swervin
in suburbans
hitting ollies at the station c:

loading up on hi chews
while they tried to take my image
but my talent dont apply
to all these 
these pussies at they limit

its a mimic stance
u takin
boy and i aint even phased !
got the same kick snare
impaired and loopin all yo plays !

its so funny watching 
everybody try to hmu :0
boy u too worried
bout connections
thats ur money divvied up :/ shiittt


cortez:

i need you right beside me
now more than ever
it took so long to find me
i traveled stormy weather 
nows the perfect timing
i never wanted to settle
never seen the silver lining
every chance it fell through 
my bitch pretty like michiko
puffy hair like hatchin
throw bills stripped with indigo
we can get it popping
she don’t like it slow
like in a strelitzia proceed with caution
pistil position hitting all the targets
i don’t care what you charging
as long as she want it
this bitch worth more than a couple hundreds
bound 2 thousand bitches ain’t nothing
feel like igor chasing her no time i’m running
out of fucking ways to verbally express myself
fuck a couple bills when you’re my true wealth
get a farm in belgium
couple fucking animals 
on the field till we’re old

farm in belgium feat. sor uh (produced by phansyphish/kunoui)

2025 Freestyle Chopped & Screwed

i tried to remix bye bye baby ( my fav yandhi demo ) a few weeks ago. it didn't really go as planned .. so heres a snippet b4 i fuck up the rest of the song lol

art by @ amiasarts on ig : )

BYE BYE BABY! ... =>demo snip

fairy fountain o clock

mf zeph:

ive fallen in love with a fairy!
its apparent she dont really care for me
305 ride or die
konata by my side
but she dont wanna slide
on a heart so wide
so im just sitting and questioning
beckoning
got the millennium key
baby wont you just let me in
we keep fucking
i know you is stressed again

cortez: 

i’ve fallen in love with a fairy
more like a demon
the way she keep eating my soul
only 16 but you make me feel so old
sakoku, always alone
nine inch nails stabbed in my dome
no friends to talk to
no home to walk to
i hate your voice 
i just wanna smash up my phone
i need you to leave me alone

mf zeph:

ive fallen in love yet again
i keep pursuing dreams even though
we'd be better as friends
this super mario sunshine is beautiful
joe it be viewtiful
cuticle shawty
the love an illusion
a simp irrefutable
rattle my chains, baby
fool on my tarot
reload and then smack with the ammo
pea shooter shawty come out from the bramble

cortez:

i’ve fallen again
i keep calling and calling
i get left on read
i’m not a friend
i’m not a trend
i’m not an iron lung or the bends
feel like sirenhead
scream at the void
can’t get out of bed
unless i’m making some noise
i got no choice
cut this bitch off
shinya banba
cut that bitch off
bumping mantra

mf zeph:

big thick holo tips hit!
straight through the heart like a dragoon
ain't in a bad mood
i was just hotaro in the classroom
death card, chalice
she came to the function
malicious intent
light my fire
no need to get all your cards bent
might be heaven sent
ive seen hell twice
and its quite nice
kinda like your face in the moonlight

cortez:

my bitch michiko 
i’m feeling like hatchin
talking that shit
my bitch gets to popping 
feeling so pretty
but i’m walking with caution
weapons like death the kid
i got 2 options
just like scarface whip
i need my bitch topless
i pan you out the picture
with the cropping
just like yandhi
you wish you could drop me

mf zeph:

time stops, it's just the two of us
dj screw with us
but ion care bout who with us
doin shit behind the scenes
it's about the cream
butterflies whiz by, baby
as you set sail
leaving my mind
and i wake up in a cold sweat
i just wanna forget

fairy! (feat. cortez) [prod. sor uh]

wtf (prod. tejas)

produced by tejas
written by louis bedroom
mixed by ilysm
cover art by patty hills

target:
head was flooded with thoughts, had to get outta the casa
I took a walk, walk, walk, walk, la caminata
aye, man I love it when it’s quiet
when I’m outside in plain sight and daylight is dying
maybe I could buy some boba, been craving since I woke up
a leather jacket, sweater cuz it’s cold like my sprite soda 
told my parents I’m returning late, I need the day alone
cuz I’ve been stressed out needa get out of my home, I
saw someone lurkin’ in my direction
I swerved away from attention 
don’t carry lotsa cash, and my own two hands are my only weapon
felt unlucky for what’s comin’ up next
cuz this junky tried to jump me for this one piece on my neck, uh
would be lying if I said I didn’t see it comin’
left him dying, bleeding red cuz I had anger running through my system 
through my veins the pain pumps in a rhythm 
all fun and games until the flooding rains fall on a victim
credits and compliments to my bad decisions
never contemplate complications, the fog it thickens
not in a strong condition, made distances off and on
I’m so motherfuckin’ angry that I’m oddly calm
maybe God set me a plan where I’m an easy target
maybe I just need to grow a pair, get chest hair started
maybe I’m an easy target just for y’all to fuck with
maybe I shouldn’t give fucks about all the assumptions

ma:
yeah you don’t like me but you think I’m pretty
I fit in with vikings and fit in with hippies
putting the work in, I’m grinding like really
put that on my mama, she oughta stay living

put that on my mama
saw how we living, and I had to boss up
my hand-me-downs shrinking, so I gotta cop some
new clothing, not holding no cash so I dash out with caution
issa common thing, 
pickin’ wallets outta pockets, and I’m hustling 
couple cents for some gum, pay my lunch brodie
Ima gentlemen but hungry as a cutthroat be,
gorgeous as fuck your girlfriend want my eyebrows, 
tell her to pipe down
auntie don’t like my earring, got two more on my right now 
don’t needa be iced out
born where the snow make a hoe wanna jump in it
so if you go in the cold, you’ll be lovin’ it
clowns bring the whole damn circus in a happy meal
ima make em step back a whole damn field, uh 
lucky that I’m here today
money you know I gotta take
something to stop the tummy ache
and something for the blues
thank God for my momma
and thank my momma for lotta the shit that
we got and brought up
thank God we’re under a roof, yeah
prayin’ for the family still
prayin’ for the best and for rest every meal, uh
prayin’ I care less about me
and prayin’ for enemies I’ll eventually see, uh

yeah you don’t like me but you think I’m pretty
I fit in with vikings and fit in with hippies
putting the work in, I’m grinding like really
put that on my mama, she oughta stay living

tryna forgive, tryna forget
I can’t take back all the shit that I’ve said
tryna forgive, tryna forget
I’m tryna be someone that I can accept

target/ma

produced by tejas
written by louis bedroom
mixed by ilysm
cover art by patty hills

lyrics:
my vibe is fuckin’ effortless, I’ll never rest
feel like I’m on Mount Everest
I’m strivin’ to be better with no pressure, make my temper end
sippin’ on my beverage, no sound
no tea sis it’s cold now
so breathe, put your phone down
stackin’ all this paper, wanna flee from my home town
stuck inside a bedroom with a notepad uh
know that, yuh
they don’t wanna see me winnin’ like I’m Kodak, uh
they don’t wanna see a pretty
motherfucker on the scene
so cold in the heat, in the lead motherfucker
at ease, ima stay up on my feet, motherfucker
only way to stop me, is in your dreams motherfucker

quality’s disgusting
pawned it off some change, then went busking
thrusting, in with no protection cuz I’m motherfuckin’ reckless 
if I ever get jealous it’s cuz I don’t know where my head is
I’ll get this
bag, no Michael Kors, nor Jansport trash
I’m talkin’ lettuce
language, if you speak it then you’ll see it, zero askin’
when I’m laughin’ in traffic and I’m not crashin’
then we made it to place where I’ll see peace without cappin’ 
stuck in my mind when I think
that’s why I can’t have nice things
sometimes the only reason why I try is for some ice cream
I’m tryna balance the elements like the Avatar
I’ll show you how to fuck some shit up sideways, it ain’t that hard
my baby drive me crazy, like it’s nascar
fuck the human race with no condom bitch I’m a problem 
I’m not mentally deranged, I’m just awesome
no shame but I shock ‘em
they say I’m exhaustin’
but really i just got up outta bed now I’m starvin’
eatin’ all these beats up like a raccoon in garbage
tejasbedroom 2020 catharsis 
aye yuh

maui

produced by tejas
written by louis bedroom, ilysm
mixed by ilysm
cover art by patty hills

lyrics:

verse 1 - louis bedroom
blood's thicker than water, but I’d drown in the sea
we’re all droplets in the river, insignificantly
this life is a waterfall, and that is all it’ll be
shed blood, sweat, and tears, then I’m fallin’ asleep
don’t feel the rain ‘less it’s fuckin’ pouring
I’m dead when it’s fuckin’ morning
you fuckin’ with the process, then progress is forming
lemme remind you who the fuck I am
I’m more than skin and bone and hands
this flesh is temporary
see you at the cemetery
see you when I see you cuz we get busy when growin’ up
damage makes you old as fuck
baggage, yeah I’m holdin’ some
famished while there’s lots on my plate,
feel like time slowin’ but I’m fastin’
feelin’ static, not lettin’ go of what I’m grabbin’ 
I’m in between somewhere heavy and a Gravity Chamber
tryna bite off what I’ll chew and what I’ll actually savour 
cuz we’ll all fuckin’ die someday so why not try some shit
don’t wanna waste away my life, I’m still alive I’m tired of it, uh
blood's thicker than water, there's red in my sink
yeah bitch i drink from the tap, and what I spit is on ink
and what i think is distinct, pennies and thoughts in a cup
green tea, french vanilla, or hot chocolate mugs
I wish I still had an addiction so yall could say I need more help
petite markers with kief particles, overkill
crossfading on walks, waiting for buses
I was always munchin’ on somethin’ fuckin’ ‘round or being loud on public transport 
now I’m beginning to transform
ran my mouth like “fuck you and everything that you stand for”
feel like an early bird but I got bad insomnia 
and I can’t find the words to explain it like it’s in Narnia 
used to wanna smoke every bit of the pain away, drink til I forgot my name
now I wanna sit alone all by my own and meditate 
I saw an angel from the heaven’s gates
and it told me “wait for better days”

verse 2 - ilysm
bloods thicker than water and i still cry myself to sleep
my family tell me “rin! oh rin! you do this shit so selflessly!”
while ignoring the self interest of all of these selfish deeds
itll pass you see, think im dead cos my life is in my past to me
confess these sins to my pastor, ayo speak up
you ask too many questions i implore you to look out
fed make me red and im avoiding all that bull
dont want that heat to penetrate every crevice inside your skull
so sensual, now thats a mindfuck
bitch ill throw you for a loop cos thats how mine was
aye, my oh my may i remind us
we procrastinate our lives away a mistake until we gone
and bloods thicker than water, and i see you tote that nine
so if you make me bleed i beg you look me in my eyes
we are one in the same, swear we one in the same
our only difference is the fact that i got one in the brain

blood & water (ft. ilysm)

Produced by Dj Re:Code

Lyrics by Double Em

drown (prod. DJ Re:Code)

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swing. 

tyvm again aron for stems stream them they're crazy good https://soundcloud.com/djrecode

ty to my grandma who gave me the vinyl i ripped 4 this i love her very much.
________________________

maui

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