@y4ndere @h1yori

i rest my head and sleep pretending
that i am fine and that i never let you down
fall in this cycle of unwanted actions
suicidal an unconscious state of mind x2

thinking back
i realize
i was too blind
now my heart is numb
you were never honest
this time i can tell
you always break your promise
wish i could be indifferent
my brain is in dissonance
  
this burden that i carry
wish you could see thru my eyes
you said that i should grow up but
you could never live my life
and i would never trade it 
i know that ill make it thru
the night, ill be fine

ive been self reflective lately
i know i cant fix everything 
but it feels like im running out of air
every time i wake up and youre not there

fine「prod. yandere + hiyori」

betrayed 「prod. yandere」

@lilac 
from lilac's april28th ep
this song means a lot to me <3

somewhere i belong 「prod. lilac」

produced by me

lyrics: 
im shouting your name desperately
in hopes that you could hear me
can you feel my heart beat
wondering for you

i tried so hard to let you go

far beyond my sleepy eyes
i can see a future that holds us tight
and when we fall to an afterlife
we will see whats behind

destiny

crystal eyes「prod. yandere」

no one's leaving

@y4ndere @h1yori

This pain will last forever
But with you by my side I can feel better
It's been years but I still can't forget her
At least I know we'd never last together
I regret I met her

All these people hit me up but I know that they are fake
I stay inside 
Grind all day 
All night until the sunrise

That's just how I get away
You wouldn't feel safe in my brain

Been trying so hard to be perfect
cos Ive always felt so fucking worthless
but they say that less is more
so i just suck it up I know that boys dont cry

And I can't even sleep toss and turn every night
There's hate in my veins I can't even try
To step out outside
I might as well die
live thru the day like a zombie yeah this isnt life

There was a time where I felt like
I had the world in my hands now
I feel so empty inside and 
I know theres no way back

There was a time where I felt like
I had the world in my hands now
I watch the sky wondering if ill ever get back my life

no way back「prod. yandere + hiyori」

@y4ndere

lyrics: 
i used to call your bedroom my home
now i dont give a fuck im alone
i hate this time of year
cos nothing ever feels the same
i stay up all alone
waiting for you to return
i know that
by winter ill feel better
i hate this autumn weather
it makes me feel so numb 
i wish that i could feel at all
wish i could reset last year 
so that i forget 
december when i lost my heart to you
you should've been honest from the start
but ppl dont change now its in the past
i really tried to light a match in the dark
but next time imma let it all fade to black
and there's times where i
still feel you with me 
when i rest my head 
i still can dream of you

winter 「prod. yandere」

first single of the album.
prod/vocals by me

lyrics:
i will stay awake remniscing at the time
to make these memories last longer
our souls connected make the ground shake
in search for eachother
in hope that these moments last forever

dreaming of ur sweet lips
n i dont know how i can reach you
would you stay by my side

i gave up my own voice 
to scream your name
i know that these nightmares
wont end my brain
and if sighs leave your soft voice
to make me stay
i wont ever ever have to leave this pleace

reminiscence

ihateyou

happy valentines day....
lyrics:
my mirror never lies 
its the only one who keeps on being
true with who i am 
i cant even trust myself

i should just let this go
get so lost inside my thoughts
u smile to him like that 
and im this mess 
i feel like i dont belong

its not that i want to die here
i just wanna disappear
my life isnt the same
as it used to be

leave me 
hate me
kill me
replace me

replaceable

lyrics: 
faded under club lights 
i cant ever let you go
kissing in the dance floor 
i cant ever make it worse
my head is so shattered from these nightmares
make them go
faded with your promises 
i cant ever get enough

faded under club lights

much love to resi for producing this masterpiece.
@rs2k
@kkkitten

lyrics:

4am my blankets wrapped your skin for the last time
now youre gone
i wanted you to stay for the last time
bang my head against the wall
cuz i cant stop the ringing in my mind
when the image of your smile comes again

remember when it all began
it was a winter night
i was staying in
you smiled at me
i replay it in my dreams

is it bad that i still miss you
would i be wrong if i kiss you
im so fucked i wanna end this

now i stay up all alone
0 messages on my phone
ull be out with make up on
hitting on another dude

you ran away from my arms 
im still wondering what i did wrong

if u would stay with me one more minute
i would steal the world
im stuck
sick and tired of craving for love

dreams 「prod. resonance」

https://soundcloud.com/januaryyy
https://soundcloud.com/januaryyy
https://soundcloud.com/januaryyy

lyrics: 
fairy tales
i live in my head
are a resemblance of the past
how i numbered days
just waiting for them to end
but now i count the stars on the ceiling
regretting every word ive said

i feel so stuck here
but i can try

and ill stay inside
this mess ive made all by myself
i know that i can work this out

im not afraid
of what the future holds for me
now that i know i can hold your hand

i stare at the clock
it ticks my life away with every second
and every hour

lost +jxlyy

s/o @y4ndere for producing this <3
art by: https://twitter.com/nanmokaken

forever 「prod. yandere」

prod by me
art: https://twitter.com/nanmokaken
lyrics;

blood dripping of my wrists 
i cant fix u
no matter how hard i try 
i cant reach u
red crystals in my arms
razor sharp lies
i wont ever go back 

evry time i lay down my head
i see ur ghost in my bed
and i dont even wanna get up
ur my everything

im sick and tired
im on the edge
everyday i picture myself hanging from the ceiling
and i cant fight
ive got enough
im gonna rot in this room 
forevermore

girl its whatever
ive been in this path for way too long
and even if i fucked up again
i wont get u out of my head

razorsharplies

prod. @y4ndere
art: https://twitter.com/nanmokaken

emotionless 「prod. yandere」

@y4ndere
https://soundcloud.com/y4ndere/yandere-sample-challenge-3
lyrics: 
fell in love with a ghost
her eyes they shine so bright
feel safe under the night sky
stardust in the distance
im on my own
my own
ive been stuck in my room
stay up all night
ill be alright 

staring at my phone screen
we will stay together 
ive been getting distant
but we'll lie together
and im nowhere to be found
u were the only one

i can count with one hand
all the friends that ive made
i know they wont let me down
these days that go by 
they all keep me warm
these demons they will depart

all the times that you said
that we would be forever
guess u were just lying 
cos we never were

look me in the eye 
tell me that u love me 
even if its fake 
cos i just wanna feel something

ghosts

@9s0uls @kurome
art: https://twitter.com/eguchi_saan

bloodstains ft. 9souls 「prod. kurome」

@blackwinterwells @lil4c <33
art by: https://twitter.com/nanmokaken

puppet ft. blackwinterwells 「prod. lilac」

original: https://soundcloud.com/sebseb122/bonerr

BONErr (pop punk flip)

prod @januaryyy
vocals by @odel007 and me
mix n master by me

stfu! x_x ft. odel (p. jxlyy)

@y4ndere ilysm bro ty for everything<3
art by https://twitter.com/congming33

lie down「prod. yandere」

@h1yori
happy thanksgiving<3
lyircs: 
hate me everything is coming to an end
i feel so distant and away
and im sorry to my friends
i know it never ends
every lie is a nightmare
and its getting to my head

idk what else to feel it makes me feel so nauseous
time flies by every memory is like a blur
i wonder whats wrong with my brain
i keep seeing these ghosts
no one can save me now

im holding on 
i take a blade  to my arms 
and everynight i close my eyes
and hope to die

im
im off this medicine
im trying to forget
i never thought that i 
would only hurt u in the end
would only let you down
i feel it everynight

lies 「prod. hiyori」

https://soundcloud.com/crystalstatues

these tears wont wash you away.

lov3lotus

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