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I shouldn't be loving you.. because every-time I do I wind up low again.

I shouldn't be loving you

Sleepwalker

"Can we stay like this forever?"

It was the last thing you said before I woke up, in tears. I hate when that happens. I wasn't sad at all, just a little irked. I dunno the correct word to explain it, but it's that "Fuck, are you kidding me right now?" feeling. Of all nights, you chose to appear tonight... I guess it's good to have a taste of feels every so now and then. 

I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about you. It happens occasionally, mostly when I take naps. Sometimes you show up, sometimes you don't. But the times you do appear in my dreams, we're always just...chilling. Like at a coffee shop or on public transit. In this dream, we were on the last train home and no one was there except us. Your head was on my shoulder and that's when you said it.... then I woke up, had a cigarette and recorded this song. 

You'll never hear this song. At least, I hope you don't. Hmm...maybe I'm lying to myself though... maybe I want you to hear it.... but it's not like I want things to be the way they were or something. It's just...part of me feels like holding on to that little piece of memory I have of us...that's all. I guess my heart wanted to open up again for some reason. I'm thankful for that at least. You always said to do what feels right even if you're nervous. 

Wherever you may be...I hope you're well and you're doing what you love. I hope you're with someone who takes care of you and loves you unconditionally. I hope your dreams come true and that you're waking up every morning with a smile.

For now, I'll keep dreaming.
It's a lot better than waking up.


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Can we stay like this forever?

its cool we can still be friends

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