Slow like the 2000s.

not hero, not villain.
just the one who remains.
the protagonist.

rub it in

Liberian Girl. (Michael Jackson Tribute)

Hey guys, I want to talk to you about my new song. It's about being broke and feeling overwhelmed by bills and financial responsibilities. I'm not exactly proud of it, but I'm being honest about my struggles. The song's a bit tongue-in-cheek, with a repetitive chorus that's more about venting frustration than offering solutions. I think we've all been there at some point, struggling to make ends meet, and this song's my way of expressing that feeling. Give it a listen and let me know what you think!


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I was doing good for a little while
Now I'm dodging all my bills like it's a sport
One day soon
They're gonna catch me
And take my phone
Cut off my support 

[Pre-Chorus]
And I'm sorry
But I just can't afford it
If it's a little important
Then you're gonna have to wait
And it's on me
'Cause I just don't want it
And you can think what you want
But I just got somethin' to say 

[Chorus]
I ain't gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
I ain't gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
I ain't gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it 

[Verse 2]
First
It's rent and then insurance
And then it's car payments and vet bills and some more
Like
Damn
Is that really important?
And if I pay it
I won't have a place to snore 

[Pre-Chorus]
And I'm sorry
But I just can't afford it
If it's a little important
Then you're gonna have to wait
And it's on me
'Cause I just don't want it
And you can think what you want
But I just got somethin' to say 

[Chorus]
I ain't gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
I ain't gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
I ain't gonna pay it
No
I ain't gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it
Not gonna pay it

Not Gonna Pay It

#music #sanjo #rap #singing #viral #fyp #underground #rapper #artist #independent 

Winter Time

Dependent (On your love)

This song is me questioning how to truly love someone when I’ve been hurt, misunderstood, or left feeling empty in the past. It’s not just about romance—it's deeper than that. It’s me trying to figure out what love should look like, how to give it without losing myself, and how to trust again when my heart’s been guarded for so long. I’m not asking if I can love, but how—like, what does real love even mean when you’ve been through pain, silence, or betrayal?

It’s vulnerable, it’s raw, and it’s me searching for that balance between passion and peace… between giving my all and protecting my soul.

How Do I Love

I’m Over Us’ is me finally choosing peace over pain. It took me a while to say those words and actually mean them—but I do now. This song is about closing a chapter that once felt like everything, but turned into something I couldn’t breathe in anymore. I gave my all, waited for change, held onto hope way too long. But now, I see it clearly: loving him was real… but letting go is necessary. ‘I’m Over Us’ doesn’t mean I didn’t care. It means I finally care enough about myself to walk away and not look back.

“I’m Over Us”

‘Cry in Shame’ is about the pain of realizing they never saw the love you gave until it was too late. I gave him everything—my heart, my trust, my soul—and he didn’t treat it like it mattered. And now that I’m gone, now that I’ve finally walked away, he wants to feel something. But it’s too late. This song is me letting it all out—the heartbreak, the anger, the disappointment. If he’s crying now, it’s not out of love—it’s out of guilt. And that’s the real shame… not that it ended, but that he didn’t value it when it was real.

“Cry in Shame”

Producer: @surrealwya

Lyrics: 
(Intro)
I've been tryna get through to you
Baby tell me do you feel how I do?
Girl I've been tryna tell you that I don't wanna lose
Baby can you tell me why you move how you move?
Move, how, you, move
I, don't, wanna lose
Girl make up your mind can you choose

(Pre-Chorus)
I-iiiiiiii
I can't stress this enough
I kept it a hunnid tried to tell you whats up
You tried to neglect it
Said you don't give a fu-uuuuuuh

(Chorus)
I've been tryna find, somebody thats as fine as you
But I just can't seem to find it
Your love had me blind, couldn't see all of the signs
Then you stabbed my back from behind me
Girl I used to take you shopping, put designer on your wallet
Baby, I had you ballin
I used to really think you was flawless
You said this would be forever pinky promise

(Verse 1)
We used to have fun together
Back when you told me this sh*t would last forever
I've been tryna move on tryna find something better
But my feelings girl they too strong so I wrote you a letter

I've been tryna find a way, to demonstrate
The love that I have for you
I've been tryna wait and wait
But I swear that this was fate
I'm the one that was meant for you

Looked inside your eyes always told you the truth
I had to realize that lyings what you do
You put on a disguise try to act brand new
Girl stop with all that crying
The victim card over used

(Pre-Chorus)
I-iiiiiiii
I can't stress this enough
I kept it a hunnid tried to tell you whats up
You tried to neglect it
Said you don't give a fu-uuuuuuh

(Chorus)
I've been tryna find, somebody thats as fine as you
But I just can't seem to find it
Your love had me blind, couldn't see all of the signs
Then you stabbed my back from behind me
Girl I used to take you shopping, put designer on your wallet
Baby, I had you ballin
I used to really think you was flawless
You said this would be forever pinky promise

(Verse 2)
I told you let bygones be bygones
Girl I've been doing the most to right my wrongs
Tell you how I truly feel in my songs
I've been tryna wait for you but it's too long (longggggg)

pinky promise?

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I am a healthcare executive completing a dual degree, Master of Public Health / Doctor of Health Sciences, focused on raising awareness about behavioral health, specifically among teens and college students. My dissertation research is focused on raising up the voice of college students beginning with communities of color. I am committed to helping people connect to their purpose in collaboration with mission-aligned leaders. Together we will achieve great things!

Our project is a first step in raising awareness about a national health epidemic. All proceeds are reinvested directly into proactive strategies for improving behavioral health among youth, teens, and young adults in collaboration with community partners.

Our youth, teens, and young adults are reporting the highest levels of loneliness on record according to the U.S. Surgeon General. Our work is going to help change that through simple actions that bring people together for the common good, focused on lifting people up, and creating stronger in person connections.



God’s Love (In Your Love)

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Liberian Girl. (Michael Jackson Tribute)

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