reason you left him

nicky & keepsake - reason you left him (spirxt) [hosted by jane]

all the things that u do to me
is this what i deserve
im still not gonna learn
n it just gets worse n worse
n it just gets worse n worse
i cant spill out my words
n i scream n it hurts
every hook every verse
all my calls gets unheard
when will i ever learn
when will i ever learn

will i ever learn

its hard to realize
this is where i reside
wasting all my time
its okay ill be fine
like whats my reason
idk how to feel it
cant u see
cant usee
i think i finally learned my lesson
no feelings, me? im just acting
i cant do shit im too passive
weight on my back n its massive
i feel so disconnecte
never rlly did learn my lesson
got anxiety yea n its massive
time to leave it all back in the past tense

everything feels so near yet farther away
i just wish i could go somewhere far far away
idc what u say
n i feel so upset
n ik im a mess

my reason

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0:49 w/ @violetxx9
1:38 w/ @liamtakeover
2:24
3:12 w/ @violetxx9
4:11 w/ @dollfacexxx
5:07 w/ @rewind214
5:58 w/ @dimpleb
6:47 w/ @richestofearth
7:35 w/ @1mint
8:08 w/ @bxxngan + @1mina
8:48 w/ @violetxx9
9:36 vocals by my boyfriend https://soundcloud.com/horridd/purpose ♡♡♡

march24 w/ violet + liam + dollface + rewind + dimpleb + orihime + 1mint + bxxngan + ikari + horridd

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(@gskyo)
going delusional
idk how to feel
its getting personal
no space for me to heal
these meds they slowly get worse
your presence haunts me
youre a whole other person
girl its unfair
im too scared
like do you rly care?
all you do is sit & stare
& when youre by my side
i get lost in your eyes
i wish time cld stop
so i wont waste all my life

day by day, its becoming a blur
im takin the pain
i know it dont work
the pills tht im takin
my body still aching
my memories fading
my mind is decaying

one chance, and i still didnt take it
i regret
cause i cant rly help it
all i wanted was everything to last
its over for me im too attached

(@itsevvie)
Im too attached, yea I miss u bad
High off LSD, yea I need some help
You’re still stuck in my system, I can’t let go
Stuck in my system, I need to know

Why, do I still try?
I did it all for u but that was a lie
All the shit u put me thru, all u do is make me cry
I’m still missin u baby, I need u by my side 

So lost without u I might just die
Obsessed with drugs that destroy my mind
U said, ”fuck u” then “fuck me”
Ur so important
I feel so lonely, need u to hold me

I had one chance and I still didn’t take it
I regret all the time that I’ve wasted
The time that I’ve wasted, come back girl I miss ya
I can’t lie that I hate this, this pain that I’m feelin

it gets worse +evvie (luc3nt)

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2:06 ss
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4:25 scrapped letters
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0:00
0:47 w/ @liamtakeover
1:31 w/ @dimpleb
2:13 w/ @yungdni
2:47 w/ @1revert
3:25 w/ @rewind214
4:09 w/ stray
4:45
5:27
6:09
6:44 w/ @dimpleb
7:37 w/ @1revert
8:22
9:02 w/ @essenceofhope
9:37 w/ @angelravee
10:23 w/ @dimpleb
11:06

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND @horridd HE LOOKS LIKE THE WHITE BUNNY ON THE RIGHT

april24 w/ liamtakeover + dimpleb + yungdni + revert + rewind + stray + essence + angelrave

had to go thru all thiss again for u
things in the past wish i could undo
running round in circles yea u leave me confused
isnt it clear can u see it
like do u see me how i c u
like do u feel me how i feel u
like do u treat me how i treat u
i dont wanna go through thatt again

is it all my fault
tell me im in the wrong
just know our magic's strong
swear everythings in my head
i just wanna go back to bed

why do i always fuck it up
sometimes i feel like giving up
i think im so fucking done
never get what fucking i want
say u my friend prove
i can see right thru it
thats what i thought
thought u the one
yeah i knew it

thankkk u for listeningggg aaaaaaaaaaaaa

again

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girl i think of u
when i use my razor
bbyy ur love is so contagious
remember u told me its gonna b forever ever
no matter the weather eather
tell me u love me girl
tell me would u play w my hair
she complains her life is not fair but its not for fair for anyone
girl hold my hand and scream my name
tell me im all urs
promise i wont b lame

(gëmzjii)
Damn I really thought it was forever 
I can’t love you like another 
Like shawty come and share this weather 
Damn, she know that I try 
Bitch like why would you lie 
I told that girl, don’t you cry 
Damn 
I told that girl, don’t you cry 
The way I look in your eyes 
Damn, she caught me by surprise 
Damn, no, I’m not tryna fight 
I hate the way that you lie
Look at me, look in my eye 
When it’s you and me, it’s do or die 
When she hold my hand, get butterflies 
Because of u and me it’s suicide

girl i think of u
when i use my razor
bbyy ur love is so contagious
remember u told me its gonna b forever ever
no matter the weather eather
tell me u love me girl
tell me would u play w my hair
she complains her life is not fair but its not for fair for anyone
girl hold my hand and scream my name
tell me im all urs
promise i wont b lame

my reason

luc3nt

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