WATTS

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Produced by Dope Fiend https://soundcloud.com/dope-fiend-971562533 
1. I'M ACTUALLY A FUCKING GOD
2. HEAVEN
3. VERY NICE
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"Where are you? 
You may feel depressed. 
And what will you do about that? Well, there's nothing to do about it. 
Because you would have discovered at this point that the depression, when it’s there, is the you of the time. 
And if you try to get out of it by some sort of distraction. 
You won’t really do anything except cover up the dirt with white paint. 
So if you feel let down. Meaningless. Somewhat depressed by this whole thing. 
And you see at the same time, you can’t do anything about it. 
What happens? Why, You’re simply. Watching what’s happening. You don’t know what’s going to happen next. 
And it isn’t just watching something that is formally identified as a depressed state because there's a lot of other things going on too. 
There's the world around you. 
There’s your breath. Breathing still, your eyes looking still, your ears hearing still all that’s going on. You don’t know what to make of it anymore. You can’t believe anything about it because you know that's all a hoax. 
So there’s nothing left for you to do but watch it. And you have become inwardly rather quiet just because you’re worn out. 
There’s nothing to do. 
Then you realize that all escapes lead back to the thing you were running away from. 
You can take a detour, detour, detours, detours, but they always get shorter and you get back to where you started. 
So when this sort of defeat of all enterprises and ideals and aspirations occurs. 
You find yourself naturally and not in an affected or forced way in the contemplative state. 
Where you’re just watching what goes on
And so you watch your thoughts. As if they were the ticking of a clock, or birds chattering outside the window, or water falling, or a leaky faucet. And they just chatter on 
And life does it's thing and the thoughts, because they’re just chatter, begin to go away. 
And the past has disappeared because, you know, it’s just memory. The future has disappeared because it hasn’t happened. 
Never does. You know, tomorrow never comes. There is no tomorrow."

-Alan Watts

INTERDIMENSIONAL

INTERDIMENSIONAL [Prod. Dope Fiend]

made this beat at Denny's with Teeth$weatas in 2018
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[Alan Watts]
"It is not a serious failing in a human being to make mistakes. Everybody has to make mistakes. There is no way out of it. You can't learn anything unless you make mistakes.
You must not be afraid of playing wrong notes. Just forget it. Play it wrong. Eventually you’ll go over it again and then you’ll eventually get it right, but you must not block! Always keep the same rhythm going, even if you have to slow it down."

[LUCID$HADE]
Sitting still
The wold keeps turning 

In my feelings
Never learn 

Inside my chest 
This heart is burning 

For a chance
To flee the nest 

I need to leave 
Can't take the stress 

Know my perception doesn't help
Compress the strain 

Until it breaks me
Nothing left 

I seethe in hell

I seethe in hell
Yet all is right 

At every moment of my life
And all the ways away from pain 

Lead me right straight back to strife
I can't stop making mistakes 

Can't seem to tread the sea of being 
Sinking deeper every day 

Under the waves
They let me bleed

[Alan Watts]
"And if it’s the wrong note, play the wrong note, as long as you play something in the right rhythm. So this is a way, you know, of taking away people’s blockage, people’s guilt, and shame about making mistakes. So absolutely, freedom means, basically, the freedom to make mistakes; the freedom to be a damn fool, and then not to recriminate with yourself when you finally realize that it was a mistake, but simply don’t do it again. 
Or at least do it less often."

Produced by Joey Snow - https://soundcloud.com/joeysnow666
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[Alan Wats]
"Let's suppose that you were able every night to dream any dream that you wanted to dream. And that you could, for example, have the power within one night to dream 75 years of time. Or any length of time you wanted to have. And you would, naturally as you began on this adventure of dreams, you would fulfill all your wishes. You would have every kind of pleasure you could conceive. And after several nights of 75 years of total pleasure each, you would say "Well, that was pretty great." But now let's have a surprise. Let's have a dream which isn't under control. Where something is gonna happen to me that I don't know what it's going to be. And you would dig that and come out of that and say "Wow, that was a close shave, wasn't it?"

Dream of Life

Dream of Life [Prod. Joey $now]

Prod. by me
L ☰ V I
No end in sight
I'm still seeking the light 
I'm still seething inside 
Heaven bring my demise 

I can't take all this strain
Dream of ending my life
I want nothing to gain
Take me back into night 

Dissolution again
Out of form, nothing left
No one sorry, in spite 
Leave this hell down behind 


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Moving on to new heights
Gotta shake off the weight
Clinging onto the clay
Gotta ready my soul
For the end of my days 


Out of time 
Out of breath
Out of words 
I've been out of my depth 

Sinking below the waves
Know I'll soon face my death 
Going out of my mind
When it comes to an end 

Been awake for too long
Now I just want to sleep
Catch my breath, I can't breathe 
What a joke, hate the fight

RITUALS

Prod. by me 
L ☰ V I
Carried along by the All undertow 

Feel the pull in my soul when I flow


Wanna go wherever 
I want nothing I know 
Ever changing & new
Every bend in the road 

Led me safe To this place 
And my scars give me strength 
At the end of the day 
It was only a phase 

Now it's here
Then it's over
No break in the stone 

There's no shame in my song
I keep nothing to hold 

As it all moves along, carried on toward the shade 

At the break of the day
Find me owning my role
At my best catch me blowing this smoke 

Never rest, never know I'm asleep
Till it's over and on to the show 
Help me wake 
A new day on the rise 

A new thirst for the world 
Pull me out of this state
Rob this grave of a corpse
Spirit fill my cup full 

A new thirst for the world 

Spirit fill my cup full

NIGHTLIFE

prod. by me
[Alan Watts]
"Behind the image of light inaccessible, and behind the image of profound and abysmal darkness, there's something else we can't conceive at all; Dionysus called it The Luminous Darkness."

[Lucid]
Live your life
& do what's right
Don't follow me
Into the night 

My sepulcher 
Was set aside 
I got the chance
To see the light 

And lift the veil
Before I died
My soul will sail 
Into the sky 

In Lucid dreams
I've learned to fly
Now I can't wait
For my demise 

Go back to black
Re-enter shade
When out of frame
I'm finally high 

I just maintain 
While cold in clay
I never reach
Those sacred heights 

Upon this plane 
With tired eyes
I wish to open up my mind 

I'm never gaining anything 
Always loosing face and time

PINEWOOD

Prod. by me
[Alan Watts]
If you're ready to wake up, you're going to wake up, and if you're not ready, you're going to stay pretending that you're just a 'Poor little me.'
And since you're all here, and engaged in this sort of enquiry, i assume you're all on the process of waking up.
And you understand that black implies white, self implies other, life implies death, or shall I say, death implies life.
Try and imagine what it would be like to go to sleep and never wake up, think about it. 

[LUCID] 
Don't count on me
Know I will let you down 
No guarantee 
I repeat, leave me be 

Back in the bleak 
Since I woke from a dream
Don't see a way out 
I just want to leave, 

& get lost 
Trust I'll follow my feet 
Popping off 
Kill the beats
Until I am deceased 

Been diseased by these demons
Now seeking release 
Need relief 
Take my breath
Fuck this stress 
End this scene 

Back to shade 
See the fall of the sun
As the light starts to fade
Still disgusted, enraged
With a heart of distain 

Feeling cold to the bone
Want to lay in my grave 
Decompose, Going home 
You can't keep me away 

Claiming my birthright 
While fighting my fate 
Righting my wrongs
While I'm making my way 

Left in the dust 
Thinking fuck every face 
Stick in the mud 
I stay stuck in this place 

Taken for everything 
Empty my brain
Put the pen To the page 
I made nothing but stains 

I'm a soul, moving flesh on a stone
Out in space 
At the heart of the flame 
I'm a spark of the all
Sick of playing this game 

Heart of the flame 
I'm a spark of the all
Sick of playing this game

[Alan Watts]
The real you is not a puppet which life pushes around, the real deep down you is the whole universe.
So then, when you die, you're not going to have to put up with everlasting non-existence because that's not an experience.