Distancing Myself (Rough)

Something written long ago..

I've been thinking about last year
All my dreams and fears
Nothing was really moving
Except my mind
Wondering where I've lost all of this time
And you were there
At that party
I was hoping you'd find me
Because the skies looked so blue
I'd give everything to these dreams
And enjoy the evergreen
But I've learned things fade away
Now I'm emptier than the darkest grays
And I find myself
Fall back into this routine
A hopeless romantic
To lost and pedantic to see
The greater things
Between you all and me
And I find myself
Collapse again
An idealist in nature
Just wishing that everything
Was better for us
And I know it can be because I've felt it before
And I know that it was probably nothing
But I can't say that I didn't feel something
Even after after all this time
And I'm sorry that I couldn't drive there
It kills me too
'Cause I was thinking of all the things
I would've like to've done with you
Now not too much has changed
Except everything
I'm not sure why I still
Find the need to hold onto these feelings
With all these thoughts in my head
I'm not sure how to feel
But every moment spent with you felt so surreal


The Romantic

From The Morning - Nick Drake

A twelve hour bus ride home
And I left you all alone
I was looking for answers
But only found more questions

But i can't forget
That cool mountain air
That we breathed in Tennessee
Reunited

And that's when I finally knew
It wouldn't be easy losing you
The winter's coming soon
I hope you're doing well

Mountain Air

Skinny Love - Bon Iver

Favorite song of all time.
A one take in my bathroom.
One step and a few cents down from original recording.
Recorded with Reaper. 

Which Will - Nick Drake

Well, the stars are falling down
From the sky of this humdrum town
So let's go catch them
And spread their light

Oh, 'cause nothing's been burning bright
I've lost count of sleepless nights
But just forget it
Perfection's oh so slight

Now I know we're indecisive so let's just choose
Say the words and I'll make the moves
We'll pack the car and set the cruise
And drive speeding through the night 'cause we all have
Nothin' to lose

Well, the clouds they rolled around
Blocked the light that hit the ground
But they always pass
And the world keeps moving oh so fast

It's moving with us
Not for or against us
We make our own choices
We have our own voices

Now I know we're indecisive so let's just choose
Say the words and I'll make the moves
We'll pack the car and set the cruise
And drive speeding through the night 'cause we all have
Nothin' to lose

We've got nothin' to lose
We've got nothin' to lose
And I've got nothing to prove

We've got nothin' to lose
We've got nothin' to lose
And I've got nothing to prove

Now I know we're indecisive so let's just choose
Say the words and I'll make the moves
We'll pack the car and set the cruise
And drive speeding through the night 'cause we all have
Nothin' to lose

Nothing To Lose

Find out what you need to do
To go where you want to go
Your plans have run so far away
While you've been living your days by day

One step forward and two steps back
Back and forth along your tracks
Running uphill against the breeze
But nothing worth having comes with ease

Read those books you want to read
To live your dreams out so vividly
Go and find what's really true
The only thing holding you back is you

Two steps forward and one step back
Crossing over crippling cracks
Quiet your trepidations, halt your hesitation
Life's a journey not a destination

Move to new sounds
Go break new ground
From a distance it's always been hard to see
Go be just what you'll be
Go on


New Ground

Lonely nights, made up for
With idle time
Leave a great blue sea
With only me
Set to drift
Among the temporal shift
Of days to nights,
Days to months,
Months to years.

Storms, they came and the
Thunder rang
But they were just sounds
That loomed around
When they passed,
Their angular shadows cast
Upon the vast
And they seemed to last.

But now the expanse is clear
But you still can't seem to steer
Away from the grey
Though it recedes away
For now.

Special thanks to Chris Altiero for adding the opening melody riff:
https://soundcloud.com/projectorfl

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