Don't Cry, It's Not Over Yet

https://open.spotify.com/track/6CbxhNDiS43RkM728SpInl?si=e92a5e39fcfc4020
prod. @dercept + gateway & danielsara
cover art done by kittikyu <3

this ain't a ballad; fucking unbalanced
give me a challenge, i'm in the smog
tossed like a salad; thought i had talent, guess i was wrong 
putting the p in pain, everything ain't what i want 
you put that shit away, it's new a day, in a NEW DAWN

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego, but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

two-faced; show faith
walkin' round the town in my mind with a mace
i'm a fucking loser, so i never show my face 
wish i never knew her; couldn't believe what i'd say
so i rest admist the panic, going manic, tryna change
if ur talkin' shit then can-it, all your bullshit; it can wait
i got way too damn satanic, pull me closer to the flames
you should quit this life and hand it over, imma take your place

(i'm looking through the fog)
(i've been confused for so long)
(the things that i've undergone)
(are proof that i don't belong)

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

leeches! [prod. dercept x gateway x danielsara]

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

every song
that u get
is a piece
of my health
puppet strings control me
so for them make something else
she could kill me yet again
and this corpse would only sputter
this hope turns to
waiting for the waves to pull me under

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

residuals (afterlife x jolst)

[thank you for riding with SEMTEX, mr cook. 
we hope you enjoy your time with us. 
in the event of an emergency please try to remain calm. we will do everything we can to resolve the issue and keep you safe.

approaching depth of 1000 metres.]

its been, it’s been
it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

ima show everybody back home
that i’m not a waste of flesh blood and bones 
ima get some pictures get out n go home
finally safe from the sight of her name on my phone
in this dark blue wasteland cold and alone 
nobody but myself and a radio 
i’ll probably never surface here yeah i know
maybe i shouldn’t have got in this 3x3 coffin

[approaching depth of 3000 metres]

it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

[approaching depth of 5000 metres]

it’s a long way down (jolst)

~2300~

@lilskeleskrrt @slmnmore

Lyrics:

[HOOK]
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs

[skele]
i always do this every month should prolly heal up
i think you need me too much
i think i want you no love
painting the wall red maroon
dreams of the champagne
“i do”
know my heart bled
leave you
it’s so hard to see you
i need you here tonight
put the nine up to my skull
i wanna feel alive
hold me until i’m close
i’m saying why do you keep me around 
i always weigh you down
it’s not the way that i want
to make you feel stuck
baby i won’t make a sound 
need you to cover my mouth 
put my head to the gun
and let the steel touch
this is so fucked
you used to love me so much

[HOOK]
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs 
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs

[VITO]
Watch ‘em labor away
They’re digging the grave i’ll lay in 
Counting the days i’ve been
Just wasting away
Unfazed by your influence
You saw what it coulda been
But i’m drained out i’ve been hollow since 
Not a lot of those options left
Can you deal with the consequence?
I’ve never been good at this
Nine lives I ain’t got one left
You threw all your caution west
Still breaking your promises

borderline w/ skele & slmnMORE


The ep kicks off with Born to Be Loud, a song I first wrote over 20+ years ago when I was just learning to play, heavily inspired by Oasis’s Rock ’n’ Roll Star. Revisiting it from my old demo, I wasn’t sure it would make the cut—some of the lines feel a bit cheesy to sing now, two decades later—but it’s hard to deny it still works as a proper opener. Big, loud, and unapologetic, it sets the tone as a banger right from the start.

https://somedaytomorro

BORN TO BE LOUD__

Lyrics: 
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

wipe my tears cause I gotta get the cash now
no more fears but I feel it when the lights out 
world so cold it’s like I’m living in the arctic
so unknown sometimes I feel like I’m arson
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions 
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

all the shit I done and all the things I seen
made me build a wall to block my memories
yeah, these drugs they got me falling like some leaves
need some novocaine but it ain’t for my teeth
I been fighting all these demons in my sleep
yeah, I’m faded yeah, I’m faded off the lean
don't give a fuck if I don't wake up from this dream
pass me a rope so I can leave reality

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

The Pain That Never Ends

✦ VIDEO OUT NOW

Lyrics:

everything changed in the blink of an eye now im lost in the crowd
wish it was quiet but thoughts are the loudest when no ones around
no im not proud of the way that i handled myself
wish things were different and i could start over
and wake up a new place be somebody else x2
cause
you told me that from the start, said that we cant get attached
said it would tear us apart, said that it would never last
now laying there in my bed
cant get you out of my head and im dreading the day that you decide to throw me away, o what a shame
maybe i should save myself, some inevitable pain

I need to know where your heads at cause lately i dont know
if i can keep up this act pretend that i dont care at all
weve been talking everyday but still i feel like somethings wrong
would you pls pick up yer phone i dont wanna be alone again (aye)
you could let me love you till the night ends~
then wake up in the morning say were just friends~
and if thats what you want ill make it happen~
i guess that it'd be better than nothing~
need to know where your heads at cause lately i dont know
if i can keep up this act pretend that i dont care at all
weve been talking everyday but still i feel like somethings wrong
would you pls pick up yer phone i dont wanna be alone again

you would let me love you till the night ends
wake up in the morning say were just friends
guess that it'd be better than nothing
it would be better than nothing

better than nothing ~ [p. discent]

No Strings on Me (prod. 4evrgone x caspr)

prod. soundcloud.com/cpt_sad

recount it back from the start
don't know what tore us apart
could be the way that you hold my heart so tight

you walked me back to my car
i wasn't scared of the dark
but you were saying it's alright you don't mind

was i just nothing to you
what else was there i could do to get through this now
when we've both been bruised
& i don't care if they knew
i'd scream it out from the roof
if you felt this too
yeah you felt this too
know you felt this

you're always far from me
so why'd you fall for me
you make it all just feel so incomplete

you make it hard to leave
i'm always down on my knees
can barely tell how to speak cause your kiss so sweet

i'd do anything
just keep it all the same
i spilled my guts onto the floor 
i made a mess of it
 
i'd do anything
don't want our love to change
i spilled my guts onto the floor won't get this surface clean

every time i see you now i'm losing my balance
the pressure always peaking till i blow up i had it
i'll pull my sleeves down on my arms so it'll cover the damage
you drink away the shit you bottle but i know that you felt this too

Damage (prod. yesterday)

In collaboration with SoundCloud phenomenon LiL Lotus, this track was recorded in the back of a mini-van under the parking garage of Universal Music Group in Los Angeles, lol

Produced by: Pacific
Mixed: Dustin Gill
Mastered: Panorama Mastering

Merch store: drawntothesky.bigcartel.com

My start-to-finish songwriting & production class: studio.com/drawntothesky

She Once Whispered "Love" In My Ear (feat. LiL Lotus)

She Once Whispered "Love" In My Ear (feat. LiL Lotus)[prod. Pacific]

You my moon, you my stars, you my sky at night
You the fire in my heart, keep me burning bright
Hold me close, in the cold, cause you all mine
Got my heart, make it quake like a fault line

Ooh, you know im living like i wanna do
Got my girlie in my arms, im coming up, she know it too
Piling all this money i got bands and then i roll it dude
Chillin on the couch im countin racks boy you know what it do

Ooh, i got some fans and they love me, im running all the way to sunny California with money, im tuckin hunnid dollar bills inside my pants while im hungry, ill never be complacent cuz im always searching for something, yeah

hit the road, get on board, cuz we comin up
got some drip, got some Ks, but its not enough
got my girl, by my side, and she keep me loved
throwin bills, catchin dubs, while i run it up

Throwin bills, throwin bills yah
While I run it up

Feelin sunny on a mountain top
Gettin money like i cant be stopped
Makin bangers like im finna drop
Keep it going cuz Ill never stop
Yah lil homie you know what it do
Got my baddie i aint share wit you
She my girlie yeah she be my boo
She my ride or die she love me too

(November seventh, you hit my phone
You stole my heart and, gave it a home
I'm doin good now, but you been know
Cause you my moon now, im in your glow)

All i got is my words
And all i want is to learn
All these rappers absurd
All they want is to turn

All they boring little songs into a mountain of clout
Never ever cared about the music they speak about
So ima keep it to myself but let them words all come out
Cuz im just tryna keep it real so i been speakin it loud, ooh

Find me in the stu you know im staying on my grind
Im writing every single day to get it off my mind
Im spittin bars and writing hooks i do it all the time
Im being me you see and me i can not be defined

Ayy, i run this show on my own yeah
But then i pick up the phone yeah
I tell my girl to come home yeah
Cause now we're never alone yeah

November7

Lyrics:
im a waste, gotta taste of my based brain
feeling far, from my days, screaming gang gang
its complex, when i flex, on my mainstay
where im from, where the sun, been displaced ay

used a blade, couldnt say, but it shows up
on my skin, go away, you dont know us
not insane, not okay, boutta throw up
all these pills, so instead, guess ill roll up

im just sittin here, piling money in the benz
i aint share with no one cuz i aint got any friends
turn my feels to money then im feeling what i spend
wonder if thats all to life im dying in the end
x2

call me an insomniac im staying up all night
cant get any sleep with all these thoughts up in my mind
like thinking bout what happens when we close our eyes and die
does anything feel real or am i living a whole lie

depersonalize in my mind im lost
feeling like a dream at a nightmare cost
dont know what ive seen but my mind exhaust
hallucinate the real and my eyes stay glossed

life is very scary now, feeling very wary now
wanna take revenge on those who hurt me like im carrie now
float just like a fairy now, feeling very merry now
shoutout all the substance in my veins im gettin faded now

then i wake up down low, stay in bed im out bro
puff and watch the cloud go, now im breathing shallow
but its all anxiety, creeping up inside of me
saying that im nothing why you always gotta lie to me

im just sittin here, piling money in the benz
i aint share with no one cuz i aint got any friends
turn my feels to money then im feeling what i spend
wonder if thats all to life im dying in the end
x2

sedative

This dread we live in. Produced by lullabyboy and @ghxstkid

Lyrics:

Verse 1

I don’t really want to let go,
Walking over graves of people I have never known.
Yeah I know I’m nothing,
Much,
To look at,
But,
I love you more than,
I seem to act back.
You’re wasting all your time on me,
You know that I appreciate you more than I appreciate myself...
You know that I appreciate you more than I appreciate myself

Chorus:

Won’t you stay
This dread
I’m shaking

I’m shaking x2

This dread I’m shaking

Verse 2

I just need your company,
Help me get out of bed,
I hope I’ll be alright, 
I’m showing signs of losing time.
How easy my heart breaks,
Don’t want to wake up
Yeah wake up
Yeah wake up 
For a while...
This dread I take,
I can’t erase...
But I’m hoping for better days,
I hope this goes my way...

Dread

SPOTIFY LINK

Dread.

ya i pull up in that jet 
you know what’s next 
i’m comin up wit my boys 
thas my set ya
couple souls in the room 
when i wreck ya
if you thinking ima act to impress
you bet ya 
told you i’m the one
thought you had the right aim
for the sun
no one had to write the time
for the end of mine
ima tell you why 

(don’t let time go by so easy, i’m barely hangin on)

we can go on for hours
the power lines 
the quiet times i had left behind
severed arms won’t take my hands
bleeding in a bathroom stall
blood all on my fingertips
i guess it’s so
won’t let go
of the promise you gave me
needing you lately

ya i pull up in that jet 
you know what’s next 
i’m comin up wit my boys 
thas my set ya
couple souls in the room 
when i wreck ya
if you thinking ima act to impress
you bet ya 
told you i’m the one
thought you had the right aim
for the sun
no one had to write the time
for the end of mine
ima tell you why 

i just got a rover skrt 
pull up all my haters hurt
say no words 
don’t call me a jerk
if you tell me to be there
you know that ima be there first 
it’s obvious that you’re tired of us
i don’t wanna fight 
i just wanted us to be alright
you said things would be the same
i been here trying
you were lying

(you can’t rewrite the things you said, they’re not unspoken)

ya i pull up in that jet 
you know what’s next 
i’m comin up wit my boys 
thas my set ya
couple souls in the room 
when i wreck ya
if you thinking ima act to impress
you bet ya 
told you i’m the one
thought you had the right aim
for the sun
no one had to write the time
for the end of mine
ima tell you why

end of mine (prod. pretty boy ron x nick cassidy)

lyrics ~

whys everything so different now~
so different now~
its all just blending an oil painting
melting together like distant sunsets
whys no one ever stick around~
everyone moves different now~
stick to myself like id rather
never let anyone else down ever again no

we've been here b4
stories never finished
listen to the pages flippin back n forth now
guess thats how it goes
in another world
fall asleep ignoring all the nonsense

no dont care~
i could run away 4 days
turn to months then to years in a blink
always sleepin till the days gone
you get what you pay 4
dont ever try to scared of that letdown
never done enough to be proud of myself~
looking at photos like a mirrored past to
try to remember who that person was~

time made me bitter~

whys everything so different now~
so different now~
its all just blending an oil painting
melting together like distant sunsets
whys no one ever stick around~
everyone moves different now~
stick to myself like id rather
never let anyone else down ever again no

we've been here b4
stories never finished
listen to the pages flippin back n forth now
guess thats how it goes
in another world
fall asleep ignoring all the nonsense

oil spill [p. wellfed]

thank you to https://soundcloud.com/sendflowrs https://soundcloud.com/remghost https://soundcloud.com/jvbeats666

it's so ugly
i let everyone control me 
and i can't think 
so i just lay awake and worry
blurry
your words just cut me , have some mercy
you never fail to leave me scars
that's why i'm hurting

it's why i'm hurting
i can see your eyes
i know they're burning
and i can't feel you in the dark
i know you're lurking
you really love to see me bleed
i'll close my eyes now
you really love to leave me scars
so bring the knife out

(flowrs)
knife out, knife out
baby bring the knife out 
and i’m so fucking sick of this
i guess i’ll say goodnight now
and i know you’re laying with him 
so i’ll scratch my fucking eyes out
you’re tryna match his breathing
he’s asleep, i’ll fucking cry now
gave me 3 chances, 
blew em all i guess i’ll strike out 
your rope is weak, this fucking hole i’ll never climb out 
she told me “never go to sleep with all the lights out”
cus she won’t show me mercy, wants me dead, i guess i’ll die now

Dread.

lullabyboy

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