i wrote this in an hour im tired i just wanna sleep goodbye

lyrics:
seems that you've been around a while now
and i just don't know how i've put up with you for so long
could you let me live just today?
i don't want you to stay here with me anymore

i try so hard to deal with you
and all i ever do is lose
you make my life so difficult, it's almost criminal
just give me a reason why

help me, you're something that won't leave
you make it hard for me just to wake up each morning
and i will always know you're there
this all just seems unfair

you took my mind, and now i want it back
i'll ask you kindly, just cut me some slack
make you any deal you want, oh please
allow my heart to just be put at ease

how my anxiety feels

lyrics:
i said that i wouldn’t do this again
it only leads to my heart breaking every single time
but something inside past the panic tells me i deserve much more

then i go up, down
spinning around again
circles, seems like i’m getting myself
into what i promised i’d stay far away from

but  maybe it’s worth it after all
even if i crash and i fall
cause not knowing keeps me up until the sunrise

i’m so tired of the waiting
when you can’t see the one that you love
my heart’s getting in the way again
this just won’t be sufficient enough
and i know better than anyone else
guess i’ll just give up

maybe i just like the attention
validation never hurt anyone, except those few guys
i guess that i’m selfish, but let’s face it no one wants to feel alone

then i go up, down
there goes my sanity
running, from what i don’t want to face
knowing that i’m someone i’ll never be proud of

but maybe it’s worth it after all
even if i crash and i fall
been a while since someone made me feel this way

i’m so tired of the waiting
when you can’t see the one that you love
my heart’s getting in the way again
this just won’t be sufficient enough
and i know better than anyone else
guess i’ll just give up

don’t you worry
i’ll just hurry away
you’ll forget you even met me

i might disappear
it's because i fear
that i might hurt you like the ones before

i’m so tired of the waiting
when you can’t see the one that you love
my heart’s getting in the way again
this just won’t be sufficient enough
and i know better than anyone else
i’ve been through it all can you really not tell? 
i’m giving up

giving up

lyrics:
been wondering how you’re feeling again
you’re way too hard to read and it’s giving me a headache
it’s always the same old things

can you make up your mind just for once
i’m waiting here patiently you’re wasting my precious time
am i being out of line

baby we could work out oh perfectly there’s no doubt
it’s the way you smile your hair blows in the wind, beach waves in the background i don’t want this to end.. with me and you

tell me what to do

tell me what to do

lyrics:
have i been honest enough, or maybe too blunt half the time
maybe i’m drowning myself in hopes that it’ll be alright
this time, i can’t really fake it, what’s there to lose, you know?
i guess i’m scared of letting go of all the things that make me feel at home
late nights, talking for an hour, then two, then three, now i’ve lost count
i’ll listen, taking it all in, without a single ounce of doubt
that you bring me into another world, a one where i don’t feel so miserable


i don’t know whether to play it off or lose control
and something inside says i’m never gonna give you up no no, i’m
never gonna let you go without a fight, at least not for tonight
i think i’m just making things up in my head, i’m too irrational right now
maybe i should give you up, oh oh, i think that i should let my feelings go for once
sorry that i dragged you in, it’s all too much

gogo

lyrics:
maybe i should've figured this one out by now
but sadly i just can't, cause i'm delusional
making things out to be something that they're not, that's my specialty
i'm done, i'm better off alone

cause i'm just the second choice
the one's that always there but without a voice
it's like i'm so disposable, telling everyone 
"i'm fine. there will be a next time."
i hope

but i can't shake it, feeling that i'm breaking, i'm crumbling on down
it's cause you were trusted, i need better judgment, or else i'll just fade out
when will you listen, to what i’m sayin, can you stop talking, quit your complaining to me
because you’ll only come here selfishly 

oh i’ve become accustomed to this kind of view for a while now
but i’m sick and tired, my brain’s rewired, i’m done fooling around
and you gotta get through your head, to go and talk to someone else instead
this aint a pity party, i’m not sorry, go and find the next one

cause i’m not your back up plan, i’m always there for you, but now i just can’t
to saver my own sanity, i will let you go right now, you’ll be alright somehow. 
i guess

but i can’t shake it, feeling that i’m breaking, i’m crumbling on down
it’s cause you were trusted, i need better judgment, or else i’ll just fade out
when will you listen, to what i’m sayin, can you stop talking, quit your complaining to me
because you’ll only come here selfishly

pity party

lol so the guy i wrote this about ending up cheating on me, but it's still a bop i don't even care

instrumental credzzz: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtEttSYADQA

lyrics:
lately i’ve been so confused
i got so much stuff to do
but i can’t get you off my mind
i hope you feel the same way too

cause feelings come and go usually
i don’t know what is wrong with me you just keep tugging on my heart in so many 
directions, feel like i got a love infection

i know, i know, love for you hasn’t been easy
cause all these people so sleazy
telling ya they love you, but it’s never the truth

why do they make it look so good in movies
it just makes no sense to me
i’m begging you for one last chance
for a little bit of romance

you’ve got a way with words, and you know it
i know you’ve got a lot of love inside you, so show it
so what we’re far away, still gotta say, i just don’t know anyone quite like you

just like the flowers that bloom in the spring, you come on around and you give me everything i need. so where’s the problem? i can’t see one. 

oh i know, i know, love for you hasn’t been easy
cause all these people so sleazy
telling ya they love you, but it’s never the truth

why do they make it look so good in movies
it just makes no sense to me
i’m begging you for one last chance
for a little bit of romance

ro.mance

cover of pandemonium by niki
instrumental cred: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ku_mzOO8RNk&ab_channel=MigzNath

pandemonium {niki cover}

"i want to make everyone in the world forget their sadness and hatred with a smile!"

lunavaria

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