Martha (1976-2013)

Written in 2003, this song is for Martha Carol.  Martha lost her mother while we were in 5th grade.  We attended Orchard Street School in Fox River Grove.  At the time, the school would host a monthly dance for the Junior High kids.  6th grade came and Martha agreed to be my first girlfriend.  Ten months after her Mom passed, Martha was my date to the Halloween dance.  She arrived with her face painted in a black and white yin & yang, but like a clown, with the white side smiling and the black side frowning.  We all knew the moment we saw her what she trying to convey with her costume; It was a beautifully sad expression of everything she was going through.  She was at the dance but somewhere else entirely that night.  We sat quietly until the inevitable moment when a song came on that ripped the tears from her eyes.  She stood, turned, and ran screaming out of the school.  A few of us chased after and I got to her first.  There she was, standing at the top of a hill, just staring up at the streetlight, enveloped in its glow, and spinning in small circles.  For all the years I knew her after that time she was just never the same.  Martha is gone now, passed a few years back from an illness, but I’ll always have her and that moment in my heart.        

Verse 1
She’s circling the streetlight
Says she sneaks out every night
And that she stares at the stars and cries under moonlight
She says she can’t shake her mind of moments frozen in time
She wants some answers to life and she’ll search herself for nothing more.

Verse 2
She wants to go back in time.
She wants someone else’s life
So she lay on the on floor, oh
And she begs for the pain to subside
She’s just a little girl so lost in this world
Down and out of control, kicked and broken, and she don’t know why.

Verse 3
Says she’d trade it all for better days
God there’s got to be a better way
And she’s so damn scared
But she won’t let it show.
Never again will she be the same
It’s buried to stay, every day is now so alone

Bridge
And then she said.  If you can hear me, can you heal me
If can feel me shaking, can you free me
She says she wished it would rain 
to match this flood of sadness and wash her away
Then a storm rolled in, the clouds as gray as her skin, and when the rain and lightning broke, somehow it gave her hope.

Verse 4
She’s circling the streetlight
Says she sneaks out every night
And that she stares at the stars and prays under moonlight
She wore the face of clown, part smile, part frown
And when the makeup was gone, run free the child down below.
When that storm rolled in, the clouds as gray as her skin, but when the rain and lightning broke, the ghost carried her home.

Martha

Written, recorded, mixed and mastered by Jan aka Sönderrevet.

Vocal contributions from The Bawl Slant
Check him out: https://soundcloud.com/bawl-slant

Lyrics 

Change is the only constant
Will it matter where you've been 
When we're drifting away like drifting boats
Just riding with the wind
Without a port of arrival
Leaving it all to fate
And all the things we've reached for 
Will crumble in the end 

We try to advert our eyes
but these shadows keeps on seeping in 

It's the same ol' blues
you've been chasing around
The same ol' hurt
when you watch it come down
Still you must trust that the light's 
worth searching for

It's always the same 
It's always the same 
It's always the same 
It's always the same 

You've come all this way now
Repeating the same mistakes
And despite all our choosing
We've been chasing our own tails
And there's no use in pretending
That these stains will wash away

We try to advert our eyes
but these shadows keeps on seeping in 

It's the same ol' blues
you've been chasing around
The same ol' hurt
when you watch it come down
And still you must trust that the light's 
worth searching for

It's always the same 
It's always the same 
It's always the same 
It's always the same 
It's always the same 
It's always the same 
It's always the same

Chapters Missing

Seeping (Feat. The Bawl Slant)

Song composed & created by The Boilerman, James Kevin & The Old School
Eric created & plays: all beginning lead guitar and all rythm guitar
James Kevin created & plays: all chorus song lead guitar
The Old School created & plays: All bass guitar
Eric created: all drum, ambient, vocals
All mixing done by: J.B Productions
Thank you for listening!

Please check out my friend, James Kevin @soundcloud.com/james-kevin-749817093
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lyrics:
Now's the time to pull things close
But to lose what's close can hurt the most
Can this really be the end?
Or could we maybe start again?
Someone laughs – someone must cry
Someone lives – someone must die
Someone leaves – someone stands by
Someone stands and wonders why
I've seen people alienate
Detach themselves and look in hate
But I could never relate
To such a cheap brand of escape
Someone laughs – someone must cry
Someone lives – someone must die
Someone leaves – someone stands by
Someone stands and wonders why

I've seen the wreckage left behind
Broken hearts and broken minds
The only thing that's left to find
Is wasted tears and wasted time
Someone laughs - someone must cry
Someone lives - someone must die
Someone leaves - someone stands by
Someone stands and wonders why
Now's the time to pull things close
But to lose what's close can hurt the most
Can this really be the end
Or could we maybe start again
Someone laughs - someone must cry
Someone lives – someone must die
Someone leaves – someone stands by
Someone stands and wonders why


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