this stuff is making me sad 😭 rich with emotion

inside (guardin cover)

same old same old w powfu (prod. skinny atlas)

produced by Boyfifty, Pizzle, & Lxst Boy

-lyrics-

(lxst boy)
second time around 
and nothings changing
see right through your face
you’re ghosting, im breaking
picking fights
will leave you on the pavement 
girl you ain’t quirky
wow, you’re just brain dead 
this ain’t the first instance 
where you been sneaking out
window cracked open
just hoping i wouldn’t find out
wouldn’t it be worth it
to end it with me and see him? 
(answer me)
i guess you like it
when dudes fight for your attention 
non-confrontation
you hit me with a side eye
no provocation 
but now i’m just the side guy
play me like nintendo 
cause only for tonight im
getting stepped on till i pop 
like i’m shy guy
woah
yeah that last line kinda hit hard
you’re the only reason 
i got good at making sad songs
when the time flies 
you’ll realize you miss me
think about that
when you roll down his street

ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
i don’t really know if im still alive
(wait a minute)

(soku)
tell me why you think
that you could get back with me
been having long thoughts in drives
as you roll down his street?
i swear that time could never change the way
i perceive your image
i swear that i just really hate the way
you tell me you miss me
i got a couple bags
off a song that i wrote
but you ain't getting nothing
cause you left me here all alone
you liked the secret meetings
at his place while we dated
but baby that just wasn't secret
cause you know that i hated
yeah
every second
of your little endeavors
but now you messed up so bad
that i won't bother with letters
won't get a Christmas card or nothing
girl you messed up so bad
i hope the time you took away from me
will get you right back
i hope that one day
your console runs out of battery
and you can stop playing games
with guys that don't have control
i hope that one day
that you just run out of flattery
and you can find a better path
and offer Jesus your soul

(lxst boy)
ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
i don’t really know if i’m alive 
caught between the good times, thinking about the bad nights
i don’t wanna know if you’re gone this time 
maybe i’ll stay outside
tell me did i mess it up this time (this time)
ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
wishing i could take us back in time 
oh back in time

back in time 
thoughts of you make me nauseous 
dropping you 
fixed a magic hole in my pocket
call me ten times
i’m ignoring your nonsense 
there’s hate in my heart but it’s a part of the process

ghost girl, pt. 2 (it’s too late to save us)

Keep Me Up

@lilxtraatl <3

[chorus]
ripped black jeans and Snow White hair it’s like no one sees or no one cares,
its like all I crave is her
but I’m not what she deserves 

[verse]
she fucks with my head on daily
she fucked me like she really hate me
she love when I sing her to sleep
I love her so much I can’t breathe when she speak I see stars in my dreams

every girl I talk to hates me
I feel like I can’t even cry I wouldn’t date me
and if you told me that you loved me you were faking
I make the most of all the hearts I end up breaking so,

I don’t even cry no more
but, lately I been cryin on the floor, like
I don’t even want this life
why, does it have to so bright

I, know
i, know
i, know

you're not alone
[chorus]
ripped black jeans and Snow White hair it’s like no one sees or no one cares,
its like all I crave is her
but I’m not what she deserves

[verse]
yeah i know i'm not alone but it sure does feel like
everyone hates me i just don't feel right
and you said, you're not alone, but when i show up there's no one home

its not easy believe me, when i'm standin' right here and you still can't see me i'm, in your ear but you still can't hear me i'm, speaking truth and you still don't believe me

i've been broken before and i'm broken again
i guess i'm being punished for my sins
lately my nightmares feel like my friends cause
only they understand me in the end

you're not alone

not alone w/ lil xtra (prod. boyfifty)

prod @oceanonthebeat

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

you wanna ride that guy over clout go head
text me i'm the problem with his hands around your neck
text me i'm dramatic while you open up your legs
for a guy who doesn't care about you he just wanted sex

you're in love with the feeling of feeling used
tell me you hate me like bet that's cool

you don't want the drama you would rather have abuse
you're the reason that i hate myself for trippin over you

i fell for a girl to fast and that's facts
i got problems with attachment i'm losing my fucking grasp
its gettin harder to trust people it all feels like an act
i was starving for a light and now i'm blinded what is that?

i can't trust a soul
i can't feel at all
i can't feel your heartbeat
please don't say you love me

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

i cried every night now i sob
i got problems with lovin then movin on
i got problems with stayin all by my lonely like
nathan i miss you like come and hold me tight

i can't help that i can't help you
you want him now he might break you
he might relapse he might reuse
he might love you he can't change you

i can't help that i might love you
you're real nice but i can't trust you
you won't date me i can't make you
walls to strong no way i'll break through

i deserve better (prod. ocean)

produced by @citrusgastank 
mixed & mastered by @berler
artwork by @implix

everytime w/ powfu (prod. citrusgastank)

@qawikamri
@guardinmusic

FIRST SONG OF "A Diary Of You"

a song that i'll play on a rainy day (feat. guardin)

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

lyrics:

losin lots of sleep could not compare to me when losin you
every time i write i feel a weight a shade of navy blue
it really hurts but don't forget it
i said i'm sorry and i meant it

woah, yeah, you been perfect since i met you
everything you do has got me wondering who sent you
and i'm thankful for the time spent
every time i leave i swear its hard for me to digest

and now i'm waitin at the bus stop, i wanna text you
you could make my heart stop, i wouldn't test you
everything you do, everything you say,
got me writin love songs every single day

and now i'm waitin at the bus stop, i wanna text you
you could make my heart stop, i wouldn't test you
everything you do, everything you say,
got me writin love songs every single day

yeah, i fake smile, whenever you're not with me
time flies by whenever we kissing
you could fall asleep on me forever
i could search but i'd never find better

you always talk with a gentle voice
you draw me in like an open door
you're the girl that's been in my dreams
you're the ghost i've been searchin for

when you leave i still think about you
and when you're close all my dreams come true
and when you leave i still think about you
and when you're near all my dreams come true

i think about you

about you w/ powfu (prod. lee)

mixed, mastered & produced by @scapexgoat

yeah she took my heart 
ripped it out of my chest 
guess you found fun in fucking with my head 
my heart dropped at every word that you said 
maybe I love you’s not the words that you meant  x2

it’s the only way to make the time pass 
still wish it never ended like that 
i keep listening to cars crash 
hoping that i’ll see you but i know you wouldn’t like that


you won’t see me there
i can’t pretend that i care 
you just sat and stared 
can’t talk cuz i’m too scared

scared of fucking up
don’t even text me i don’t wanna talk 
act like this but i’m still in love 
made me upset so i guess i’ll cut you off 

yeah she took my heart 
ripped it out of my chest 
guess you found fun in fucking with my head 
my heart dropped at every word that you said 
maybe I love you’s not the words that you meant  x2

i keep listening to cars crash

shoutout to sewer and slip for making this legendary <3

alone with the lightning

Intro

Listen to the birds singing 
Kissing in my car I
Idk if there’s a purpose

Feel like we moving at a high speed
Waiting for the lightning to strike me

Getting tempted by the eyes you hold
Hands warm but your heart cold

Verse 1

Dont wanna assume it
feels like u been acting
I dont wanna do this
u go push me back in

Stare at me with hate
Through those crystal eyes
And it kills inside
But im acting fine

U dont even know Me
I know that u scared too
U dont wanna fall in love by accidental
For when u decide to leave  to hard to handle
I wanted all of u
And not a sample 

Far away 
see a glimpse
Of your heart but
Its laying deep inside the shadows

After all things wont be the same
So Might as well use this as ammo

Verse 2

im breaking through the barrier
i still need to hurry up
baby what u pickin up
i cant tell if this is love
40000 years amuck
we still argue bout what star we from
but stop and look how far we come
damn i we didnt do enough

plenty men devoured by the evil lesser known
if i stay focused on the essence of my soul
i gotta prophecy entangled with my spirit that the stars
chose to bestow
i bleed from out my eyes into the late november snow
the fox inside my blood has chose his presence to be known
the human left inside me looks to find another home
he says im awful
im way above the ways of thinking lawful
im stuck inside the mouth of reason rippin out his tonsils
my energy is somehow tied to paleozoic fossils
its smothered deep in mother natures arms remaining coddled
but i like it
as for every mortal left alive your uninvited
we take this gift of earth and give it violence
id prefer if inside my world i could choose to keep it private
its not tinnitus
but this noise inside my head id like to attribute to sirens
insomuch i feel the rush of vehicles beside it
these flashing scenes of tragedy sit inside of my eyelids

ghost girl, pt. 2 (it’s too late to save us)

Lxst Boy

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