this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain
what have i done
i got pain in my lungs 
no space in my chest my heart confined palpitation
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
i’m wrong
for thinking that i’m the only one
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
what have i done?
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
from everything that ever did me wrong
what have i done?
everything that ever did me wrong
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain

run from everything that ever did me wrong (prod. hero)

produced by boyfifty 
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJ7YnhvysdI&feature=youtu.be

-lyrics-
whatever you say tonight 
i don’t really care what’s on your mind
staying up late trying to burn the night
i live in your walls i’m a poltergeist 
i got lxst on the way
to the house in the woods from my memory 
all my friends are dead to me
repeat what you had said to me

take back what i said, im a mess
i don’t wanna die
but in my head it made sense
to try to chase the meteorites 
i got pains in my chest
on these stormy late nights
i got cold when you left
now i’m coming back to life

riptides are throwing me around
hold tight, just seconds from the ground
i got something to say, bae just hear me out
but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now

(woahh oh ohhh)
 
i won’t respond when you say my name
i’m out of time, no i can’t think straight
i’m probably out of touch with my inner state
i am boring, yeah i get it, none of my songs are great
i won’t respond to anything you say
feel that i should pack up and run away
cause if you felt emotion, you would do the same
now i get it, no, lemme get this straight

riptides are throwing me around
hold tight, just seconds from the ground
i got something to say, bae just hear me out
but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now

take back what i said, im a mess
i don’t wanna die
but in my head it made sense
to try to chase the meteorites 
i got pains in my chest
on these stormy late nights
i got cold when you left
now i’m coming back to life

riptides are throwing me around
hold tight, just seconds from the ground
i got something to say, bae just hear me out
but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now

(but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now)

Music Video!!

riptides (boyfifty)

produced by jxsie beats & nuxe
mixed and mastered by lxst boy
@cavasoul
@jxsiebeats

-lyrics-
(lxst boy)
was it something that i said that ticked you off
cause now you won't talk
i feel that we're running out of time
cause i know that i get inside my head
i'll never understand
i never did this now i do it all the time
i am overthinking to the point im never sleeping
i been writing songs, i even do it when im dreaming
i hope this goes away, yeah, cause God, i hate this feeling
i am trapped within these walls, my eyes are glued to the ceiling
yeah

sometimes i get a little closer
there's no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
theres  no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress

(cavasoul)
i gave all of my love right away
then for me, im left with nothing
i was walking alone in the rain
i could snap at the press of a button
it's december now, rain coming down
it freezes before hitting ground
it reminds me of the feeling i had on my neck
when you coming around
is it something about me? 
cause lately i feel like you better without me
idk whats going on in my head
but the negative thoughts overwhelm me, im drowning
im never healthy, i cannot help it
how can i help me? i wanna be dead
i still remember the lies you had said to me
so i just fill up your side of the bed
now

(lxst boy)
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
there's no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
theres no thing i can say
that will undo what had happened
please just explain
i am drowning in my sadness

when it rains in december w/ cavasoul & jxsie beats

disorders mixed with being disoriented

Produced by @skinnyatlas 
Mix & mastered by ig @heccctor & @skinny atlas 
Cover art by @supachefm

jomie & skinny atlas - lost my voice

produced by boyfifty & fog lake

-lyrics- 

lxst boy:
i said that im fine but i promised that i lied yeah
tryna make it right but it gets harder in the night yeah
stuck here writing songs in my room its rainy weather
my shadows my only friend now we're miserable together x2

we're 2 different people i get that
but why didnt you tell me to step back
i was staying up waiting for a text back
and instead i got sad and i relapsed
yeah i tried and i tried, i fall down then i cry
pick myself up trip and fall then i die
you said its fine but really its not
you act clueless and watch as i rot
i check the time, its 4 or 5
then check my phone, cant see the light
i check my pulse, im half-alive
you picked my rose and watched it die
these castle walls aint fortified
i hear the lies and theyre not mine
cant feel nothing, my nerves are fried
spending every waking moment feeling dry

cavasoul:
i feel faint
lacking iron or protein
or maybe dying
been abandoned by my guide
cause i never see the signs
its over gimme one more time
you move on i fall behind
i always fake it don’t admit the fact
that i’m never feeling fine
i’m a mess most of the time
give my best i’m never right
i struggle with anxiety that makes me wanna die
no one listens
no one cares
really need to wash my hair
but i hardly leave my bed i’m miserable and losing air
suppressing my light make it snow in the summer
i wasted my time even thought that i loved her
i feel like i’m fading i’m losing my colour
i was losing my mind she was under another
another one that i can add to the list
i try to forget all the things that you did
when i think about him it be making me sick
you were wanting a high that i just couldn’t give
the time that you took from me never returned
when you give up your trust and it breaks then it burns
i’m tired i wish that the tables would turn
one day i’ll see you get what you deserve
i thought i could i save you but i was mistaken
concerned with the path you taking
you lied to my face now you can’t even face it
you leaving me here while i’m broken and shaking

lxst boy:
i said that im fine but i promised that i lied yeah
tryna make it right but it gets harder in the night yeah
stuck here writing songs in my room its rainy weather
my shadows my only friend now we're miserable together x2

miserable together w/ Cavasoul (boyfifty x fog lake)

written by lxst boy
produced by lxst boy & splashgvng

-lyrics-
leaves fall like how im falling out of love
every second spent with u it makes it hard to trust
and im just
losing feelings aint no point to get em back
trust u with the knife and then u slide it in my back

hoping that he treats u better
u just think im useless
knew it all along 
dont go on acting like u stupid
broken heart i should be sad
but honestly im used to this
broken bottles on the ground
i dont wanna do this

i deserve better
i didnt see it until now
it took me forever
but i think that ive found solid ground

leaves fall like how im falling out of love
every second spent with u it makes it hard to trust
and im just
losing feelings aint no point to get em back
trust u with the knife and then u slide it in my back

u been outta pocket
i been out my bag
making money off my songs 
u wanna get attached now
oh its funny
oh are u mad
bae just flipping back n forth
but trust me i aint sad
write another song im kicking back and reminiscing
every songs about u do u even listen
trapped inside my head swear im locked inside a prison
oh its a good thing i like being alone

i deserve better
i didnt see it until now
it took me forever
but i think that ive found solid ground

leaves fall like how im falling out of love
every second spent with u it makes it hard to trust
and im just
losing feelings aint no point to get em back
trust u with the knife and then u slide it in my back

autumn w/ splashgvng

Lost Soul Feat. Belak (otterpop)

produced by boyfifty
mixed and mastered by lxst boy

-lyrics-

ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
i don’t really know if i’m alive 
caught between the good times, thinking about the bad nights
i don’t wanna know if you’re gone this time 
maybe i’ll stay outside
tell me did i mess it up this time (this time)
ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
wishing i could take us back in time 

i don’t wanna know if you moved on, just forget it
know exactly where i went wrong, and i regret it
hoping that you don’t hate me i know you’re broken
say good night right before i’m losing hope yeah
ghost in my room yeah i know it’s you
over in the corner slightly out of view
staring through my skull as i write this song
baby this my renaissance 

(talking to myself lol)

ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
i don’t really know if i’m alive 
caught between the good times, thinking about the bad nights
i don’t wanna know if you’re gone this time 
maybe i’ll stay outside
tell me did i mess it up this time (this time)
ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
wishing i could take us back in time 

baby it would hurt you to tell you the truth
God know i hurt you enough yes i do
say you won’t leave when i say that you should 
i’m on my own i got nothing to lose
nothing to lose but your heart in my hands
squeezed it so hard dripping blood on my pants
wrote you a letter i hope it’s enough 
babe you so innocent don’t waste your love on

me
on me
(me)
(me)

ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
i don’t really know if i’m alive 
caught between the good times, thinking about the bad nights
i don’t wanna know if you’re gone this time 
maybe i’ll stay outside
tell me did i mess it up this time (this time)
ghost girl i don’t feel your presence 
wishing i could take us back in time

ghost girl (boyfifty)

produced by jonah bru

-lyrics-

tell me what u thinking babygirl i wanna know what’s up
take time to get to know u, never get enough 
last night in the city oh it had me high
nighttime on the highway doing 95
maybe one day i could change ur name
but for now it’s just us in the pouring rain
baby lock the door i’m tryna tryna play ur game
i’m tryna slide over baby give me a taste 
ayy

alright alright, i’m gonna waste ur time 
sunrise moonlight, we watch the world go by
it’s honestly so obvious 
u steal my heart, i steal a kiss like
alright alright, im gonna waste ur time

what we waiting for
babe u look so beautiful ur designer on my floor
u slippin in my tshirt, u gonna leave me wanting more
slide up on my story, “baby what u doin” i’m just sitting here being bored
i need ur company 
don’t u run from me
i wanna do this right
u are my ecstasy 
i wanna settle down 
change the scenery
swear u are the one
yeah the one for me
let’s go 

alright alright, i’m gonna waste ur time 
sunrise moonlight, we watch the world go by
it’s honestly so obvious 
u steal my heart, i steal a kiss like
alright alright, im gonna waste ur time

miserable together w/ Cavasoul (boyfifty x fog lake)

Lxst Boy

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