dad, im sorry dad, im sorry dad, im sorry dad im sorry dad, im sorry dad, im sorry dadim sorry dad, im sorry dad, im sorry dad?

damn i relate to this. i caught my girl cheatin on me yesterday.. and now shes not talkin to me.

{part 1}
yeah we threw it all away at a record pace
years of building broken down in just a couple days
i’m zoning out and going numb up in the face
crying
begging me to change
but you know it goes both ways
losing everything is something i can’t take
smoking cookie tryna ease some of the pain
looking for an appetite i ain’t eaten in days
i’m fighting with my brain
you can see it in my face

codependent
self aware but i still hate myself til it’s embedded 
i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old

still i never hate you
if you need i’m here
the bond with someone else i don’t think it could compare
but i don’t think i can save you
i’m broken
it’s not fair
i could make you feel safe
running fingers through your hair
i know the way it feels to feel like nobody cares
and every time i think about it i feel guilty like it’s only me
i like to facetime when i fall asleep
so i know that you’re alive when you’re not next to me

i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old
leave a message at the tone
cause i’m all alone
soon as i walk out that door
i'm never coming home

{interlude}
you say that you hate me 
but i know you're lying
said you don't need me
but i see you crying
it happened so fast
throwing it all away
now that i've left
you don't know what to say

{part 2}
second chances aren’t the same when you bend the meaning
every chance another scar that formed with no bleeding
tensions always getting higher we both getting heated
if you love me better tell me cause i fucking need it
we hurt each other saw it coming from the start
i wish that it was easy but it’s really fucking hard
i feel your energy beside me when i’m looking at the stars
just two people living equal with another broken heart

codependent
self aware but i still hate myself til it’s embedded 
i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old

still i never hate you
if you need i’m here
the bond with someone else i don’t think it could compare
but i don’t think i can save you
i’m broken
it’s not fair
i could make you feel safe
running fingers through your hair
i know the way it feels to feel like nobody cares
and every time i think about it i feel guilty like it’s only me
i like to facetime when i fall asleep
so i know that you’re alive when you’re not next to me

i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old
leave a message at the tone
cause i’m all alone
soon as i walk out that door
i'm never coming home

nch

produced by 4lexf https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiYzQlIUDoklHxtRC2Q6_OQ

written, performed, engineered by cavasoul

nch (prod. 4lexf)

Produced by iz x @zainibeats 
Mix & Mastered by @zainibeats

wtf truman (prod. iz x zaini)

produced by trxxshed
mixed and mastered by lxst boy

-lyrics-
dead
i've been dead for a minute dont u know
as i bleed and i rot in this snow
oh wont u come home
lost 
lost for a second in ur mind
when u think back on all of the times
this is what u dont know

i aint talked in awhile hope u noticed
ever since that day i've been feeling at my lowest
climbing up a tree write a song its a vibe
i hope he knows u like kisses goodnight
and im sorry im sensitive
i loved u and im missing it
im taking back those late texts
we were staying up i was feeling it
im dumb i guess its fine 
im lighting up the sky

dead
i've been dead for a minute dont u know
as i bleed and i rot in this snow
oh wont u come home
lost 
lost for a second in ur mind
when u think back on all of the times
this is what u dont know

this an intermission on a mission i cant die
mind of a poet is a prison i might cry
sitting on my bed 2am im seeing lights
out there in the distance in the purple city sky
talking with my conscience seems hes a nice guy
body fills with toxins but its feeling kinda nice
deals with the siren sold my heart thats the price
she left in the morning like the stories of succubi

dead
i've been dead for a minute dont u know
as i bleed and i rot in this snow
oh wont u come home
lost 
lost for a second in ur mind
when u think back on all of the times
this is what u dont know

what u don’t know

Empty

produced by Lxst Boy & penelopered

-lyrics-

late nights when the sun goes down
i can take you back to your house
or maybe we can run away and leave this town
find a city in the stars, look down

at the world we left behind 
no one misses us, we’re fine
just find the light inside 
let it lead the way

i will walk you home
in the pouring rain
tell you “we’ll be fine,
we’ll be there someday”
and i will trust you still
at the end of my life
i’ll be by your side
by your side

man, i gotta focus
can’t wander through the forest alone
i get so scared when you hang up the phone
i can’t see clear but you are my home
a cottage in the woods as we talk about
￼
the world we left behind 
no one misses us, we’re fine
just find the light inside 
let it lead the way

i will walk you home
in the pouring rain
tell you “we’ll be fine,
we’ll be there someday”
and i will trust you still
at the end of my life
i’ll be by your side
by your side

i will walk you home
in the pouring rain
tell you “we’ll be fine,
we’ll be there someday”
and i will trust you still
at the end of my life
i’ll be by your side
by your side

by your side (a city in the stars)

Crossroads w/ Autumn Dawn

skyyy w/ brecken (cxrter x yashio x lxst boy)

100 round

My curse contract for seeing beyond

produced by @lilsadeyes and @nversad

i was yours, you were mine
i should've known i was wasting your time
i couldn't grow, i wanted to die
now when ever you text me i can't reply

so i guess i'll go get stoned
and wonder why you haven't come back home

i wanna give myself stick n pokes
i wanna laugh so hard i lose my throat

and now i've someone that truly fucking cares
doesn't look the other way when i'm alone or in despair
doesn't act like i'm the reason that my parents wouldn't cope
with the fact that i'm a loser so they left me on my own

she won't leave me in the smoke
when i'm sad alone or broke
she gon keep me on my toes
she gon hold me hella close

she gon be there in the end
when i'm lyin in my bed
she gon tell me how she love me
she could never play pretend

i was yours, you were mine
i should've known i was wasting your time
i couldn't grow, i wanted to die
now when ever you text me i can't reply

so i guess i'll go get stoned
and wonder why you haven't come back home

i wanna give myself stick n pokes
i wanna laugh so hard i lose my throat

and my heart fuckin' bursts
when i'm lookin' at her
she's the one that i need
she's the one i deserve

she's the reason i breathe
she's the reason i heal
she's the one that i want
and that's just how i feel

stick n pokes

shoutout to sewer and slip for making this legendary <3

alone with the lightning

Intro

Listen to the birds singing 
Kissing in my car I
Idk if there’s a purpose

Feel like we moving at a high speed
Waiting for the lightning to strike me

Getting tempted by the eyes you hold
Hands warm but your heart cold

Verse 1

Dont wanna assume it
feels like u been acting
I dont wanna do this
u go push me back in

Stare at me with hate
Through those crystal eyes
And it kills inside
But im acting fine

U dont even know Me
I know that u scared too
U dont wanna fall in love by accidental
For when u decide to leave  to hard to handle
I wanted all of u
And not a sample 

Far away 
see a glimpse
Of your heart but
Its laying deep inside the shadows

After all things wont be the same
So Might as well use this as ammo

Verse 2

im breaking through the barrier
i still need to hurry up
baby what u pickin up
i cant tell if this is love
40000 years amuck
we still argue bout what star we from
but stop and look how far we come
damn i we didnt do enough

plenty men devoured by the evil lesser known
if i stay focused on the essence of my soul
i gotta prophecy entangled with my spirit that the stars
chose to bestow
i bleed from out my eyes into the late november snow
the fox inside my blood has chose his presence to be known
the human left inside me looks to find another home
he says im awful
im way above the ways of thinking lawful
im stuck inside the mouth of reason rippin out his tonsils
my energy is somehow tied to paleozoic fossils
its smothered deep in mother natures arms remaining coddled
but i like it
as for every mortal left alive your uninvited
we take this gift of earth and give it violence
id prefer if inside my world i could choose to keep it private
its not tinnitus
but this noise inside my head id like to attribute to sirens
insomuch i feel the rush of vehicles beside it
these flashing scenes of tragedy sit inside of my eyelids

what u don’t know

Lxst Boy

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