What I've Done (ft. Bloom.wav)

Home (Ft. Caleb Bolt)

City Of Rain (LXST REMIX)

decay

lonnie❗️
https://on.soundcloud.com/MG35K

-and that's what it's about, you know?
Fucking up.
And being able to move past it, without ruining everything. 
But for now, I think 

I'm stuck
Inside of this thought that we'll
Make up
After all that's said and done we're 
So fucked
A suicide that bends the mind of
Consequences 
Consequences

Why did this have to happen to you and me
You don't wanna know The end of this tragedy
I don't wanna go home
I cant, you can
(LxstBxy)

So can we just fuck up
I don't know what to do now
Know what to do now
The silence is so loud
Fuck up
I don't wanna be this way
Wanna feel this pain
Just another day
Fuck up
I will sway and spill my soul out to the water
Drag me through the mud until I can't sink farther

I tried everything that i could 
To let you know
No matter how far away
Or how much you change 
I won’t let you down
I skip rocks like metaphors 
Across your empty window pane
I tried letting go but I
Hate myself when i’m not with you

So can we fu-fu-fuck up
I don't know what to do now
Know what to do now
The silence is so loud
Fuck up
I don't wanna be this way
Wanna feel this pain
Just another day
Fuck up
I will sway and spill my soul out to the water
Drag me through the mud until I can't sink farther

Monophobia (Ft. lonnie)

Huge thanks to Ila, Raime, and KDE Paris for giving me their voices for the intro :)

Medicine Girl❗️
https://on.soundcloud.com/gYj9j

[Lyrics]
I don't know how to do this anymore
Fuck you lxst
Fuck you lxst
Yo fuck you lxst, you ain't even getting that giggle
Love you lxst

Fuck you
I don't wanna be this way
I'm through
Letting you decide how my day goes
I got addicted and then I just froze

Lxst at it again

Pull the throttle back down
Slamming through the gears now
Fuck my nose is bleeding
But I'll clean it when I'm back In town

Never thought I'd be this way
This healing arc is where I'll stay
Deaths a fragile little game
Yank the break and swerve to play

Cause when I die they'll put a fucken cross on the highway
Always wondering what changed
Telling themselves what a shame

Brought myself up to the top
A Screaming halt and then I dropped
Always thought I'd make it but I
Guess my bubble just got popped

Cause I'm on the
Redline
While I'm Cruising
Cloud nine

Every days a mystery
All the things that I could be
Now I'm riding solo and there's
No one in my second seat

Bars, BARS
Lxst at it again

Redline on the cloud9
Yes I made that
LxstBxy you so damn fine
Wait who said that

Everyday I'm closer to becoming someone that I hate
So I'll keep on fighting
Call me rock lee with the 5th gate

One day you'll see me on the stage
With the lights on
Up there, the Crowd yelling my name
And I'll blast off

I just hope you're there with me when it happens
Pass labeled VIP and a big grin

Lotta stories now, that I'll never tell
But I think I might just be doing well, yeah

I hope you know that this is for you
Thank you for seeing me through

Aw man how the FUCK did I end up here
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah

See my popups in the rearview New はしりや bout to fucking pass you
Always win never lose 除書 無敗 shoutout Toukon and the boys yeah without them I'd die

Catch them all like Pokémon get the strong and pour it up
Blow the speakers out bitch we don't give a fuck

右足離せない踏みきるアクセル
風音切り裂く四つのTURBO

Running through the wind with my boy Hiro! last thing you hear is the fucking exhaust note!
Sitting on my throne
Running on my own
Only thing you see now is my taillights on the way home

REDLINE ON CLOUD9 (Ft. Medicine Girl)

Die For You - Joji Cover

SINS OF YOUR ({Pre-EP Release)

There's his name again
Can you repeat that
I didn't hear what you said
I think I missed my final Chances 
To make any last advances 

Stupid, I know
I want you to myself
But that can't show
Can I tell you that
I still care
Even though you're not there

I don't wanna be your
Boy Bestfriend 
A smile won't hide
The things we've said
Would you tell me baby
Does he know
The things you'd show
When the lights get low

I'm sitting alone at the movies
Realizing that I still miss things
Therapy in my car
Fuck have I gone too far?

And now im taking
Pills to forget you
Refill overdue
I cant feel this way now
Please love the way my pain sounds
Every time I talk to you
I'm reminded that I'm just 
A Boy Bestfriend 

And honestly I hate those words
Dig my heels into the dirt
Running off at the start
Scared to embrace my own heart

Maybe if I take a break
I'll come back and feel okay
A Boy Bestfriend
I don't feel okay

One more time
One more time
I promise that I'm not tryna
Be dry
I just don't know what to say
Anymore
A Boy Bestfriend 

I don't wanna be your
Boy Bestfriend 
A smile won't hide
The things we've said
Would you tell me baby
Does he know
The things you'd show
When the lights get low

Boy best friend 
A Boy best friend 
Boy best friend
A Boy best friend
I don't- *laughing* nevermind 
(No keep it going!)

Boy Bestfriend 
A smile won't hide
The things we've said
Would you tell me baby
Does he know
The things you'd show
When the lights get low

Boy Bestfriend 
A smile won't hide
The things we've said
Would you tell me baby
Does he know
The things you'd show
When the lights get low

Boy Bestfriend 
A smile won't hide
The things we've said
Would you tell me baby
Does he know
The things you'd show
When the lights get low

BOY BESTFRIEND

(First off, im incredibly tired, and incredibly high, which means my voice is fucked, you know? 
Second of all, there is nothing attractive about saying "LxstBxy-)

I don't wanna stop
But I know that it'll end
Bringing out the clock
And you'll turn back both the hands
Crying in your shirt
Hold on even though it hurts
And I've lost my Darling

I can feel you all around me
Wrap me up and then you'll drown me
(LxstBxy)
Crying in your shirt
Hold on even though it hurts
And I've lost my Darling

My head hits the pillow 
And I start to sink
My room feels so mellow 
But i am on the brink 

I wish I could say it but it's way too late
The feelings that i accumulate
Can't articulate, no
Or set things straight, oh
I'd try to go
But my heart stays right here

Darling

Fuck a second chorus, I got more to say
I cant pretend to be okay every day
Writing these songs like they'll 
Fix all my wrongs 
And my put my heart in my songs 

It's a form of escapism 
But I can't break through
So I'll rework myself
And come back anew
I think I'm missing a screw
Maybe for once I'll do something right

Under appreciated 
Or Maybe I'm overstating
The little things inside my head
A reaction to the words I'm fed

And I didn't mean to say It like that,
It just came out
But i just started thinking And my heart
Feels burnt out
Do I not deserve a good ending?

And I think I found the answer
But all I found was heartache

Don't look too deep
Youll just find me
Screaming in the feeling
And ill Tell myself I'll be okay

I don't wanna stop
But I know that it'll end
Bringing out the clock
And you'll turn back both the hands
Crying in your shirt
Hold on even though it hurts
And I've lost my Darling

I can feel you all around me
Wrap me up and then you'll drown me
(LxstBxy)
Crying in your shirt
Hold on even though it hurts
And I've lost my Darling

I don't wanna stop
But I know that it'll end
Bringing out the clock
And you'll turn back both the hands
Crying in your shirt
Hold on even though it hurts
And I've lost my Darling

And I've lost my Darling
And i break down no warning 
I wish it was you calling
But I've lost my darling


DARLING

(Yeah, I bet you didn't expect this one, huh?
Anyways)

I remember when i thought that
I didn't care about my life
Anymore
So I took a drink or two 
Before I made that drive
That night

I've had
So much time to think
And now i know that
We're both still interlinked
I've set my phone down
Anxious for a few weeks
Thought I'd be thrown out
But now I've made my peace

I still have those thoughts sometimes
Matching flames, that burned too bright
Another dream where I just died
I really hope that's not a sign

I've had
So much time to think
And now i know that
We're both still interlinked
I've set my phone down
Anxious for a few weeks
Thought I'd be thrown out
But now I've made my peace

So can you please just stay 
I'll push your tears away
Just meet me halfway
And we don't have to talk
As long as you're on,
I'm with you
Just stay,
I'll push your tears away
Just meet me halfway
And we don't have to talk
As long as you're on,
I'm with you

I'm singing all my songs to the wall
I don't think that it hears me at all
I'd do it, but I still hate phone calls
So why am I waiting for a ring, I'll 

Draw your attention
My way, with a Mention 
Today is a blessing
Don't stray from the present

I'm learning a new lesson every day
I finally think that I am okay

I've had
So much time to think
And now i know that
We're both still interlinked
I've set my phone down
Anxious for a few weeks
Thought I'd be thrown out
But now I've made my peace

So can you please just stay 
I'll push your tears away
Just meet me halfway
And we don't have to talk
As long as you're on,
I'm with you
Just stay,
I'll push your tears away
Just meet me halfway
And we don't have to talk
As long as you're on,
I'm with you


STAY (BONUS)

Hi friend!
I'm here to make it known That you 
Should go 
Take a look at your phone
I'm right here
Sitting outside your home 
And you're not
Pi-cking up
A N S W E R 

HI FRIEND!
Sorry for the outburst, I'm just
Waiting 
On our plans, as conversed
Where are you? 
This was your idea first
So get up and check your phone

YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA

So can you please just fucken
Answer my text
Come on and please just fucken
Answer my text

I'm tryna make some plans
And im tryna be fast
But You're Givin me all that sass

Can you please just fucken
Answer my text
Come on and please just fucken
Answer my text

And I'm not tryna Be rude
But this kinda sucks dude
So please forgive my attitude, woo!

(Pick up the fucken phone dude!)
Ba-da-da-da-da-da-doo!
(GYAT DAYUMN!) Woo!
Ba-da-da-da-da-da-doo!
(No cause i swear to God I made this entire thing while you WEREN'T ANSWERING THE PHONE COME ON-)

JUST ANSWER MY TEXT (YMCA PARODY)

Lovely daydreams
Kiss me awake while im hazy, id 
Die
Just to sway here with you
Tell me if im acting crazy

Hide away, turnin
Self Destructive and addicted its a problem
(A fucking problem)
T-T-Turn around and now I'm splitting on the spot-ot-ot-ot
(Stop)
And the prozac don't work no more
Blood and Reflections sitting out upon the-

Idyllic

Walk through that open door
Something I ain't ever seen before
And I died in my dreams again
Trying to save a person 
Who didn't care
Or was just unaware
Of making their own judgements on a book without a cover, so it's fair
So lay me in the garden, and I'll sink through
Yeah I'll sink through

(Idyllic)

Hide away, turnin
Self Destructive and addicted its a problem
(A fucking problem)
T-T-Turn around and now I'm splitting on the spot-ot-ot-ot
(Stop)
And the prozac don't work no more
Blood and Reflections sitting out upon the floor

I-i- I think im out of dopamine
I need another hit, so
So I'll scroll another hour
And i'll pray that that is it 
Im Stuck in a cycle
No the doctors can't fix me
I'm stuck Inside 30 frames 
And now im lagging out of the subject
How am I not dead

And i've been sitting with all of these fucking thoughts 
My stomachs all tied up in knots
I don't know what I did wrong

Hide away, turnin
Self Destructive and addicted its a problem
(A fucking problem)
T-T-Turn around and now I'm splitting on the spot-ot-ot-ot
(Stop)
And the prozac don't work no more
Blood and Reflections sitting out upon the floor

Hide away, turnin
Self Destructive and addicted its a problem
(A fucking problem)
T-T-Turn around and now I'm splitting on the spot-ot-ot-ot
(Stop)
And the prozac don't work no more
Blood and Reflections sitting out upon the floor
(Idyllic)

idyllic.

Wit the red beam (SKRRT)
Got a Lotta men in me
And im suckin on his shi like a machine
I'mma bounce n cream 
and then I'll make him scream
But in the straight way, you get what I mean, cause

I'm a motherfucka with a gold star (Yessir)
Skrrtin up and Givin head while im in the car
He gon bust inside my mouth and then I make another bar
He's the biggest I ever had in my mouth by far

Imma throw it back (on god)
A real mothafuckers nutsack
Upstate new York got me in a rucksack
Check em off like scoreboard
And Who's the next that I attack
(It's your dad)

I'm a Bad Bitch Fumbler
A mumbler, these women make me
Humbler, I stumble on 
My words a bit so call it rough and tumble while I 
Triple platinum this shit 
And a hundred milli real quick
Thought I lost the theme but nah I'm still riding on his dick

Yuh, you can't tell me what to write
I got a fucken message, and im hard like stalagmite
I fucken Stayed up all night making sure this shit was tight
If imma drop a gay track it gon be some fi-

-Re, Settle debts like Wentworth
Got all my mothafucken bros a little concerned
LxstBxy swings all ways, confirmed
I got all the haters out here fucken circlejerk-ing

Praying for my downfall
I'm stroking on his dick cause he's the hardest of em all
Bitch shoot me a text i do not wanna fucken call,
Take you out the back and blow your load up on the wall, uh

Imma, motherfucker real shit
Thought that I was done but nah, I was just sick
Bars the only fucking thing that I ever spit
Mark my fucken words, LxstBxy don't quit

Now, this is just the beginning
I could stay here, rap this shit for 10 minutes
Got him mixing up my guts, like boy im tryna FUCK
Then I move on fast, stack cash, breadwinning

Shoutout to the baddiesWho just listen cause they want me
You do not see
I'm cookin at a degree
In the kitchen on a mission with your man
We're fucken on the counter so that I can rest my hand

I'm an animal, a mammal, and he's sucken on my danimals 
The real men stick to boys, cause we ain't fucken with camel toe
This bitch hit me up
She ask if I wanna fuck
I'm like "sorry bitch, step in line, I make men feel loved"

Now, yuh, we gon switch the flow up
Imma put this shit on tiktok and blow up
At least thats what I hope cause this shit is so dumb
But back to the song cause boy, I'm not done

Yuh, im at my house and all a sudden I hear a ring
The Pretty Boy that mixed my shit got me a ring
And I know, I just rhymed ring with ring, 
But wait tho
Bitch im boutta teach you definition of Homophone
So don't come at me with the "Lxst that's the same word tho"

Homophone is a noun, yuh 
Each are two words having the same pronunciation, but different meanings or spelling, im telling
I'm spitting fire from hell yeah

We're almost done so I gotta throw another bar in
This boy got me stroking, I'm all in
I fuck dudes

LxstBxy raps some gay stuff, gets a little lost along the way, then teaches you a grammar lesson

Open your eyes
Silence after lies, it's always
"It'll be alright"
And lines cover your thighs

So tell me, lonely girl
When did it all go wrong
Mother's in the kitchen again

So tell me, precious child
Sleeping away at dawn,
Do you not find yourself righteous 

So Go back
Where it all began 
Sitting on that couch, you'd swear youre Unable to stand

And while your 
Heart aches a little more, it's 
Not the same as
It was before, your
Eyes quake, and fill like the shore,
You'll drown in your own ocean

So tell me, lonely girl
When did it all go wrong
Mother's in the kitchen again

So tell me, precious child
Sleeping away at dawn,
Do you not find yourself righteous 

And ill Wonder why
hues inside your eyes
Fading away
You're fading away


So tell me, lonely girl
When did it all go wrong
Mother's in the kitchen again

So tell me, precious child
Sleeping away at dawn,
Do you not find yourself righteous


interlude

LxstBxy - https://beacons.ai/lxstbxy/
Sisu - https://linktr.ee/sisu.music

[Lyrics]
[LxstBxy]

(Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
And I'll let your blood mix with mine
Please don't go tonight
Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
I didn't think "A while" would die
So soon in my life)

Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
And I'll let your blood mix with mine
Please don't go tonight
Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
I didn't think "A while" would die
So soon in my life

And You don't need to say a word,
I can see in your eyes, you're hurt
(I can see that you're hurt)
And if i have to walk away sometimes, I
Don't want you to know
The things not shown
When you look at me so monotone

And I'll take the lies (I'll take the lies)
If it will slow the time (As long as it'll slow the time)
So sleep in my t-shirt (Just sleep in my shirt, okay?)
If it'll ease the hurt (As long as it'll-)

Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
And I'll let your blood mix with mine
Please don't go tonight
Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
I didn't think "A while" would die
So soon in my life

[Sisu]
When you tell me that you love me, pure ecstasy (woo)
Words over actions sweep me off my feet (yeah)
And I been busy stuntin’ know it's hard to believe
But could you believe, baby?
Could you believe, baby?
You know when you're gone, it gets hard to breath (brr)
Pick up the phone just to go right back to sleep (skrtt skrtt)
Got a meal in front of me but I don’t wanna eat
Chasing dreams, making money
Baby, you know how it be, yeah

Oh and I'll take the lies
If it’ll slow the time
So sleep in my t-shirt (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
If it’ll ease the hurt

[LxstBxy & Sisu]
Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
And I'll let your blood mix with mine
Please don't go tonight
Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
I didn't think "A while" would die
So soon in my life

[LxstBxy]
Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
And I'll let your blood mix with mine
Please don't go tonight
Holding you while im on the Bathroom tile
I didn't think "A while" would die
So soon in my life

Bathroom Tile, Pt.2 (Ft. Sisu)


So Baby stop,
Where you been?
I can tell that you ain't fucken with him
I'll admit, that shit gets under my skin 
When I'm at the top, he'll be looking up, Now listen

Baby don't say (don't say, don't say)
That i'm Too late (too late, too late)
And i "Shouldn't feel this way"
Some things don't change

Baby- think I lost my brain 
Go insane, yeah
If I cook it up
I'll still be a lame, yeah
Cruising in the six, 
And I'm flooring through the pain, yeah
Took another L, but it started with the fame yeah 
Yeah like a flame, a fucken shame that i-

Blame in my lane, and im sorry i didn't write back 
Lxst in the name, and I gotta lot to unpack
Playin stupid games till that shit finally bounced back
Posting on your main all about how I fumbled that


A stileto in my chest
"Fuck it, we ball" can't cover all of the mess, no
And I'm reading your texts,
Not the one that you wanted, 
Not the one that you wanted

So baby stop, (please stop)
I feel insane now ("You're insane, you're insane")
Understand you're fucken with my brain, how
Do I even get out cause im fucken tied down, 
I don't even wanna but im ruining my heart now,

Brain Go insane, yeah
If I cook it up
I'll still be a lame, yeah
Cruising in the six, 
And I'm flooring through the pain, yeah
Took another L, but it started with the fame yeah 
Yeah like a flame, a fucken shame that i-

Blame in my lane, and im sorry i didn't write back (whats the word?)
Lxst in the name, and I gotta lot to unpack (put you first)
Playin stupid games till that shit finally bounced back (yeah it hurts)
Posting on your main all about how I fumbled that

Im Feelin flawed, Somethings wrong
Seeking out mental harm
Healing comes in stages 
But what if I don't make it out
Got a lot of thoughts on my mind
And even more wasted time

Baby- think I lost my brain 
Go insane, yeah
If I cook it up
I'll still be a lame, yeah
Cruising in the six, 
And I'm flooring through the pain, yeah
Took another L, but it started with the fame yeah 
Yeah like a flame, a fucken shame that i-

Blame in my lane, and im sorry i didn't write back 
Lxst in the name, and I gotta lot to unpack
Playin stupid games till that shit finally bounced back
Posting on your main all about how I fumbled that

INSANE

(prod. alongthewalls)

(I say that's the problem
When you say you love me
But you love somebody else
Oh baby) 

I don't think that people feel me 
Don't think they should meet the real me
Tryna be this way so that
I make myself more unappealing 
I'm not the one you should wait on
Darling im a walking nightmare 
Battling my demons 
While you're focusing on fixing your hair 

Dreamy in the day,
But with night comes the rain,
We don't dance, we just sway
Girl oh please just stay away 

I know babe, i know. it's not fair
In the end I know
You do care 
But i know you'd rather 
Play With the curls all up in his hair 

I don't think that people feel me 
Don't think they should meet the real me
Tryna be this way so that
I make myself more unappealing 
I'm not the one you should wait on
Darling i'm a walking nightmare 
Battling my demons 
While you're focusing on fixing your hair 

She's dating both of us, 
You're my fuckin boyfriend in law,
Tryna push you to get
That its time to move the hell on 

Just do this for yourself
Take your feelings off the shelf 
Dust those old records off
And focus on your fuckin health 

I don't think that people feel me
Don't think they should meet the real me
Tryna be this way so that
I make myself more unappealing 
I'm not the one you should wait on
Darling i'm a walking nightmare 
Battling my demons 
While you're focusing on fixing your hair 

I'm so fuckin tired 
Even sleep won't help
Hey
Mr.Struggle
Workin on his mental health 

In the back with Headphones on 
Writing lyrics to this song
Writings an escape 
So I can pretend that nothing is wrong 

I don't think that people feel me
Don't think they should meet the real me
Tryna be this way so that
I make myself more unappealing 
I'm not the one you should wait on
Darling i'm a walking nightmare 
Battling my demons 
While you're focusing on fixing your hair 

In your world of dreams and corpses 
Where do I fit in? 
Girl
No more getting cozy 
Can I be less than your friend? 

In your world of dreams and corpses 
Where do I fit in? 
Girl
No more getting cozy 
Can I be less than your friend?

Love Somebody Else

[prod.noria]
I miss the cold winter
And the warmth you bought with it
I'd lay in the ice 
Just To see you for a minute
Permafrost on my heart 
These memories tastin tart
Snow fallin down
Black ice creepin all around 

Red lights on the Snow
Its best if im Alone 
Don't know where I'm going
I keep runnin from these homes 

With the cold you brought heat
My Heart keeps skippin beats
Melted then froze
Man I miss the Paris snow 

He was a boy 
With a broken smile
Tyna run 
From his mind 

He was a boy
With a broken smile
Tryna run
All this time 

Fell into the river 
Broke the ice on the top
Started feeling numb
But at least the pain'll stop 

Met a man with horns
Man I've done this all before
Ive Lived life too many times 
I cant even fucking cry 

He said "Oh so tortured soldier boy"
"You've got an old soul" I said
'Yeah, that's cause I 
Wanna die before im old'
Im tryna find a way so I can kill myself
Tired of lying about my fuckin mental health 

I miss the cold winter
And the warmth you bought with it
Id lay in the ice 
Just To see you for a minute
Permafrost on my heart 
These memories tastin tart
Snow fallin down
Black ice creepin all around 

He pretended that he heard
Then was gone without a word 
He left me all alone
On my knees in Paris Snow 

Frostbite in my veins
Silence driving me insane 
Sinking to the bottom 
All my struggles were in vain 

He was a boy 
With a broken smile
Tryna run
From his mind 

He was a boy 
With a broken smile
Tryna run
All this time 

I Saw the light at the end
Get covered with a shroud 
I Woke up in that bed 
Doctors all around 

Wondering what happened 
Why am I still here
Few friends by my side 
In their eyes, i saw fear
I got angry started shoutin
To the light I was so near
(They ) started cryin, said they love me
Why do they hold my life so dear 

Eyes like Frosted glass yeah
Running from my past
Hate filling the mirror
In this body I won't last 

Just a few days later 
Was out getting some air
I Met the man with horns
In his eyes a red glare 

He said "What you doing boy,
Tryna meet me so soon?"
Snowfall picked up speed
Fell to my knees and tried to plead 

Couldn't put the words together
In my mind was stormy weather 
Blood on the sleeves of my sweater
"Without me It'd all be better" 

"I was losing motivation
Lost the war and then the nation
I was less than nothing so i'd
Take a permanent vacation" 

Silence took the night air over
As I caught my breath 
The man with horns looked down
In his eyes I saw my death 

It Played out in my mind
Saw my friends and family cry
Knew I couldn't do that to them
Cant go and just fucking die 

The man with horns was gone
I knew I'd done things wrong
I'll get better, burn that letter
This won't take me long 

I'm not living for myself 
But for them i'll do my best
I'll enjoy that Paris Snow
Until my final fucking breath 

He was a boy 
With a broken smile
Tryna run 
From his mind.

He was a boy
With a broken smile
Tryna run
All this time

Paris Snow

(Back then, when I got home from work, you were always there waiting for me. And that was all I needed. Just you) 

(Lxst)

(But on that day, when I came back home, the only thing there was that pocket watch. That, and a small piece of paper that had just one word written across it: Farewell.) 

I'm fucked up
In my room
The lights al-ways
Are blue
Dying before im 20
So ill do this while I can
This ain't a cry for help 
Yeah thats just the fuckin plan 

I cant do this anymore 
Somethin drippin on the floor
Those ain't tears, its all blood
Can't cry blue anymore 

I'm holding hands with ghosts 
Your shadow haunts me the most 
Drown out the screams in the walls 
Chanting, callin, for my fall 

Im fucked up
In my room
The lights al-ways
Are blue
Dying before im 20
So ill do this while I can
This ain't a cry for help 
Yeah thats just the fuckin plan 

No more tears left to cry 
I wanna fuckin know why
Constant thoughts of suicide
Tearing through my god damn mind 

All these thoughts are too loud
These voices are starting to crowd 
Marking trails with blood stained ink
Happiness gone in a blink 

Of the eye, Cant even try 
To voice my opinions oh why
Do I stay oh so silent when 
My inner working's violent 

So please don't look me in my face
Where are my keys 
Must leave this place 
Don't wanna make a big mistake 
Don't wanna cut short my fuckin fate 

(I'm fucked up) 

I dont know where
God are you out there?
Can you hear my prayers?
Do you just sit and stare? 

I dont know where
God are you out there?
Can you hear my prayers?
Do you just sit and stare? 

100 in the rain
In a rear wheel drive
Somethings fucking with my brain
Whens the last i felt alive 

Blood clogs up the drain 
Porcelain gets stained
I'm so fucked up
I never felt the pain 

Im fucked up
In my room
The lights al-ways
Are blue 

Im fucked up
In my room
The lights al-ways
Are blue

Fucked Up

I'm so sorry you have to live in a body 
Runnin fingers through your hair even though it's knotty
I know I said nothing would happen to us shawty 
You said I was your Clyde and I called you my Bonnie 

But now im standing in the rain
Paradise dont feel the same 
Gods I don't know what to say
My hearts filling up with shame 

I'm the king without a crown 
My castle is Tumblin down
If I ever love again 
I'll do it with a frown


Running through that promenade 
Drinkin pink lemonade 
Paradise is on my mind 
Thinkin that its what we made 

Smoke in the night
Watch the stars rising high yeah 
I Wish I could join them
With you by my side 

Depression and obsession got me learning a new lesson
When it comes to my emotions thats the shit I be suppressing 

Focusing on my own business 
But im starting to feel listless 
My mind is starting to shatter
While my armors fuckin shattered 

Paradise with you x5

King of the crows,
I feel so low
Throw me to the wolves
They'll welcome me home 

The path to healing yeah
Thats the new mission
But im constantly 
Struggling with addiction 

Hide it from my friends
They can't see how it ends
I know where ill end up 
I cant make fuckin amends 

Pain on my mind
Please give me time
My paradise is lost 
So just let me rhyme


My lips are bleeding 
My hope is fleeting
Gods I wish we just
Did not end up meeting 

My soul burns beneath
My (Guardian) angel's asleep
I know I've fallen
No need to acknowledge 

I slash the blade 
And I drink away the pain
My eyes aren't the same
I Diminished that flame 

No one hears my words
Hollow like the birds
Paradise is sizzling now
Takin the easy way out

Paradise

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