Aren't You?

Act Like It

ya kno when u like someone but ur socially inept

Just Keep Talking

i hate this and am probably never going to finish it tbh, the recording's rly rough also like dont worry i know my vocals r shit lol

it was one of the first songs i wrote after my massive creative rut post-psych ward so it has a place in my heart, but idk why i just hate the song the lyrics feel too simplistic and i dont even rly have a vision for it. it would probably be better off as a poem if i knew how to format it right but i started this already so here it stands in all its shitty glory. anyway

lyrics:
guess you didnt want her
as bad as you thought you did
and they scream oh taunt her
but she's only just a kid

and i wish your friends would talk shit
yeah i wish they would so you could say 
"well actually she's pretty cool"

she's wearing a skirt
climb into a hearse
oh it's always a party anyway
and i want to say

that you loved me the best you could
going back to you i never would
but really i'm a fucking liar

yeah really i'm a fucking liar
i miss you and i want your desire
but love and sex they ain't intertwined
so i'll stay here while you stay on my mind

(so i'll stay here, so i'll stay here)
while you stay on my mind                    > x4

on my mind (unfinished)

more sad songs about how i feel like i have never felt love 
this ones specifically about not feeling love but then also not knowing if youve truly ever expressed love mixed in with the fact that being on 8 mgs of k pins in a psych ward is literally the fucking worst 🧚🏽‍♀️🧚🏽‍♀️🧚🏽‍♀️
i think im a bad person who shifts blame a LOT and i guess thats what im trying to get across with this song
its all inexcusable nonetheless

lyrics:
did you really mean it when u said you didn’t love me
cause it wasn’t an “anymore” no you said you didn’t at all 
it didn’t make much sense and i still don’t think i can comprehend
i could try to justify but really i don’t remember what was going on in my mind

inexcusable nonetheless

did it even hurt when i told you i wasn’t your friend
what i really wanted was resolve but i guess you’re at your wits end
and i can’t blame you, it’d be a shame if you blamed me
for everything that came right after i want to remember correctly 

the klonopin went into my mouth
sometimes in my right cheek 
only when i resisted 
but i guess you don’t need the details so intimately 
and when it was almost over i lay with you 
hoping for the times before 
when i was your girlfriend
and i hadn’t kissed that boy in the psych ward 

((the klonopin went into my mouth
sometimes in my right cheek 
they held me down until i took it silently  
and when it was almost over i lay there wallowing in my bed
but it wasn’t really mine give it a week and there’ll be someone new there)) 

inexcusable nonetheless 
inexcusable nonetheless 
inexcusable nonetheless 
and i don’t believe it’s just for me

lydia or something

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