Going through the stages of grief, one song at a time

Mortality

Compatible

LYRICS:
Verse 1
You don’t really think the way you say you do
You just wanted someone to see you — well, I do
Yeah, I see you, sighing from the start
A hurting heart, you pulled me close then kicked me out

Didn’t ask for this war, you just needed me to know
About the cracks you hide behind the things you won’t outgrow

⸻

Chorus

Microdosing mischief
Doing all that same old shit
You always warned me about

Microdosing mischief
Playing dumb just to get out
Burn the truth, then burn the house

Microdosing mischief
You became what you dismissed
What you taught me turned around

Microdosing mischief
Yeah, you knew it all along
But you still let yourself drown

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Verse 2
I see you — you finally showed your truth
I know it hurts, your demon’s words said more ‘bout you

Now time has come, you’re feeling numb to her
You can’t escape, that soul you hate
I watch your edges blur

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Chorus (repeat x2)

Microdosing Mischief

[Verse]
I didn’t see it I swear I didn’t
The truth walked in but I wasn’t looking
The walls were talking but I wasn’t hearing
Blindfold tight tied with my own ribbon

[Prechorus]
It’s just a glitch just a phase
The mirror’s wrong it’s a haze
The reaper, he’s here again 

[Chorus]
Step 1 denial I’m just fine
Step 1 denial the fault’s not mine
Step 1 denial I’ll be okay
If I say it if I say it every day

[Verse 2]
The clock stopped ticking or maybe it’s lying
The hands on my chest they’re not really crying
The cracks in the floor just part of the design
This house isn’t breaking it’s perfectly fine

[Prechorus]
It’s just a bump just a bend
I’ll fix it all when I pretend
That reaper, he’s here again 

[Chorus]
Step 1 denial I’m just fine
Step 1 denial the fault’s not mine
Step 1 denial I’ll be okay
If I say it if I say it every day

Stages of Grief

Stage 8

[Verse]
Beauty queen a very stellar scene
Lights shimmer like a cosmic dream
Her crown ain't gold it's made of fire
A glow that pulls you lifts you higher

[Prechorus]
She's a spark she's a blaze
Her world spins in a daze

[Chorus]
Beauty queen that beauty scene
Lighting up the in-between
Beauty queen, buts shes so unseen
Stealing hearts, that thief of a gene 
(Oh America)
(The hysteria)

[Verse 2]
She walks like a comet streaks the sky
Each step a whisper a silent cry
Her words they hum like neon strings
A melody that cuts and stings

[Prechorus]
She's the night she's the roar
A tempest you can't ignore

[Chorus]
Beauty queen that beauty scene
Lighting up the in-between
Beauty queen, buts shes so unseen
Stealing hearts, that thief of a gene 
(Oh America)
(The hysteria)

America

Won't You (Dance With Me)

Revisiting an old pop song I wrote at 17. Enjoy! 🎄❤️‍🔥✨

“Romantic superglue”
 
I saw you sitting in your car yesterday
And I know you looked right, at me
I was shocked, I guess I truly thought
I'd meant more to you than just a day
 
Oh baby, I know you're okay
And I'm just crazy
Thinkin about nobody, but you
And maybe, yeah I'm just being lazy
Trying to make it easy
And stick my love on you
Like romantic superglue
Hoo-hoo-hoo
Romantic superglue
Hoo-hoo-hoo
Yeah I'm sticking my love on you
Like romantic superglue
Hoo-hoo-hoo
 
I saw you walking your dog yesterday
I couldn't help but stare at you babe
I was shocked, I guess I truly thought
I'd be over you come this day
 
Oh baby, I know you're okay
And I'm just crazy
Thinkin about nobody, but you
And maybe, yeah I'm just being lazy
Trying to make it easy
And stick my love on you
Like romantic superglue
Hoo-hoo-hoo
Romantic superglue
Hoo-hoo-hoo
Yeah I'm sticking my love on you
Like romantic superglue
Hoo-hoo-hoo

Bridge:

Have you ever found yourself feeling out of place? In a room of strangers with exquisite taste. The heart beat of a presenter with his strongest face. 

Have you ever felt uncomfortable stares in a public space? All the anxiety feels like such a waste. Where unfamiliar faces feel out of line. What if everyone was staring at you everywhere, all the time? 

(Repeat chorus x2)

Romantic Superglue

Based off of an old track “Voyager” that I produced 🖤✨

“I’m thinkin — yeah winkin — the more I think I want to see
That you just, and you must, just take what,  you can get from me (see) 
But it’s just (oh it’s the) 
the stuff you gotta do, in life you see,
A bargain, a carbon, 
I guess it’s essential for life — baby.

(Chorus) 
You’re the youngest you’ll ever be but the oldest you’ve ever been,
Life is so difficult it seems so hard to win 
I don’t know if I could go on without you 
Acceptance, it’s just too good to be true
They say it’s stage 3, I say it’s stage nine,
Between me and you, I’m so done with life, 
I gotta make this mine, I can’t continue to whine
I know you don’t want this, you should be in your prime, 

Oh reaper, can you just tell me why? 
Why you gotta do this, and make me cry?
It can’t be true. You know exactly who
You took too soon, what oh what do I do? 
What do I do? (What do I do)
You took too soon, couldn’t wait till noon 
You took too soon, what oh what did they do?
I can’t help with this one, I need a moment of new.

(Verse 2)
Reaper, you’re a realer one than I think I’ve met, I think I’ve met a real nun
I know you’re hearts in the right place,
You can’t think twice, in this deathly race

But reaper, please just wait a little while
I’m only asking in a lonely (pathetic) form of denial 
Oh reaper, when can we meet again?
Am I super depressed or upset you’re here again? (Again) 

(Bridge)
I love all that you do
I appreciate you
I know it’s for a reason, reaper (yes I do)
Take me over to the other side
But not until I can really decide (on the ride)

(Chorus x2)

Bargaining

Voyager

There's a short wait before the track starts that needs fixing, sadly. My apologies...

Hollywood Lights V.2

Hello! This is the instrumentals for an album of my songs I hope to complete by the end of this year or the next. There are MANY things, on a multitude of these tracks, that I plan to tweak/fix/change. The timings for some of the loops are off, and there are some sounds I'm not the happiest with quite yet. I wrote and produced alot of these tracks throughout 2011, 2012, and 2013. My journey through singing, songwriting and music production started when I was 14 years old. Thank you in advance for listening to my music and if you even took the time to read this :) 

I may be "shy"...
But... that didn't prevent me from the incredible blessing of having the chance to work and meet with so many both genuine and talented artists. Their wisdom continued to inspire and teach me something special: I learned to foster and thrive within my personal creativity as an artist. And that was something beautiful, and of course, unforgettable.
The production for "Shy" was done by Troy Samson, with vocals sung by Kirsten Collins and Joe Givens. Sadly, I only participated in the songwriting aspect, due to having laryngitis at the time and being unable to sing. 
Thank you to everyone I got the chance to work with on this, it was a wonderful experience!

Shy (Sung by Kirsten Collins and Joe Givens, produced by Troy Samson) (demo)

Grief (PREVIEW)

Christina Lynn Bearchell
e: christinabearchell@gmail.com
Hobby: creating hooks 🎵

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