a snap shot of my drug addicted life alone and unloved from the day I was born.

a story of hurt, addiction, and a happy ending due to fate....getting my first love from when I was a teenager back 25 years later....finally happy....

life has been a struggle I wrote this song to get my feeling out....I hope you enjoy it 

thanks for listening 

unloved to loved.mp3

we found out I was pregnant and the happiness we felt was unreal, 

then at 12 weeks I went for a scan to be told the heart beat  had stopped and the baby had died inside me.

2 days later at the hospital I had to get it confirmed, and was told my placenta was cancerous and that I was having a partial molar pregnancy, 

I had to have an operation to have our baby (who my step daughter had named monster due to the sounds my belly made while pregnant) removed aswell as the placenta which was cancerous.

as molar pregnancy is rare 1 in a 1000 women can have one....my care was taken over by charings cross specialists, they tested the baby and placenta and on 8th april 2025 we finally managed to have our baby 'monster' cremated...it's broken me and I can't get over it....it's cruel...back with my first teenage love after 25 years, pregnant by him what I always wanted then boom....

you never get over a loss of a child, on the same day we also spread the ashes of my step daughters miscarriage, her first pregnancy...heart breaking is not even close to how we all felt....

RIP monster and Frankie (my step daughters baby) fly high angels....we love you ❤️🩷💙

Joy to Loss A Mothers Journey.mp3.m4a

a song for our baby who we sadly lost...heartbeat stopped at 12 weeks and I also had cancer....RIP baby monster 🩷💙🩷💙🩷💙

Fly High Our Angel.mp3.m4a

love is precious....I made the mistake 25 years ago not telling my man I loved him so he never knew until a year ago and now a year on we back together happier than ever and I've loved him since bein a teenager and love him more now fate brought us back together....a love that was meant to be 💯❤️

jimi and lynsey.mp3.m4a

song about my mental health, I suffer from ADHD, PTSD, BI POLAR, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY just to make a few and I'm waiting on another appointment to get diagnosed with what ever is wrong with me,  

I feel for any one that goes through mental health is no joke and I know how hard life is daily



mentally broken remake.mp3.m4a

mentally broken rap version.mp3.m4a

this is my song about my daily struggle with mental health it's written by me but obvs not sung by me, 

everyday is hard when you suffer mental health and sometimes it feels as though no one cares but don't give up 💯❤️

mentally broken soft version.mp3.m4a

this is a song about my addicted life journey,  it's only one of many to come,  i wrote this tonight while not being able to sleep, my mental health isn't great tonight and my thoughts are a million miles an hour,

my wish as a kid was to have a family that loved me and wanted me but I found a family in other addicts or so I thought

it's only when your clean and look back on your life you realise you were totally alone in a world of lies,  decite, running with unloyal and untrustworthy people who just used you.

my life has been fucked since I was born and I'm sure when you hear my future songs you'll understand the real me,  the real lynsey.

much love and Thanks for listening ❤️

Fuck You Drugs.mp3.m4a

I met the love of my life when I was about 14 but never told him I loved him...I'm now 42 and weve been back together a year never thought I'd be living in Wales with the love you of my life happy at last

Forever in Love.mp3

Forever in Love (1).mp3

I spent most of my life battling addiction, losing everything and everyone,  I'm now well in to recovery and finally living! I've written this song (not sang it) here's the lyrics....


[Verse 1]
I remember nights lost in a cloud of smoke,  
Chasing a high, just a cruel old joke.  
Fragments of life faded with every dose,  
But I rose from the ashes, now I’m comatose no more.

Got my strength back, learned to stand tall,  
A life rebuilt after I took the fall.

[Chorus]
Drugs took my soul, but I’m back on my grind,  
Found love in the light, left the darkness behind.  
Every step I take, yeah, I'm living my truth,  
This life’s a celebration, my spirit’s the proof.

[Verse 2]
Friends turned ghosts as I spiraled down tight,  
Family waving goodbye, they lost all their fight.  
But I’m thriving, I’m shining; I’ve learned to be free,  
Life’s a beautiful journey and I hold the key.

Trust in myself, it’s a brand new day,  
No more shadows, I'm paving my way.

[Chorus]
Drugs took my soul, but I’m back on my grind,  
Found love in the light, left the darkness behind.  
Every step I take, yeah, I'm living my truth,  
This life’s a celebration, my spirit’s the proof.

[Outro]
So here’s to recovery, I’m finally free,  
Life's on the up, it’s just me being me.

Rising From The Ashes part 1 (1).mp3

anyone following me knows I've battled with addiction and now finally recovering and doing well....I've written these lyrics but it's not my voice....

lyrics 

[Verse 1]
I woke up in a nightmare, lost and broken,  
Chasing shadows, every promise left unspoken.  
Faded dreams and friends turned into ghosts,  
But now I’m rising, finding strength in the most.

The chains are gone, I’m free at last,  
Leaving behind the haunting past.

[Chorus]
Drugs can break, they tear apart,  
But I’ve rebuilt, I’ve got a new start.  
Now I’m soaring, feeling so alive,  
In this journey, I’m learning to thrive.

[Verse 2]
Once a prisoner, I paid the toll,  
But this heart's healing, reclaiming my soul.  
No more dark days, I see the light,  
Life's a runway, and I'm ready for flight.

Count my blessings, feel the shine,  
Every moment, this life is mine.

[Chorus]
Drugs can break, they tear apart,  
But I’ve rebuilt, I’ve got a new start.  
Now I’m soaring, feeling so alive,  
In this journey, I’m learning to thrive.

[Outro]
From shadows to sunlight, I stand so tall,  
I’ve found my strength, I’ve conquered it all.

prisoner to drugs.mp3

this is a song for anyone who's lost a child.... or babys heart beat stopped and we found out at 12 weeks it was a partial molar pregnancy and my placenta was cancerous so had to have the heart breaking surgery to remove our baby and the cancer... no one should ever have to go through this pain....

lyrics

[Verse 1]
In the silence of the night, I find your light,

A whisper in my heart, holding on tight.

Though our time was brief, your spirit’s near,

Every tear I shed transforms into a prayer.

[Bridge]
With every star that shines, I hear your name,

In the warmth of my soul, you’re still my flame.

[Chorus]
Till we meet again, oh my little one,

In the skies, I’ll find you, shining like the sun.

Though our moments were few, your love remains,

In the echoes of my heart, you’ll leave your stains.

[Verse 2]
Memories we’ll cherish, though you’re not here,

I’ll carry you with me, through every fear.

You taught me strength, in the darkest pain,

With love that’s everlasting, this bond won’t wane.

[Bridge]
You’re a part of my heart, forever will be,

In every dream at night, you’re here with me.

[Chorus]
Till we meet again, oh my little one,

In the skies, I’ll find you, shining like the sun.

Though our moments were few, your love remains,

In the echoes of my heart, you’ll leave your stains.

[Outro]
Till we meet again, my sweet child,

You’re forever loved, forever wild.

till we meet again my angel.mp3

I have had a tough life, full of all sorts of drama, addiction, crime, heartbreak, loss, etc etc...i wanty to help others thats been through alot. i suffer mental health issues due to my past...hope you enjoy my songs, my songs are written by me from the heart but obviously sung by others...(luckily...dont wanna try singing them myself as i doubt many people would appriciate my singing lol)

Lyns - Lynsey Ather

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