An ep to show off my unhealthy sources that i have did in the past. Now I'm heading to my healthy sources so i can be living life peacefully.

Lyrics:
But now I wanna start it all over.
I wanna now start by taking care of myself.
I wanna now start setting benefits and boundaries for myself.
I wanna now start being off of social media
I wanna now change my habits.
I wanna now change my emotions and manage them.
I wanna now set my mind free from anything thats representing bad stuff.
I wanna be involved in healthy expressions.
I wanna stay away from watching satisfaction.
I wanna start by discomforting myself just to not stay comfortable.
I wanna start by not having unrealistic expectations and staying out of my mind, dreaming that they can be the one for me.
No, they can’t if i think about them too much that it can lead to unrealistic things that makes my love feel fake.
It’s time to stay alone, build connections with someone.
And time to stay controlled by yourself.
And build connections with a higher power and that’s Yahweh.
He knows what, He knows.
So we all have to climb out of our hole.
We all have to climb out.
But we have to learn how to stay focused and stay healthy.
So we will be able to defeat those things.
There’s a way in and a way out, the way’s out is harder but we're gonna push farther.
So if you addicted also, good luck to you.
Because we all can do it.
Amen.

NEW BEGINNINGS F0R ME (prod. StoneSoWavy!)

An ep to show off my unhealthy sources that i have did in the past. Now I'm heading to my healthy sources so i can be living life peacefully.

Lyrics:
I remember the first time i got it off.
It was very dark, alone.
I was feeling lonely, up at 3 am or something.
I started to look at these things that made me feel some type of way.
I thought about them every second.
And after that, I got it off.
And every since then, I’ve been doing it over and over.
I knew it was affecting me at once but I ignored the way it was affecting me.
I keep doing it, over, and over, no hesitation.
No train of thought, it was very disgusting of me.
Always having my unrealistic expectations to someone i do not know but have feelings for them.
I keep thinking in my head “She wants me, she wants me, she really do”.
But that shit is fucking fake.
How can i be catching feelings for someone when those feelings aren’t even real in the first place?
It was the stimulation i was doing, it was the satisfaction i was watching.
I tried everyday just to fight it off, but it’s struggling to do.
I tried, i tried, i fucking tried. But i couldnt.
It has ruined my fucking life, my reputation, my relationships with people.
It really has.
I tried but i’m on social media seeing all these naked people, half-naked people.
Showing off their bodies and all of that and its turning me on, making me feel aroused every day.
Its too hard to be in discomfort when your addiction is in the way.
And it’s making you be comfortable every single day.
I let things come and eat my heart out and i turn it all into a porn addiction.
I didnt have no benefits, i didnt set any boundaries.
I didnt set any of that, i did the deed, whacked it off and did it everyday just to feel good about myself.
Why? Because anything i see on social media encourages me to do that type of shit.
And it’s also MY fault because I watched them, i seen them, i thought of those things sexually.
I looked at people in a sexual way, EVERY single day.
From looking at their bodies, looking at the genitals.
All that stuff, and it’s making me feel aroused by doing that.
So everytime i go home, i thought about those bodies and i would continually whack it off.
That’s when i realized I have a problem, and i realized it’s my fault.
But it’s also pornography’s fault.
If anything, pornography wouldn't ever be in my life if I didnt do all those things that made me unhealthy.
It shouldn’t’ve been never taught me into doing things like that.
From fucking my animals to jacking off.
It’s insane, dude.
I’m always doing weird things by staring at people for no reason.
Because my mind is doing shit well.
From middle school to high school, EXTRA BAD.

NEW BEGINNINGS F0R ME (prod. StoneSoWavy!)

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