dont know if ill ever see you again
but if i do i hope we'll be friends
its not that hard to be upset
cuz i walked away from the friendship we had
is losing u usually this hard?
i cant get this pain out of my heart
cuz all that i want is to confess
but i run out of breath
before i start
and usually im crying
not smiling
or laughing
but u used to be right there
with your arms crossed
i was happy 
and its been like a year since i last tried
to whisper any word more than a hi
or bye, sometimes i lie awake at night
and cry and contemplate our time
i dont know how to say goodbye
i ignored you when i should have tried
the first time to the last one
i just wish i could have said
every word inside my head
every thought that sprouted up
and i knew that this shit was tough
should have seen that u meant that stuff
but regret wont be enough
im so sorry for messing up
i spent 4 whole years just growing up
i still dont know if that was love

the clouds are

i feel like i could sprout a pair of wings 
and fly its so embarrassing 
i cry and laugh at everything
but im too scared to speak

so ill stay quiet wait for you to say
the things that ive been too afraid
to let out of my stupid brain
but u see right thru me

i missed you more words express
it punched a hole into my chest
i still remember when u left
i cried all night till i could sleep

so just imagine my surprise
when we took back all our goodbyes
i pinch my skin and rub my eyes
i cant believe its not dream

scaredy cat

@pyu
@1luvpurp

you could give me one more kiss
i feel like a piece of shit
i wish i didn’t exist
i would touch your fingertips
hold them til my body slips
hold you til i wanna live
hold you till you’re gone again
i wish i was really fine
i wish i could go a day and night without missing your eyes
i wish i could show you that there’s still light on the other side
i wish i could fall into your lies and trust you every time

i wish you would leave me alone
never make me feel at home
i miss being something whole
i wish i could be a ghost
never missed me anyways, i try but i still feel so dull
i wish i could, i wish i could be a ghost
but i guess thats typical
i feel so invisible
i mistook a broken heart for you being invincible
we’re back at the part again where i’m bit by the winter cold
we’re back at the start again but this time my heart isn’t yours

until ur gone prod meta & luvpurp

@DIEGOINTHEDARK

i could neva switch up on my brothers
   three tries 
   n u missed such a bummer 
   imma up the 30 make u foxtrot
   wanted lean bru
   the doctor gave u cough drops 

   n i dnt wna sleep 
   cuz sleep is for the weak 
   i want molly n my tea
   i want u right next to me 
   finna buy my bitch a bag 
   if it makes her happy 
   huh yea
   skinny prince but my jeans r baggy


   roses n my magazine 
   shawty r u mad at me 
   drag his body thru the mud 
   i saw U inside my dream5zz
   ima trooper bitch 
   emo shooter make my wrist bleed
   ukno all my bands blue
   n my shawty hair pink

   ok bro show a band 
   we all kno ur pockets hurt 
   bitch i got it out the mud 
   n the snow && the dirt 
   i got shooters n the west n the east 
   n the south 
   i just broke a gel tab 
   she gone put it n her mouth

bAGGY jEANZ @DIEGOINTHEDARK PROD DIEGOINTHEDARK

prod @guda feat @diegointhedark

yea u like me but i despise u
i still own u even if were done
im just tryna run but i cant go
trippin off an oxy i cant move
im sorry but i had 2 switch it up 
small waist t shirt 16 lines
girl yk i love that coke n that blo
ive been tryna get it but ive been so lo
whats right 4 me yk
im drownin in my lows
it seems u do not care
i kno wuts right 4 me
x2 

i dont rlly wanna stop for nun 
so just let me switxch it up now
i just wanna raise a kid
i just wanna get old
i think im built for ts n imma make it
i dont wanna lose i dont een wanna die yet
tell me does it get easier when i get older

new jeans 
2 beans make me happy 
all these pussys talking shit 
but never @ me
carve my face off my head 
imma sell it off 
popping laced clonazepam
i kno tht its wrong 

ur bitch bumps my songs 
how does tht feel 
i wear cleats 
n my shawty rocking high heels
steel bars for bones 
iron maiden 
trapping off my flip phone 
cuts on my arms fading

whts wrong idkk
i was stepping through the mud 
now i walk on marble floors
lil shawty wna fuck 
ima hit , bcome a ghost 
ima step in through the front 
brudda kick n the backdoor 

all they wna do is talk 
i jst wna b alone 
i could never punch a clock 
iv been juggin on my own
whn i looked into urr eyes 
it jst made me feel lifeless 
ive been down
hope u kno tht im trying

low @diegointhedark

prod @kggn @ginsengxx

leave me alone
just like everyone else does
i cant feel my bones
i dont really care if i overdose

i dont feel home
wanna throw up its too much
but i cant go
ill look half dead when i show up

i dont wanna grow up
i just wanna die you keep me alive
i dont wanna fly home
really fucking hate saying goodbye

really dont hate me
i was sure i saw it in your eyes
really cant blame you
sorry im so hard to trust

ill let myself out
dont try to help me
want to erase you
want to erase me
cant se my feelings
nothing has meaning
love to stop breathing
high on the ceiling

push ill stop pulling
im gone im going
im always lower
theres nothing growing
whats wrong with knowing
but when the phone rings
and i see ur name
everythings glowing

half dead prod. kuru & ginseng

look on the brightside (shrinemaiden)

prod me art by me
@3six03six03six0


lyrics:
coulda said i tried but thats a lie
wanna open up but its a lot
and it just hurts when ur not on my mind
and I wanna help but it just takes some time
can we try again just one more time
at the end of the day I wanna make u mine
cuz I lose my shit when u just say ur fine
I know I'm never gonna make it right

I cant let you go and ruin ur life
you're so special
tell me when the flag is white
feels so dirty 
tell me where u go when it gets night
are you ready for the time of ur life 
x2


made march 8th

white flag

GOODBYE..(@michaelharrison_)

A collection of original songs by Ian Segal-Gould, also know as Yan Meen, Ian Bean, and Dead Birds. This is the debut EP for Dead Birds, focused on the feelings Fall evoked for me, while creating these songs. 

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i did not play any of the guitars

the clouds are

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