prod @harui
rec preset, improvised melody etc, just a demo
i may make a new account or something, dunno, some days i feel like i can live and some are like i'm already dead but i could finally bring myself to write and sing again
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whats the point of having a voice
when you feel you don’t have a choice
when you want to find new words to say

i just wanna be free
(slight pitch error my bad..) let go of every single thing
but when i look inside
the future seems so dim

i’ve dreamed to change the world
on every single birthday
blowing out my candles
knowing i can’t intervene

when i closed my eyes
i wished and dreamed
a world, one sweet as cream

i’ll never save myself, i know this much is true

the heights i reached, when i look down, the depths i could fall to
there’s nowhere safe
but if i may,
there’s something lovely 
‘bout the way
i ask myself, what did i do, i tried to be good, but it all fell through
i wished to make up for mistakes i made by being born
each breath i held, so afraid to waste another word
in this world, do i belong? don’t think i’ll ever feel so
the “selfless” act, its selfish that, i can’t feel real if no one knows
i want to be an angel high, to save or just to run away?

i seek forgiveness, hoping it shows
i never wished to be like this
if you all love me still, as flawed as i am, then i know for sure
i’m not the only one who can be
i still feel like i’m nobody even if you disagree
but i know that that just means we’re all deserving to be seen
deserving to be—

i know these moments disappear but while they’re here please stay!
i wonder, somewhere in the world, does someone hear my voice?
their heart, their mind, a low hummed tune, it drowning out the noise..?
if you still hear me, i hear you, humans all that we can be
even aching in my chest
i’m glad you’re here 
may we be free

may we be free

untitled (demo) (prod. @harui)

@selfloved
you're the one, I'm so obsessed with,
i can't tell you what I want, all these discord messages
i'm trying to save my love, and I want you to give a fuck,
i'm not such a specialist, baby, I can't tell you now that I want you.
baby, you're the one, it is so true,
i don't care about anything else when I'm with you.

swag in my walk, obsessions are in my head,
thinkin' 'bout your touch, got me feeling so possessed,
everything I ever wanted, girl, you more, never less,
baby, you know I'm so fucking obsessed,
you know that I'm so obsessed,
i message you on every chat,
it's okay, 'cause you're my obsession,
don't wanna ask where you've been…

you're the one, I'm so obsessed with,
i can't tell you what I want, all these discord messages
i'm trying to save my love, and I want you to give a fuck,
i'm not such a specialist, baby, I can't tell you now that I want you.
baby, you're the one, it is so true,
i don't care about anything else when I'm with you.

obsessed and weird

beautifully made composition is all thanks to @elujjin everyone say thank you elujjin for making the song 100x better!
it will release on plats within the next few days :D please stream it and share with your friends! ^_^ 
https://open.spotify.com/track/1JDTbZvm4fp8GI8jcjPM17
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Baby, why you lying
Why you playin' in my face

You go playin' with my feelings
Then I pull myself away

Tell me, is it all in my head
Tell me what did I do wrong

Maybe at the very least 
Could I get a heads up

When's it my turn 
To be selfish

When's it my turn 
To be selfish

Baby, why you lying
Why you playin' in my face

You go playin with my feelings
then i pull myself away


i don’t need to worry ‘bout the future 
i know that its nothing to you
i can think about right now and make a song 
its nothing new

you know its true
you fucking do
playing dumb like you don’t know it hurts
like you don’t got a clue

whats the point of saying it to your face
when you make me sick
you only make me wa-aste

waste my time on lies
on jokes.. its fine
i need someone to stay here 
to call my line
to call my li-ine

“you seem upset?”
sorry i cant hide it
sorry that i’m like this
jealousy’s a sickness
gets inside my skin

its insidious 
like an idiot, 
i sit and wait
as if you would give me a kiss

i know i’m secondary
in your life, i know its true
id write your obituary
would you write one for me too

i know i’m not dead yet
i promise one day soon though
you will finally get to know 
what it’s like, to be alone


if i kill myself maybe everyone would remember who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was

if i kill myself maybe everyone would remember
who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was

see me as who i could have been if i never loved anyone. 

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
you can do the common courtesy and then get to move on
you can act and play the part so you can still feel go—od
you can do whatever that you think you fucking sho—uld

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
you can do the common courtesy and then get to move on
you can go and play the part so you can still feel go—od
you can do whatever that you think you fucking sho—uld

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
there is no forgiveness, why am i even making this song?
you can act and play the part so you can still feel go—od
you can do whatever that you think you fucking sho—uld

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
there is no forgiveness, why am i even making this song?
bound to make hist’ry repeat itself, rewriting the same hook
you can do whatever, except think ‘bout if you sho—uld!

whatever you want. (symphony) (prod. Elujjin)

prod @g0re4ngel
mix & master @g0re4ngel 

(lyrics)

@g0re4ngel
omg like bbg no u dont rlly want me
ima fucking bite ur neck and turn u 2 a zombie
i got all the drugz when we pu to the party
at the party ya im looking lovely
omg like bbg no u dont rlly want me
ima fucking bite ur neck and turn u 2 a zombie
i got all the drugz when we pu to the party
at the party ya im looking lovely

snort the molly ya off my phone
when ur with him ya im all alone
put it in my system come and fw me
cant wait til i die cant wait til i bleed
bleed bleed cant wait til i bleed
bleed bleed girl u dont want me
me me no u dont want me
me me ohh

@deadmallangels 
ima bite ur fucking neck and turn u into a vampire 
i know i said some things but babygurl ya it was satire 
stab me like a flat tire
she’s so high but im so higher
throw me on the wall rip my heart out with a pair of pliers 
and i’m never getting tired 
it’s your love that i desire 
stripes on me just like a tiger 
smokin on that carbon fiber 
n everytime she looks into my eyes i swear she gets me higher 
i swear she gets me higher

bite ur neck X_x @g0re4ngel

feeling like a hamster rolling in my ball ^-^
@prodpawl4k (Spotify at midnight as always)

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##BURNMYLUNGS (p.hushinsilence)

prod. (all we left unsaid)
lyrics: 0_0

baby i just want u to believe 
I don’t know why you don’t have no faith in me
i wanna hold you tight dont ever leave 
do what u fucking want do as you please
do what u fucking wanna doooo
(what u wanna do)
as long as it’s just me and youuu
(just me and you)
as long as it’s just me and youuuu

i hate all ur fucking friends,
when will it all fucking end?
they talk too much, but you never say a thing,
you break my heart, for u the world it spins, 
guess ill firm the pain if it means that you’ll win,
do what u fucking wanna do
(what u wanna do)
as long as it’s just me and you
(me and you)
as long as it’s just me and you

do what u wanna do .-.

@everettlatte

and i remember when we promised forever to eachother
i remember those nights in summer
when we were bothing fighting over the covers
do you remember all the walks that we took
do you remember the lake that we went to on my birthday
do you remember all the flowers that you told me tou loved
remember all the times that i put you first
you ignore me like im nothing but dirt
now you have me looking so damn stupid
writing these songs with hopes that are useless
i cant bear to do this
sad what i call existence its fruitless
girls n guys n in my phone but ion want them i want u
but that doesnt seem to bother you moved onto somethin new
lovin you the only thing i knew how to do
now all i have is drugs in my room
and i been doin em tryna forget what we were
pass out when i wake up all i feel is hurt
the shit im mixin it should kill me but im not dead
peace is too sweet a release for a soul like mine
as i look into the sky
and i ask creator why
i never asked for existence im asking to die
every song that ive made has been apart to a suicide note no ones cared about
its been a long time coming all that i ask is that you spread my ash
my soul has no more fight and it scares me
war within myself and its scary

spread my ash (everett latte)

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