This is the third opening song to the anime Yu-Gi-Oh! 5D's, pitched up a whole step to better suit my range. There are a few mispronounced syllables in the Japanese, but overall I did pretty good I think. :D Enjoy!

Freedom by La-Vie (cover)

I thought this song would song good as a slowed-down, epic, orchestral cover... so here we are! All the sounds in this one are from a MIDI keyboard except for my voice and a bit of clarinet~

I hope my Korean pronunciation is passable! I had a lot of fun singing this song and I am so grateful to ONEUS for getting me motivated enough to finally finish a project again! Hope you all enjoy~

Here's a link to the lyrics (with English translation): https://colorcodedlyrics.com/2020/08/oneus-to-be-or-not-to-be

To Be Or Not To Be by ONEUS (cover)

Back again already with another ONEUS cover! For this one, I really liked the beat of the original, so I just tried to recreate the instrumental, and I learned a lot just from doing that! Then I figured, since I have an instrumental I may as well post a cover, so here we are~

Intro: Time by ONEUS (cover)

So, I got a request to make a "full" version of this song (since the original is just an intro song), and I just couldn't turn down the challenge! And I'm glad I didn't because it's been SO fun making this song.

First of course, I had to make an English version, because I'd be writing new lyrics for the full song, and I definitely cannot write Korean lyrics lol. So I looked up a couple different translations (linked below), and also used a little Google translate, and came up with English lyrics! And then I was able to write a second verse, and compose a bridge.

Anyone is free to use my lyrics, if you would just link back to my cover if you do so I'd appreciate it. Thank you and I hope you all enjoy! :D

Translations: 
- https://www.musixmatch.com/lyrics/ONEUS/Intro-Time/translation/english
- https://lyricstranslate.com/en/intro-time-intro-time.html

Lyrics:

Time has stopped for you and I
Like a light that doesn’t shine

Memories fading slowly
Sunrise on a cold grey sky again
Holding onto things I don’t want to forget

Baby I still smell you on my bed sheets
Night after lonely night when I can’t sleep
I want you I want you I want you here with me
Without you it’s the same thing every day

Endless circles, fade to nothing, still I see your face

The time is gone
All our memories keep burning
Burning burning burning burning out
The time is up
When I close my eyes I see
You nowhere nowhere nowhere but
In my dreams
(x2)

Used to watch the hours slip by with you
Day after day, thought we’d see it all the way through
Now the hourglass sand slips through my hands (everything ends) and I gotta close my eyes just to see you

Oh I wish I could rewind
To all the sunny days that you were mine
To rose-colored lenses locked away in time

Don’t know how we fell apart (can’t we try it from the start?)
Now we’re lost among the stars (you’re still written on my heart)

Endless circles, fade to nothing, still I see your face

The time is gone
All our memories keep burning
Burning burning burning burning out
The time is up
When I close my eyes I see
You nowhere nowhere nowhere but
In my dreams

Nowhere (x4)
Time has stopped for you and I 
 (all our memories)
Like a light that doesn't shine 
 (I want you I want you I want you here with me, without you it's the same thing everyday)
Don't know how we fell apart
 (when I close my eyes I see)
Endless circles, fade to nothing, still I see your face 
 (Now the hourglass sand slips through my hands, and I gotta close my eyes just to see you)

The time is gone
All our memories keep burning
Burning burning burning burning out
The time is up
When I close my eyes I see
You nowhere nowhere nowhere but
In my dreams
(x2)

Intro: Time by ONEUS (full version) (English cover)

This is an a cappella cover of Panic! at the Disco's "The End of All Things" from their most recent album, "Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die".

This is the first cover I've posted in which I used my new microphone, which is awesome! And also this is the first one in which I used GarageBand instead of Audacity, which is also awesome!

Enjoy! :D

The End Of All Things (a cappella cover)

This is a cover of the song "King" by Lauren Aquilina. I've been meaning to post a cover of this for a while, because this song is really important to me, and has helped save me from some pretty dark places over the past year.

I played the piano part, put it into GarageBand, then added my vocals on top! Enjoy! :D

King by Lauren Aquilina (cover)

An extended version of the track Psyqualia from the soundtrack of Cardfight!! Vanguard.

Psyqualia (extended)

Hey guys, this is a SUPER ROUGH piano cover of Fall Out Boy's new song Centuries, sorry for all the mistakes and shit. :D

EDIT (10/8/14): HOLY SHIT i didn't expect this to be so popular! I already hit SoundCloud's download limit! Sooooo here's a Mediafire download link: http://www.mediafire.com/listen/1zl88n7gc5r66tp/Centuries_-_10414,_8.31_PM.mp3

Centuries by Fall Out Boy (rough cover)

Another rough cover, sorry, but yeah this is Nicotine by Panic! At The Disco!

Nicotine by Panic! At The Disco (rough cover)

Same as the other version, but this time I kept the original piano sound instead of converting the MIDI to guitar. :D

Moths by Halyse (cover - piano version)

Another cover of another wonderful song by Halyse! (who you can find on YouTube HERE: www.youtube.com/user/xvi2193 OR on SoundCloud HERE: @halyse)

Ends In Rain by Halyse (cover)

🌺 To anyone who has ever felt hopeless and overwhelmed and let down by the world: this song is for you. For anyone who has ever felt that life isn’t worth living, I’m here to tell you it is. Even when you seem to have nothing, in time and with an open mind you will eventually see the truth: you already have everything you need inside you. Come take your place in the world—it’s waiting for you. 

🌺 To the person who inspired this song: thank you for being you. I’m so glad you’re still here—the world is a brighter place with you in it. 

🌺 To everyone who I’ve met over the last year: thank you for all the support and love. I’m so happy to make music with such passionate artists, and I’m so grateful to have become part of such a warm and loving community. 

🌺 To the lovely people who have offered to help me record: I’m so grateful for you and still interested! But I did this one all by myself, not because I think it is better this way, but because I needed to. I’ve spent far too long weighing myself down with thoughts of what I can’t do—this is my proof to myself that I CAN do it. I am giving up on giving up, I am DONE with stagnation, and I AM going to become the person of my inner child’s wildest dreams. 

🌺 To everyone who has been here with me the whole time—you know who you are—I love you and I couldn’t do this without you.

Flowers Bloom

Flowers Bloom (2024 solo version)

This song is partly inspired by a character I write named Emlyn, who is a 200-year-old witch who lives in a forest and is so connected with it she will definitely become part of it when she dies.

And it's partly about my own fears and insecurities about death, because I've been trying, recently, to talk about and express things that make me uncomfortable or scared, to defang them a bit.

Lyrics:

wind in the evergreens
will you remember me
when my body is ash and smoke?

sunrise in an endless sky
so on it goes, oh sacred time
have i done enough?

sparrow upon the pine
bathed in the firelight
reap my soul, create anew

oh child of mine, be at peace
forever among these trees
and remember me

please remember me

evergreen

This is a love song from someone who wears their heart on their sleeve and is overflowing with love, to someone who has come to believe that they are too difficult to love.

(Track art by @khocat on Twitter, I commissioned them to draw this lovely portrait of the two characters I wrote this song about. And one day I'll publish the books and you can read all about them.)


Lyrics:

You have called to me in dreams
How your beauty has haunted me
If it's a spell you've cast on me
May you cast it endlessly

For I have bound myself to you
Like the sun has the moon
That wherever you may go
My light will always call you home

Lie still, my lover
Would you stay a moment longer?
I'm afraid if you leave, it will all have been a dream
And if I wake, I will never recover

May the day pass us slower
As we dance through the clover
And with you in my arms, well, it isn't so hard
To imagine this lasting forever

But if tomorrow never comes
Would you stay with me, my love?
And if time should pass us by
Find me in another life

For I have bound myself to you
Like the sun has the moon
That wherever you may go
My light will always call you home

Bound

Another Halyse cover, because I just admire her songwriting so much! :D (I'll post original stuff soon, I promise...)

Here's a link to the original post of the song, with lyrics: http://atsueshi.tumblr.com/post/80364170807/a-little-song-thats-kind-of-inspired-heavily-by

It Takes A Village by Halyse (cover)

Sooooo I posted a cover of this two years ago, and I'm super embarrassed by it now, so I thought it might be about time to post a cover I'm actually kind of happy with! :D

Long Time Traveller (cover) (new and improved)

I wrote this song after reading the book The Order of Time by Carlo Rovelli. The fact that we know so little about how the universe works is really actually reassuring to me, in that it makes me feel like we can’t possibly know for sure what happens when we die.

This is a rough version of the song, but I put enough blood, sweat, and tears into it that I figure it deserves to be public. 😅💕

Lyrics:

In sleeping we may dream
In each body infinity contained
But when our time has come
Does dreaming cease? Was it all in vain?
When we reach the end does anything remain?

I’ll redefine space and time just to find
To find a place, whatever it takes
To see you again
And I hope that I’m a star in your sky
And you mine

We’ll never know it all
So many trees bear fruit we cannot eat 
We’re all so very small
The ticking of a clock has lost meaning
Are you gone? Or just somewhere I can’t see?

I’ll redefine space and time just to find
To find a place, whatever it takes
To see you again
And I…

I believe, I believe
I want to believe 
…I have to believe
In infinity 

I’ll redefine space and time just to find
To find a place, whatever it takes
To see you again
And I hope that I’m a star in your sky
And you mine

And You Mine

I was hiking in the woods when I thought I heard something following me, but couldn't see anything. So, assuming there was some kind of faerie joining me on my hike, I starting narrating out loud the plot of the book I was drafting at the time. It was so nice to just tell a story in the forest, so I wrote this song about the experience!

Lyrics:

Nothing Else Matters

On the mountainside, beneath the sky
A voice on the wind called to me 
I didn’t say hi, didn’t ask why
Just started to tell them a story

I said, What if we all had magick?
What if the earth did too?
We’re more than these bodies, more than we can see
More than we ever knew 
And nothing else matters but this

Well they didn’t object and so step by step 
I kept sharing this part of me
The story of a lonely heart, a brand new start
Years of hurt and anger set free

I said, What if you gave all the love that you had?
What if it’s still not enough
To save the world all alone, or to build you a home?
Still, to the end, you will love
And nothing else matters but this

Well I know we all have magick
I know the Earth does too
And here in this moment, our voices on the wind,
As long as there’s me and you
Well, nothing else matters but this

On the mountainside, beneath the sky
Walk with me
I’ll tell you a story 

Nothing Else Matters

I wrote this song after a difficult conversation. It’s still hard for me to sing sometimes, but I’m grateful to this song for getting me back into the groove of songwriting—I wrote this in June 2023 and have written 16 more songs since then!

Lyrics:

I won’t forget 
Every golden hour we spent
Since we met 
Just learning what it meant
To be loved
And to love

So tell me how
Did we end up where we are now?
A universe apart
Who we were and who we are 
How we fell
Out of love

I’ve been searching for a reason to never to let you go
…but I ran out of time
I held on too tightly but deep down I know
Not everything works out fine

But what if I wanted it to?
Doesn’t that mean something?
What if I wanted it to be you?
Does that mean anything, anything
To you?

I took everything you gave me, all the love you had
Tried my best to love you right back
Don’t know why my heart’s so empty, a hole shaped like you
I don’t think my love’s coming back

But what if I wanted it to?
Doesn’t that mean something?
What if I wanted it to be you?
Does that mean anything, anything
To you?

I took everything you gave me, all the love you had
But I don’t think my heart’s coming back

But what if I wanted it to?
Doesn’t that mean something?
What if I wanted it to be you?
Does that mean anything?
Anything, anything, anything, anything?


I wanted it to be you

Wanted It To

Another cover of one of Halyse's wonderful songs!!!I I played the piano, and also used MIDI input to create the string track and the other sound effects. (Side note: the bird chirps in the recording are totally accidental, but I think they kinda add to the ambience lol.)

Here's her original post with lyrics: http://atsueshi.tumblr.com/post/82682969702/new-full-decent-song-yay-me-two-first-things

And here's the link to the fanfic it was based on: http://archiveofourown.org/works/1367056

It Takes Two by Halyse (cover)

お前だったんじゃねーか。。。テツ。

This song was inspired by the characters Aomine Daiki and Kuroko Tetsuya from the show Kuroko no Basuke. I really love their relationship, and I also identify with both of the characters on a personal level, so I write about them a lot -- this time, it happened to be a song instead of a story or rant. :D

I sang, played the piano, and added the MIDI string parts. Here are the lyrics:

(It was always you)
Echoes in the back of my head
Your ghost is still in my bed
And every word that you said
Still lingers in my heart untwisted
(It was always you)
Always there by my side
You were the light of my life
But now you’re gone and I find
Every day I feel a little emptier inside

I really wish that I had just picked up the phone
I wish I had reached out, hadn’t left you all alone

And oh, I try
I try to move on
But I can’t find anything else to lean on
Maybe we fell too far, too fast
Maybe we were never meant to last
But it still feels like my heart is made up
Of all the pieces of you that remained when you left
The little things I couldn’t leave behind
Tears are burning in my eyes
‘Cause far too late, I have realized the truth
That it was always you

(It was always you)
Do you remember the day
When you begged me to stay
But I just walked away
So I wouldn’t see you crying in the rain
(It was always you)
I still remember your face
Your eyes faded to grey
The way you whispered my name
I still carry you with me to this day

I really wish that I could go back to that day
I wish I could tell myself not to throw it all away

And oh, I try
I try to move on
But I can’t find anything else to lean on
Maybe we fell too far, too fast
Maybe we were never meant to last
But it still feels like my heart is made up
Of all the pieces of you that remained when you left
The little things I couldn’t leave behind
Tears are burning in my eyes
‘Cause far too late, I have realized the truth
That it was always you

It was always you that saved me from the dark
It was always you, you were my moon and stars
It was always you, you, everything you are
It was always you I loved with all my heart
(You, only you)

And oh, I try
I try to move on
But I can’t find anything else to lean on
Maybe we fell too far, too fast
Maybe we were never meant to last
But it still feels like my heart is made up
Of all the pieces of you that remained when you left
The little things I couldn’t leave behind

And I’ve searched in so many places
But still I can’t fill these spaces without you

It was always you that saved me from the dark
It was always you, you were my moon and stars
It was always you, you, everything you are
It was always you I loved with all my heart...

It Was Always You (original song)

A friend introduced me to this band recently and I fell in love, and this was the first of their songs I listened to. It was really fun to sing, and it gave me a chance to experiment more with MIDI input and all the things I can do with it!!! c:

Light by Sleeping At Last (cover)

Here's a quick rough draft of one of my latest songs, I'll take it down once I have a better recording to post!

Lyrics:

I tell myself it isn't true
that my heart is set on loving you
'cause if it was true
I wouldn't know what to do
You don't know what you do to me
These words all drown before I speak
so I write them down
let them out without a sound
'cause I don't want these words to hold you down

You don't know
I don't wanna let you go
But I don't know how to show that I'm sorry
I can't give you everything that you need
You're a bigger part of me
than I ever meant you to be
but you don't know
'cause I only speak these words when I'm alone

You live and laugh and love so free
The way you smile makes me weak
and I can't breathe when I feel your eyes on me
No one makes me feel so real the way that you do
I just wish I could be good enough for you

You don't know
I don't wanna let you go
But I don't know how to show that I'm sorry
I can't give you everything that you need
You're a bigger part of me
than I ever meant you to be
but you don't know
'cause I only speak these words when I'm alone

And oh, as these walls still rise around me
I can't see you anymore
You washed up on another shore
And oh, I will always have you with me
in all the things I wish I'd said to you before

You don't know
I didn't wanna let you go
But I didn't know how to show that I'm sorry
I can't give you everything that you need
You're a bigger part of me
than I ever meant you to be
and I'm sorry
I didn't realize 'til I set you free

I'm Sorry (original song) (rough take)

This is a cover of one of Aomine's character songs (originally sung by Suwabe Junichi, the voice actor). For a translation of the lyrics, as well as the romaji Japanese lyrics, go here: https://grimmfeather.wordpress.com/2015/04/06/translation-kuroko-no-basuke-solo-mini-album-vol-5-aomine-daiki-still-lyrics/

STILL by Aomine Daiki/Suwabe Junichi (cover)

This is an acoustic cover of the first opening from the show Tokyo Ghoul, originally by TK from 凛として時雨. I played the piano and most of the clarinet, and sang all the vocals. The bass clarinet, harp, and violin were made using MIDI input from my keyboard. Enjoy! I'm particularly proud of this one. c:

(Also, this is a super late Christmas present for my friend Michaela! Love you!!! <3 )

Unravel by TK from 凛として時雨 (cover)

Happy New Years 2017! This song is about moving on from the past and looking to the future, so I thought this would be a good time to post this cover. :) All vocals are mine, and all instrumentation was done with a MIDI keyboard.

Square One by Lauren Aquilina (cover)

So yeah it's quite shitty but yeah. It's take 4, and I'm still frustrated, so any critiques would be appreciated. :3

Teardrop by Bowl (English cover, rough take)

Been wanting to cover this song for a while!!! I sang it at a talent show in 6th grade and won 3rd place, and since then it always brings back good memories for me! I don't love this backing track but I was impatient to share this, so... here you go! :D

Goodbye To You by Michelle Branch (cover)

Pharaoh's Throne COVER

This is me, playing the piano and clarinet, and singing "What Hurts the Most" by Rascal Flatts.

(it's really shitty don't judge me plz)

What Hurts the Most (acoustic cover)

Amaryllis, by Shinedown - one of my favorite songs! This is me on piano and harmonic vocals, and my roommate Nicole on guitar and melodic vocals. Kind of a rough take - expect an improved version in the future!

Amaryllis (acoustic cover)

Maddie Cardoza (they/she) is a queer singer/songwriter and multi-instrumentalist from Providence, RI. Their music falls somewhere between dreampop and indie folk, and their songs are love letters to existence, nature, and the bonds of community. Along with their solo endeavors, they sing and play keys/sax/clarinet as a founding member of the band Field of Embers (Providence, RI), and they also play horns with Hooly J Chan and the Wicked Queer Puppet Theater (Westport, MA).

She is also an aspiring novelist currently drafting a fantasy trilogy centered around a coven of witches and the kingdoms that persecute them. The characters of those books have inspired several of her songs (Bound, Nothing Else Matters, evergreen). When she's not songwriting or prose-writing, she is either reading, playing video games, trying to learn too many languages at once, or doing more Sudoku than is probably healthy.

Maddie's music can be found on Spotify, Apple Music, Bandcamp, SoundCloud, YouTube, and more. You can support them best by buying their music on Bandcamp or joining their Patreon.

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