Verse 1
Tell me how does it feel
To be somebody real
Someone who feels normal
Really wish I could be
Someone other than me
Could I be so cordial

Cause I never seem to fit

Chorus 1
I don’t know what I’m doing here
I wanna disappear
And hide from all my fears
They’re haunting me
Why can’t I be someone else
Please free me from this shell
Because I don’t feel well
Just being me

Verse 2
Every night every day
Looking for my own way
I don’t know where it’s going
But I feel something shift
In this moment I lift
From the pain I’ve been holding

Now I see a brighter place

Chorus 2
I don’t know what I’m doing here
But it’s becoming clear
That I can face my fears
They’re part of me
I’m learning to be someone else
Better versions of myself
I’m starting to feel well
Just being me

Bridge
Finally ready to go
Where my dreams can grow and grow


Chorus 2
I don’t know what I’m doing here
But it’s becoming clear
That I can face my fears
They’re part of me
I’m learning to be someone else
Better versions of myself
I’m starting to feel well
Just being me

I don’t know what I’m doing here
But it’s becoming clear
That I can face my fears
They’re part of me
I’m learning to be someone else
Better versions of myself
I’m starting to feel well
Just being me

The truth has set me free

I Don’t Know What I’m Doing Here

Lost eyes wander for years
Blind to all that’s been near

What if all I need was right here all along

Chasing flashier signs
Missing all that was mine

What if all I need was right here all along
What if all I need was right here all along

I lifted up my heavy cross
Until it broke me down
And I woke up inside my mess
Digging in the ground

I lifted up my heavy cross
Until it broke me down
And I woke up inside my mess
Digging in the ground
Digging further down

What if all I need was right here all along
What if all I need was right here all along

What If All I Need Was Right Here All Along

VERSE 1
What would you do for love
When the whole world is giving up
Would you stand when it all gets tough
Or just fold when life calls your bluff

VERSE 2
We’ve been down roads that had no signs
Losing our way a thousand times
But somehow you still saw the light
Led us home through the darkest night

CHORUS
I was so lost in the madness
Your light cuts through all the sadness
We rise again never turning round
Love is the battleground
Love’s the battleground

VERSE 3
Broken, I was so blind
And I fell behind on borrowed time
But your heart is keeping me aligned
You’re the spark that’s lighting up my eyes

CHORUS
I was so lost in the madness
Your light cuts through all the sadness
We rise again never turning round and round and round

I was so lost in the madness
Your light cuts through all the sadness
We rise again never turning round
Love is the battle

I was so lost in the madness
Your light cuts through all the sadness
We rise again never turning round
Love is the battleground
Love’s the battleground
Love’s the battleground
Love’s the battleground

Love’s The Battleground

Sunlight

VERSE 1
Examining the broken mirror in my mind
It looks so bad I really want to cry
My little cuckoo clock is running out of time
The hands are leaving me with two black eyes
Cause they tried to frame me with a silly crime

CHORUS
Because my life’s a little funny
Work hard to get that money
Just to sit and watch it blow away

Dreaming of a sky that’s sunny
A land of milk and honey
Cause I’m too busy to go play

VERSE 2
Counting all the cracks beneath my filthy shoes
Every step I take is feeling like the blues
These city streets are humming tired lullabies
The angels sing along as I try
To keep my broken soul from running dry

CHORUS
Because my life’s a little funny
Work hard to get that money
Just to sit and watch it blow away

Dreaming of a sky that’s sunny
A land of milk and honey
Cause I’m too busy to go play
In heaven now

BRIDGE
I can see the pearly gates are open wide
It would be nice to run through them the day I die
But for now I guess I’ll just go back inside
And fix that broken mirror in my mind

CHORUS
Because my life’s a little funny
Work hard to get that money
Just to sit and watch it blow away

Dreaming of a sky that’s sunny
A land of milk and honey
Cause I’m too busy to go play

Because my life’s a little funny
Work hard to get that money
Just to sit and watch it blow away

Dreaming of a sky that’s sunny
A land of milk and honey
Cause I’m too busy to go play
In heaven now

My Life’s A Little Funny

VERSE 1
Dear Jesus, I don’t really want to die
But you said that you would trade your life for mine
Dear Jesus, it just feels like a crime
Cause I’m having trouble walking in the light

CHORUS
So many people just point and laugh at me 
But I guess they have a point just look at me
You tell me something very differently
Please open up my heart so I can see

VERSE 2
Dear Jesus, I don’t understand your plan
Cause I’m just a simple ordinary man
Dear Jesus, please give me a helping hand
Cause you can do so much better than I can

CHORUS
So many people just point and laugh at me
But I guess they have a point just look at me
You tell me something very differently
Please open up my heart so I can see

Dear Jesus

Fix me

VERSE 1
Spilled my coffee again
Guess I really wanted tea
Skipped the latest trend
It don’t matter much to me

Melodies in my head
They don’t have the words to sing
So I go out instead
Just to see what life will bring
Inspire me

CHORUS
I woke up cause the sun is shining through my window
Harmonize while the birds are singing a crescendo
Breaking free from the pain that yesterday had taught me
Cause today’s a brand new day

VERSE 2
Met a friend down the street
Where we used to spend our days
Talked of love, bittersweet,
And the time that slipped away

Walked down by the shore
Let the memories drift on through
Every moment before
Led me right back home to you
Love is true

CHORUS
I woke up cause the sun is shining through my window
Harmonize while the birds are singing a crescendo
Breaking free from the pain that yesterday had taught me
Cause today’s a brand new day

BRIDGE
Go outside, feel the sun
A new day has just begun
Take a risk, have some fun
Everyday, everyone

CHORUS
I woke up cause the sun is shining through my window
Harmonize while the birds are singing a crescendo
Breaking free from the pain that yesterday had taught me
Cause today’s a brand new day

Won’t you go outside and play

Shining Through My Window

VERSE 1
Ghosts on the sidewalk, waving to passing cars
Light from the windows, showing who people are
Pages are turning, filled with the things unread
Words without meaning made up inside their heads

CHORUS
And if I fade out, then will someone feel me still
And if I wake up, will my dreams know what is real

VERSE 2
Master of quiet, speaking to empty rooms
Jack of denial, laugh in the face of gloom
Talent for losing, art is the great disguise
Heart always bruising, hidden behind dead eyes

CHORUS
And if I fade out, then will someone feel me still
And if I wake up, will my dreams know what is real

BRIDGE
Stuck inside my head the invisibleish man

CHORUS 
And if I fade out, then will someone feel me still
And if I wake up, will my dreams know what is real

The Invisibleish Man

VERSE 1
Watching a podcast while eating breakfast
Wasting my time
Carrying water why do I bother
Tasting the wine

Candy from strangers always in danger
Cars everywhere
Carrier pigeons failing their missions
Taking the stairs

PRECHORUS
Dry your eyes cloudy skies
Throw your pies at the sun

CHORUS
I’ve been crossing the street looking for my old friend
I’ve been cruising through town until all the roads end
I’ve been searching for gold because fools don’t pretend
I’ve been dreaming of something else

VERSE 2
Preaching to pastors slowing down faster
Breaking the bank
Trapped in a bottle feelings are coddled
Let us give thanks

Tearing up letters what crazy weather
Taking a spin
Got many questions fewer impressions 
Hope my team wins

PRECHORUS
Dry your eyes cloudy skies
Throw your pies at the sun

CHORUS
I’ve been crossing the street looking for my old friend
I’ve been cruising through town until all the roads end
I’ve been searching for gold because fools don’t pretend
I’ve been dreaming of something else

Throw Your Pies At The Sun

Hi! I’m a singer-songwriter from the Hudson Valley, New York. 
Instagram: @madeleinethezan

Sunlight

Madeleine Thezan

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