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ophelia xoxo

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

updated mastering by @ztope

my favourite creation thus far, hope u enjoy <3

lyrics

and when our arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

i wanna take off
the world awaits for me no i can’t stay long  
id fucking freeze death here out in all these cold months
move away from under the clouds before rain falls
oh dont u see oh dont u see 
i gotta take off

its not hard when uve been living in the dirt this whole time
“we should talk about this” but you’ll change my mind
u say the sky falls everytime i see u cry
now here we are, i understand if ur not on my side
 
know in ur arms oh ill be safe
but if i stay inside my comfort zone 
my mind will still escpape
so ill be on my way
no i dont expect u to wait
for me but sorry im off

when its blue its so blue wish i could tell u bout it
but when its dark wish i never was around if
u could see what ive become in climbing all these mountains
id be content with laying here so fucking helpless

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

will it be worth it
well i cant say that for sure
but ill be hurting
yeh i can say that and more
oh ill be surfing
the ups and downs down to the shore
its clear on surface 
but the pain it lays deep in the core

u slip u drown 
u won’t be found
out there there’s no help but yours

i tore my face
explored my taste
i change my ways
to get this far

its hard to leave now
tho its cold out
i wanna make my mark

please belive me when i say i still see ur face in the dark

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
what have i lost

s p a c e (nevrfall)

single off my ep 'gust' that ill drop soon. ep prod by @wstdtimez and @secre_swallowtail

lyrics

i dont give a fuck if u talk loud
and i dont give a fuck where u at now
she been walking round like a rat
but im not playing games like its cat mouse

i dont giv fuck bout bout 
no i dont give a fuck bout ya 
i never did
i dont wanna talk to u well no shit
prolly shouldn’t blamed me uh for all of this

lifes hard so she wanna talk now
i got friends they told me that u talked down
on my name
and now she wanna restart
now
but she wanna talk down fuck nah

fuck love 
take drugs

switching up flows more than
u be switching up hoes
im with the same bros
be mindful
dont bring em over here
i only like toes

like i said she wanna talk now
that she low
coz ive been getting to the top 
while she froze
i did it from the start and now shows
u turned on all the lights but nobody’s home

shoutout wstd, coz now im on the floor
i can not take it any fucking more
i take fucking painkiller theyre too strong
she jus wanna take me outta my clothes

i don wanna talk why u tryna make me
my emotions going rampant i just hate it 

poor another cup of the same shit
poor another up coz im a lame bitch
but i dont wanna talk to u no
no fuck i dont wanna see u at all
keep coming with the lame shit
th fuck u wanna say snitch
write another song huh every fucking day bitch

distant (wstd)

lyrics:

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

Cobblestone roads
From the dungeon I reside in
Dirty fox robes
Line my waist while I hide in
Back alley trash im a waste im an animal 
If u bled me at my neck I swear the blood would be cold
She hurts me and loves me
In that order it breaks me
Im burnt out I dont try to hold my head no more
Im limp
If she wanted id be her rag doll yea
I think I
Need a minute
To process
Ur new life
Oh The bug bites
Are insurance
For us camping
On this warm night

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

4 walls around my hell its boring
I purge emotion every time its pouring
3am its spitting I love it
Take me now if I cant see the sunset

I found her
In my arms
At midnight
Im not going
This pamphlet
On my door
Protects us
Till the morning

till the morning (branwen)

lyrics:

On this pull out couch
I am spinning round
This the most fucked up
I had ever been
I know were not on good terms
But Could we try again
Its not me talking baby its the medicine
I won’t take no more of this cheap shots
How would u feel if I was with a grease box
Im out of line baby I need higher dosage
Patio lights hit my face as I blow spliffs

I was once someone I could look up too
U would not like me if u knew just what I go through 
 Sober late nights is what I never do
Two 5ths deep I wake up and I am brand new
Im decaying in health
And still I reject help
I pour liquor in my mouth and say 
Here’s to those who dont make it out

On this pull out couch
I am spinning round
This the most fucked up
I had ever been
I know were not on good terms
But Could we try again
Its not me talking baby its the medicine
I won’t take no more of this cheap shots
How would u feel if I was with a grease box
Im out of line baby I need higher dosage
Patio lights hit my face as I blow spliffs

pull-out couch (xlhc x fantasycamp)

lyrics:

If I told u what was wrong i know it would go left
If I preach to the choir I would be tone deaf
This was not what I desired or what was promised
You’ve been using me to frequently as an object

In these hard times
We can still have a good time
Without sunlight
Still ur face had glown bright
Oh my god
Im in such a love triangle 
In my field of view 
I see doves
Take back the words I spat out when I was mad at you
Id still take u back regardless of the lies u told me too
I guess when im in love I tend to act a fucking fool
If u need a helping hand that badly im ur fucking tool

I just see red
My baby i just see blood
I walked in on you two
Naked body mid fuck
I guess I love you too
Was never something u meant
I pray u keep getting by
On all these lies u attempt on me
Now 
I cant feel at all
Lately
My whole bodys numb
I had just sealed my fate
Rolling off this Molly bump
I guess
I just called some people I should never been called at all
Maybe
I guess people like me dont change after all

In these hard times
We can still have a good time
Without sunlight
Still ur face had glown bright
Oh my god
Im in such a love triangle 
In my field of view 
I see doves
Take back the words I spat out when I was mad at you
Id still take u back regardless of the lies u told me too
I guess when im in love I tend to act a fucking fool
If u need a helping hand that badly im ur fucking tool

goodbye (eric godlow)

lyrics:

Its a house party
Im here and I am sloshed
She been way too close right now
I think im in a mosh
Swear im a clit how they been rubbing the wrong way
The amount of smoke I let out after rips its Pompeii
She play games I had to hit her with the soft block
She too- I cant fuck u with a soft cock
Gimme head
Ill bless u back
Ok uh
She told me cum on top her back
And I sprayed uh

Im so Maury how I son these copy pastes
I ash on my vlone while he hang up his old navy
This power up in my cup could kill a baby
Im so deep inside this shit I promise u won’t save me
This some first take shit
On bass that’s earthquake
It feels like rapture how my whole entire room shakes
Got me sweating cause I know im not a pure soul
Still im gifted with this voice that lays ethereal
Her dad must be Phillips how she projecting
And her mom must be fedex how she hold my package
Pull up on my guys and they let that opera sing
Stay around too long I swear they’ll bring u damage

Fuck me and bite me and slap me and maim me and scar me and shape me and teach me the ways of the background U gave me I learned it and suffered the beatings and upsets
I am nothing but an object to you

Its a house party
Im here and I am sloshed
She been way too close right now
I think im in a mosh
Swear im a clit how they been rubbing the wrong way
The amount of smoke I let out after rips its Pompeii
She play games I had to hit her with the soft block
She too-  I cant fuck u with a soft cock
Gimme head
Ill bless u back
Ok uh
She told me cum on top her back
And I sprayed uh

house Party  (eric Godlow)

lyrics:

Burn me to bits and I will cauterize it somehow
It was just a friend until myself had found out
I cant look at you the way I seen you act just now
I swear to god ill blow this bitch apart right now right now right now
I swear id kill u both if I could but I cant
I drop out the knife I held inside my right hand
Im not tryna weep when they bring me on the stand
She Pick apart
The skin on my chest and clutch my beating heart
I was warned
Still I toss aside that rocky start
We had had
When we had met
Now u fucking on anyone else that rap
U just a fan
Oh u break me
I think I Took too much
But I lay down and I sweat it out
Coming clutch
At this function my guy smoked me out
Double dutch
U so crazy how u jump around
Say u hate me then u telling me we’ll work it out
All this did was put me under
6 feet of this dirt im buried breathing
But im tied to her
I tried to break this bond but it didn’t work
but Still I hope u been well
I dont need to hear it go and give em hell
Sometimes these words are hard to keep to myself
Once I sip my drink
Maybe we could talk it out

The Shift (eric Godlow)

i don't wanna go
unfamiliar places make me scared
and i feel safe at home
always on the road
i've been so alone
even when you're right here by my side
it's like i'm on my own

how'd it get so late i lost control of time
all these fleeting moments tryna run my life
i can pay attention if i really try 
but 20 minutes later i'm inside my mind 
i've been anxious talking, typing, sticking to my word
everything i promise getting overheard
i'm aiming for perfection but i'm out of line
i refuse to trace an image and pretend it's mine

slipped, somewhere in my vision there's a dip
i can only see it when i trip
but the ice below my feet give me a lift
used to skate around when i was a kid but now i'm clipped 
all the energy lived
in amphetamine scripts 
and I thought that he'd never listen
don't know whether he did

and a brick don't swim
what i do when the ring's all melted
and the lights go dim
and it feel like no one helping
when really they is 
and it's just another part of me
that won the anti-lottery
I'll take my win

how'd it get so late i lost control of time
all these fleeting moments tryna run my life
i can pay attention if i really try 
but 20 minutes later i'm inside my mind 
i've been anxious talking, typing, sticking to my word
everything i promise getting overheard
i'm aiming for perfection but i'm out of line
i refuse to trace an image and pretend it's mine

i feel like i can see my whole life right in front of me
i try to make it right by bracing for my suffering x2

tracer (prod. illumikaze)

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

butterflys in ur heart
and i will take them to my grave
i am doing my part 
but i cant choose to be saved
we can worship the stars
time just stops where we lay
ive been delt all my cards 
and i am well out of my depth 
and deeper when pressing my scars

i can feel the pressure building
fast
push u out the way, theyre on
attack
in jeaporady when getting to
attatched
feeding on my bones until they 
snap

protect th silk casing like my worthless pulse depends on its
ur beaty will project to outside planes changing course of comets
im not what needs to be beside u in the end in fact far from it
i jus hope u can appreciate our final moments

ink is running out 
most likely my last few pages
everything battered and worn
theres not many too more stages
but i am yet to explore 
the deepest part of my core
but  this aint about me anymore
im happy to pass the torch, in this storm
im still warm, coz i can tell that ur changing ur formv

still one arm on this battle ship i steer
there are one too many waiting for us at the pier
it isnt fair
we’ve come so far 
it stops right here
now this ur part
i hope you’ll know that this is what i wanted dear

butterflies in ur heart (killedmyself)

both beats prod neverforever and audio clip from the big lez show (sassy)

lyrics

never get bored of this scent, yet its far from my first
put the gun between my eyes and do your worst
im breathing still, feeling im used to i forget what is real
let me tell you the deal
when hearts are involved it is more than to steal

its just a phase its just a phase ok
choosing my mood and my thoughts
im gonna start today

you were the one for me 
but your not the one for me no more
im talking bout trust you see?
it only takes once for me draw the line

ill see you again in time 
even if theres no other life

sassy mumbo jumbo

beat switch

i cant help but feel somethings missing
black and white still cant distinguish
she communicates only in scriptures
i cant decipher her wishes

she saw th blood on the carpet 
eyes grow so bright in this darkness
they point like a laser to my heart
halfway through untill im unarmed

a burning sensation in my lungs
i breathe all of this poison at once 
the words that follow break down her walls
were not so different at all

beyond / we arent so dif at all (neverforever)

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