i try to be someone im not and
it feels wrong but im locked in
im just noxious on the rocks and
ill keep saying im doing fine

i cant even think
lights are on, i cant sleep
hiding under my sheets
to get away from my dreams
x2

dont get overwhelmed
dont feel what you felt
your faculties are breaking down
and you dont know how to help
yourself, yourself get out 
youre old, youre stuck in the route you made
i play games that no ones heard about
cant invite me to a public lobby 
cause i get scared and i dont talk for hours
i dont know how you talk so easily
fuck
thats all i can say
ive ran out of pain
i guess thats good for me
(pain)

i was the most popular ive ever been
when i was sad as fuck 
and i didnt know how to fucking vent
but now ive learned how to live 
and i grew up a little bit
so get out of my mind if youre not gonna profit it
yh.

i (prod. caves x wisssery)

second single off album w/ @flesh golem
mix & mastr @fleshgolem

lyrics

it feels safe here 
layered warmth
with my skin on ur skin 
something forms
there lays pain here 
and till im forty i wont ever take for granted what was alleviated 
im all urs

im all urs x4

what is left 
is all urs 
rotten flesh 
in my pours

opening up
ive been trying
speed not what she used to yeah and no she cryin 

i been mixing it up 
i been frying 
breathing in these particles 
my flesh been dying

throwing up 
on the phone 
outta touch
but right at home 

right at home x4

oh my word
every single day 
every single day that goes by x2

be safe, for me

be safe; for me (flesh x pekarot)

06

theres always an otherside

lyrics

roaming on these muddy waters many i lands convince to see

anxiety in mind tho its like im surfing shallow reef

im having hard times to grasp the things she feels for me 

we live 2 worlds yet we can say the same story

/

packing boxes on top of shelves

many options many hells

wishing wells. now store memories and memoirs 

are jus pleanetrys. heart warming. so heavenly 

heart burn and it’s killing me. this fire that u placed been attended so unwillingly

/

i lay down but with slumber im comfortable and comfortably

sure that this the only place where i can have some peace

i said these things, well these things take time

lifes to short to do null she replies 

/

my hearts bruised

this world is blue

my minds in 2

but I still love u

/

im losing pateince

my heart isnt waiting 

ill wait for u

/

many times ive checked the tide

rest assured its under control

i told u bout it last time, oh and last night

still u had to go 

these seven sees turned to five roads with this december snow

sit beside the rails and let the ocean breeze 

just take ur soul

/

sail the coast

let the sharp rocks just scrape the boat 

we have this path just let it flow 

i love u but its gettin old

/

its like date nights turn to great fights

and this moving home just kept moving ‘long

and we dont speak bout dark trail

coz theres 2 views and a sparked tail

/

i see green hues u see blue lights

i forgive but u say no ties

sirens going off must be system error 

but ik right

/

ik u this is not like 

how i saw u that one night when the trees paved a way for beauty 

that could be comprehended by eyes

i love u but im gettin tired 

/

she sent a signal to me that i wasn’t alone

now urs to take 

all my flesh, yeah my skin and my bone x2

/

im outta time in this world im outta time 

and its just me by myself on this grind

and its time to let the pen down

write my final words coz im just out of time

/

in this world the pages starting to fold 

i loved u once but my heart is growing old

heartwarming pleasantries that will go down with me

heartwarming pleasantries that will go down with me (empty roads)

everything is not enough
i tried i really have
i don't have no animosity for you 'cause you couldn't help it
both our heartbeats play in stereo
they're two waves always crashing
i'm not far enough away right now 
the road always seem to catch up

i've always been up on the edge
just a little bit
i'm tryna get air
you only ever seem to regret shit when it's convenient
i'm 'bouta drink myself to death
and my heart feel like a canyon
i don't know what's fuckin' left for me 
you only ever seem to apologize when it's right in your face
yeah
these motherfuckers don't care
not even a little bit
i was tryna hang myself when you met me
i'm tryna fill a chevrolet up with liquor right now and crash before the exit
i know the desert don't care
dry my bones and leave me here as fragments 
if the vultures find me that's okay
as long as i smoke a cigarette on the way out 
yeah 
yeah 
as long as i smoke a cigarette on the way out 

everything is not enough
i tried i really have
i don't have no animosity for you 
'cause you couldn't help it 
yeah

canyon (p. drag beats)

Mixed/Mastered by me
Prod. Red Eyez

Lyrics: 
oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

uhh feelin the covenant pressure
7am filled wit longing 
inescapable terror
let her fight back, what a frightening
sight it must be to see
oh i'll yearn for the chest feeling we used to hold so deeply
learn to breathe on my own
take this coat from my arm
trade the cuts for complex sedatives
we both suck for sentiment
call for several syllables, i only need three
baby tell me that you need me

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

oh cut deep, we'll make new scars 
baby what's that tone for 
but every sentence that spills out your mouth makes me feel the resentment a little bit more
cut from the cloth but your more like a feather
every second we're spending apart puts us closer and closer to never
uh and honestly, maybe, been feeling it lately, i wish that i never had met her
you still got my sweater don't you?
lately you been cold like weather, so cruel
let me stay inside, i hope we get some snow soon 

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

fragments

first of many to come this year <333

lyrics

You found me among the fallen leaves that once were great
You took me in to your home and I put on a face
The moment is where I try to be, behind me, all erased 
At least I’ll try, can’t kill a tide that never wants to wave

I’m fallin in and out of love with music but I don’t take no breaks
I just keep it going coz if I stop the ground will shake 
The world around me is all that I despise but I can trick my brain
But I can’t deceive myself when i say I wanna keep u safe

I know your heights so I know you fell
I see your eyes, know you turned to hell
I hear your cries, hear them loud and well 
And if your stuck, you hear the ringing bells

The way u see me is how I wanna see myself
That’s why it’s so hard to say I love, I’ve just held back how I’ve felt
It's just the life of sacrifice, I know exactly how you felt
When you gladly watch the world you live in melt

fallen leaves

fallen leaves (purc)

pain (prod. metlast x 6mane)

@strudd

just hear dial tones
hold me here close
dont need no one else
here theyre all ghosts
i see scary sights
lurking in the dark
bleed under my eyes
open em see the most
woke up whats my new disguise
ask for me dont know that guy
sick of just another friend 
another guy gone switching sides
make me feel like everything around me gonna be alright
sick and tired of the nonsense that fills my life
rip me out the sad shit
consume me with distractions
i wanna feel your magic
woke up drippin matchin
thats my girl thats not my bit and she fantastic
you hangout w bitches that look fresh ripped out of plastic
dont feel like an angel getting 222 plastered
ripping away at my skin just for you to say nothing mattered
got good ppl around me know its a blessing
so many different moves i keep you guessing
never leave you stressin
baby im the next kid
i run it up and get a bag wheres my next check
now you really think im acting like im something
if you met me know im opposite of selfish
fuck that you really know me without even talking 
down bad you know it gets worse it aint been all that

nothing matters [strud]

disappear -  soLuvSig, p!nkcasperr ft/prod. sunnyisdead

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