enemies (prod. casper)

dead broke:
It's getting colder at night, she thinks that I wanna die,
I'm losing sleep and my sight, but no one's around for me.
This room was never empty, I think that's why it hurts me,
Don't know how much they love me, I'm fading into nothing.

idkconundrum:
I can't breathe, it's skin deep, needle wit the ink, 
like the way it poked in, like we did when we were young-
and dumb.

dead broke:
you're just a fly on the wall, is it that hard to make calls,
I fall asleep all the time, and take a tab just to fall.
you want me dead not alive, secrets you hide deep inside.
I know about your love life, I drown my pain every night-
in alcohol, and aderall.

idkconundrum:
Girl I thought this shit was perfect, why the hell do I deserve this?
running around like you earned it, girl you know you didn't do shit.
But she talk to me nice and I love it, shawty pull on my strings like a puppet,
and we doing all this shit in public, but shell never be mine so fuck it,

dead broke:
and we doing all this shit in public, I make a bag and I spend like a hundred,
everything that I wanted, I got it. Give me a reason to love you, I want it.
She see me in HD, I got police running after me. She thinks it's attractive, and I hate it, cos she sees through me,

It's getting colder at night, she thinks that I wanna die,
I'm losing sleep and my sight, but no one's around for me.
This room was never empty, I think that's why it hurts me,
Don't know how much they love me, I'm fading into nothing.

idkconundrum:
I can't breathe, it's skin deep, needle wit the ink, 
like the way it poked in, like we did when we were young-
and dumb.

dead broke:
you're just a fly on the wall, is it that hard to make calls?

Fly on the wall (ft. idkconundrum)

produced by wisssery and scryer
mixed and mastered by marc orozco

shattered in my mind to fight the feeling
lost in all the cracks of my ceiling
lost in thoughts of the months we were alright
do i cross your mind even sometimes?

will you just call me back?
maybe we can talk about the things i should've said when we were drunk on your couch
how could i forget a moment so perfect?
just wanna be worth it
i'll never be worth it
god damn, don't feel bad about being right now
i dont do shit for the gram, so tell your man pipe down
the days getting longer, i just wanna lie down
see you in everything and that's why i don't go outside now

sometimes (prod. wisssery x scryer)

i just wanna be on own, tonight 
is that alright, then i turn off the lights 
i kinda miss now now im all on my own 
the only thing thats bright is the screen on my phone

im walking past esso 
get flowers for you 
i'll pop it on your doorstep 
knock your door and go 

im slipping on the ice as i get through the snow 
my heart barely alive but i'll live on iknow 

what a way to find out 
you've been round his house 
when i was trecking to yours for hours 
was it all wasted x2 
i should of never bought the flowrs 

now im all embarressed 
looking like pushover 
how can i recover now 

i need a fucking bandage 
bitch im fucking wounded 
my hearts all in two bits 
try to calm down


I just bought some flowers and I put them in a bouquet 
Imma listen to you ever single word that you say
I know I’ve been dumb but I’m tryna start a new age
Everything you want from me starts here from today
I wish I could be up in the shop to buying your toothpaste
I don’t wanna see the day you  pack your suitcase
Not for all the holiday shit
Nothing is so simple 
Nothing is so basic
Nothing so simple but I try my best to dumb it down for us 
I wish I could say this shit in person I’m a mess 
Late night on my phone
Every time that I leave I feel cold
Cold feet like I’m walking in snow
Then you go and leave me on my own

esso w/ birdbay (viera x jolst)

ill try drop my remaining dust collectors over the next few weeks
thnk u to @heyzbee for carrying
lyrics

mæsk
getting tired of this shit, always awake and a mess
all of these problems i think need be adressed
bae if u do it just speak wit ur chest out
ion wan an us if its just us depressed



darkness and me by myself all i fear
well i fear for the rest 
picking up the pieces
but they’re all dripping red
restin in peace is ok if im restn wit u
inside of this death bed

i called her but no answer
only talking to myself 
i question pain but there’s no answer
i just help my fucking self

u can hide u can run but
bae your turn will come 
we all suffocate

double chorus

(main)
oh ur eyes are fully wet
and u won’t wanna forget till u die no
yeh my heart been fading slow
but its alright
now its dark
and i been taking everything to make me high
u just wanna stare, and watch me die in this bleak filled night

(backup)
u won’t take my hand, this not meant to be
leaves still fall from our favourite tree
i might lose but at least ill be free
memories so trapped in this bleak filled night

zbee
welcome to the funeral
everything is better when you don’t know what going on
start to think about life 
right before it flash by 
everything it hurts now right before I die

yeah everything hurts oh my
and look what i’ve done with my life
yeah i know i’m supposed to be at peace
but right now life is the only thing I seek

burn
everything it burns
i see myself in these mirrors
but i’m not the person the i used to be
I'm horrible

fighting back spirits that i’m not supposed to be with
i’m down here but it kinda look like venus 
every time talk now it’s seen as treason 
what i’m i supposed to do when i don’t have a reason 

yeah stuck in the deep end
despite all the fire lowkey it be kinda freezing
everybody hates me just because i’m human 
what i am supposed to do when i don’t have an option

yeah minerals they surround me
yeah in the hell fire county
yeah what am i supposed to do when i’m stuck here 
and everything wants to harm me

rest ft zbee (branwen)

single off of new idealism ep

lyrics

indicate
indicate to me girl that u r right hereee
i’ve been off guide me bae i need u to steer
lights are dim, there’s no ones home, i’ve forgotten all my fears
coz when i see ur face i tend to dry away the tears

nothing else, you is all that’s been on what’s my mind 
i just want u to see that u are what is mine 
i’m sorry i’m who i am and that’s like most the time
i just want u baby can u believe me this time

i just want u baby can u believe me this time
i hope u know that what i show is not what’s inside 
a lot for me to ask but can u ignore all the signs 
i don’t think like they do and i guess with this i’m ripe

and i know
times not moving slow
but with this speed i’m okaaaaaay
reverting back to old ways
but this time i have u 
purple change to blue
nightmares turned to dark days
and hiding out in cold space
until i found u 

still tryna find a way to move 
but i found a source of light and well u might get me thru
u keep forcing me to 
and that’s the honest truth
i’m gonna leave this room my
whole life i was consumed by
something, i never knew why
but now i think there’s 2 sides
and now i’ll live a new life
it’s really do or die

sorry for who i am

sorry for who i am (idealism)

done it ft Schimo (Prod. AfterDark)

happy birthday to me.

lyrics -

Nineteen candles flicker
But my fire feels cold
World spins around me
But I stand alone
Used to be numb the pain
Chasing shadows in the night
Each hit and every sip
Stole my chance to fight
-
Catch me if you can
I’m running from the dark
Trying to find the light
But I’m missing all the sparks
For my parents and my friends
I’ll break these chains today
But it’s hard managing the ghosts that won’t fade away
-
Nineteen candles flicker
But my fire feels cold
World spins around me
But I stand alone
Used to be numb the pain
Chasing shadows in the night
Each hit and every sip
Stole my chance to fight
-
Catch me if you can
I’m finding my way home
In a world that feels so cold
Yet still, I must roam
One step at a time
Through the struggle of my mind
I think my body's getting cold
But I think I’ll be fine
-
Nineteen candles flicker
But my fire feels cold
World spins around me
But I stand alone
Used to be numb the pain
Chasing shadows in the night
Each hit and every sip
Stole my chance to fight

nineteen (sorrow bringer)

prod. ???

lyrics:

i try my best 
but it’s never enough
cant keep a 9-5
think im pressing my luck
shit i’m almost 25 and i 
can’t seem to the drive to survive
i deprive myself of a normal life

i’ll kill myself tonight
resurrect in the morning light
divine energy
shine so bright
moonlet like a satellite 

i’ll kill myself tonight
resurrect in the morning light
divine energy
shine so bright
moonlet like a satellite 

do everything i can
ya
anything for fam
ya
fuck out my way
if you ain’t about the band 
ya

(get the fuck out my way 
if you ain’t about the bands ya
get the fuck out my way)

man fuck a normal life
i wanna tour the world 
and party every night 
throw bans in the crowd
get hype
take this reality
to new heights 

(i wanna)

buy my family anything they want
anything they need from me
imma fucking put in work 
till they’re financially free
until my calloused fingertips start to bleed
i’ll make reality feel like a dream
just don’t give up on me

i’ll kill myself tonight
resurrect in the morning light
divine energy
shine so bright
moonlet like a satellite 

i’ll kill myself tonight
resurrect in the morning light
divine energy
shine so bright
moonlet like a satellite 

do everything i can
ya
anything for fam
ya
fuck out my way
if you ain’t about the band 
ya

(get the fuck out my way 
if you ain’t about the bands ya
get the fuck out my way)

family (prod. ???)

kiasu:
im an honest person so i'll be blunt with you 
you're a cunt and i always fucking hated you 
somebody i could hurt without a feeling of remorse
dating you felt like such a lazy chore

shattered:
leave me alone
leave me alone
stop trying to call my phone
you'll only get a dial tone
i look at you and i cry inside
i am a bitch for ever dating you
loving you at my bedside
now i can't rid of these ensymes
blowing the smoke
i hope you choke
you're just a joke
you're just a joke
nothing ever seems to be alright
texting you at 2 because i'm not fine
turn off the light 
cuz i just wanna die in the dark
cuz you left my heart
beating out of my chest
and i don't think i'll ever rest

kiasu:
im an honest person so i'll be blunt with you 
you're a cunt and i always fucking hated you 
somebody i could hurt without a feeling of remorse
dating you felt like such a lazy chore

leave me alone inside my room 
i wanna die in peace without you 
is that ok?
or do you need me as your fucking ball and chain 
please just leave me in the rain 
fucking go away

why are you texting me at 3 am 
we are not a thing get it through your head 
i dont wanna be with you 
you're a dumb bitch 
i'm fuckin over you

shattered & kiasu:
lay me down on a bed of roses 
this is the end
the feeling of death 
the scythe creeping down my neck 

lay me down on a bed of roses 
baby you and me are broken 
im fuckin over all your bullshit 
im fuckin over all your bullshit

rest ft zbee (branwen)

maesk