Emotionally very challenging song about the joint drug use as a method of escapism from harsh reality and troubles associated with everyday life. The initial title of this track was “The Golden Shot” which is a reference to the best know but rare method to commit suicide by the intake of drugs. However, it is not always easy to figure out if the golden shot was just an accidental intoxication or a real suicide (without a farewell letter left behind). Anyway, I lost a few good friends to drug abuse, and the entire Grunge Movement collapsed largely because of the drug addiction of its leaders. Somehow, deep inside, I felt obliged to write a song like this one… My drug of choice is gothism. Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak - ESCAPISM ON DEMAND (Alt.)

This is a special song that I wrote and addressed to my wife to celebrate our Silver Wedding Anniversary. 25 years of marriage is quite a long time! To be honest, my wife is not fully satisfied with this serenade of a gothic vibe, because its lyrics is related solely to the darkest side of our long-term relationship, which obviously went through many different phases (most of them much happier than this song would ever be able to express). But I said: “honey, let’s get it straight, you are married to a Goth and a darkly inclined individual who has been glorifying dark romanticism for 25 years of our journey together. So, buckle up, and enjoy the ride!”

Kamil Walczak - MIDNIGHT SERENADE (Alt.)

This track is a result of my highly valued and close collaboration with Wojciech Makowski, who is still my dearest friend since elementary school. It started with a few lines of text in which Wojciech described his loneliness, sitting for hours in an empty room. This feeling reminded me of my childhood trauma and several drastic scenes that I experienced as a victim of domestic violence from my father, all of which happened behind the closed door of an empty room (although there were unwritten neighborhood agreements and social consent for this type of practices). We somehow put these things together and this sad song came out smoothly as some sort of mash-up. Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak (feat. Wojciech Makowski) - EMPTY ROOM (Alt.)

Em & Double-U - TO LOVE AGAIN

Em & Double-U - YOU'RE MY BACKGROUND

Em & Double-U - RAPTURE

Em & Double-U - BALLAD OF GRACEFUL LOLA

The Spirit Of The Forest

The Common Way

Makowski Solo - THE COMMON WAY (Melodic Piano Song)

Makowski Solo - THE SPIRIT OF THE FOREST (Melodic Piano Song)

I Haven't Forgotten You

Makowski Solo - I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN YOU (Melodic Piano Song)

Русская каша (Рок-опера, фрагмент) 

Em & Double-U is a Polish-American darkwave band, formed online in 2019 by two childhood friends: Wojciech Makowski [a.k.a. Em] (vocals, synthesizers, samplers, programming) and Kamil Walczak [a.k.a. Double-U] (guitars, bass, drums, vocals, programming). In 1992-93, they were co-founders of the Polish coldwave band, A Herd Of The Rushing Vises, which broke up after recording a demo tape “The Bad Place” (1993). Since then, their musical paths have diverged to merge again during the Covid-19 pandemic due to their unwavering friendship and their intact passion for music. Since the very beginning, the band has been associated with the Metronome School of Music and Recording Studio in New York City. So far, they have released 4 full-length studio albums: "A Lethal Dose Of Sadness" (2002), "Beacon Of Hope" (2003), "Phantoms" (2004), and "Stolen Dreams" (2025). Presently, they are working intensively on their 5th album "Silent Suffering" (with original material from 2003). Wojciech Makowski is a prolific creator of piano and ambient music, while Kamil Walczak is an enthusiastic creator of gothic music.

Em & Double-U - YOU'RE MY BACKGROUND

Em & Double-U

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