Utopia Realised

i keep in the shadows
practising my lines
i forget to follow
almost all the time

it goes
back and forth i know
another undertow
goes back and forth i know
but it's all for show

i meant to tell you
never found the time
i can't remember yelling
i can't remember crying 

it goes
back and forth i know
another undertow
goes back and forth i know
but it's all for show

All For Show

walk so slowly now
hard to move sometimes
now when dawn is crowing
gotta close my eyes

need someone to clothe me
feed me like a child
hope when you call me
it's the last time

keep my back aligned
check for vital signs
make sure my eyes
still followin' the light

came on slowly now
it's picking up pace
keeps on moving
i keep giving chase

what was a little
thing became too much
always yellin' at me
show me what you got

Vital Signs

my brain tells me
tonight is crying time
what keeps my head in check
has taken flight

can't play it down
or keep it quiet
the addict in me singing
through the night

lay me down
on a bed of light
whisper the ringing from my ears
and calm my mind

don't need to rest
i need to rage
just a bird needs to be startled from its cage

I need a test
i need a change
need the ringing in my ears to fade away

you say to me
don't take it lying down
but when i try to stand i
stumble round

so i'll stay here
on this cold ground
laying here on a bed of
solid sound

waiting for you
like i got a clue
waiting for you
dreaming these blues

waiting for you
the shadows they grew
waiting for you
waiting for you

I need a test
i need a change
just a bird needs to be startled from its cage

don't need to rest
i need to rage
need the ringing in my ears to fade away
maybe the ringing in my ears to fade away

Tinnitus

get so bored of the way
that i talk
can't get to sleeping at night

get so caught up in all
of this nonsense
all i want to do is just try

every morning waking aching
back burning and breaking
in fright

getting bored of ignoring my boredom
gotta claw my way
back to life

am i wide awake
or half asleep
heady days
heavy sleeves

roll em up
clench my teeth

you want a piece of me
you want a piece of me

never thought i'd feel short
on a conscience
always at war with the light

then i saw you floored
unresponsive
laying in the back of my mind

falling over myself in the
darkness
why'd i have to be so unkind

shorting out the circuits
i want to just
leave all of this behind

are you wide awake
or half asleep
your head it sways
such heavy sleeves

roll up your sleeves
clench your teeth

say: you want a piece of me
you want a piece of me

Heavy Sleeves

saw a crime
the oldest known
to humankind

once distant light
closing in on
us tonight

it's a climb
hope I summit
before the night

oh my my my my

need more time
working on
a redesign

out of sight
keepin it in 
my mind's eye

hold it tight
won't let no one
see the white

oh my my my my

you say there's proof
in all these teeny tiny bits of you
can’t see the use
in these years we've been tangled up in youth
tell you the truth
been years since i've tried to pay my dues

oh my my my my

need more time

it's a crime
the oldest known
to humankind

Oh My My

white lies
black truthes
it'll all come back to you
white lies
bad news
sometimes we gotta choose
in time
we all lose
the plot ain't got a clue
white lies
black truthes
it'll all come back to you

kicking stones across the pavement
waiting for a ride
think i'm patient but maybe
i'm just wasting my time
born from clay moulded by rain
and slowly baked in light
in layman's terms i'm crazy
but i'm not out of my mind

a grown man groaning
grasping for a grain
when a modicum of knowing
comes clawing through my brain
from this surcease of sorrow
a path not seized by pain
in layman's terms i'm crazy
their lawyer thinks i'm sane  

don't need to listen
to make you feel listened to
don't need to bend the truth
to lie to you
feels like you're pissin
in the wind made a decision
to pretend you're on a mission
so see it through see it to the end

Truther

i go left, you go right
i walk over to you
given time, i'll get a clue

out of breath, out of time
show me some truth
i mean it's all bad news

but things go right
some of the time
some other time

the world goes by
you change your mind
change your tune

out of step, out of line
give me some glue
then give me anything worth sticking to

on the cleft, the divide
between one and two
every few years, need new shoes

say things go right
some of the time
some other time

the world goes by
you change your mind
change your tune

what it means to me
what it means to you
opening moves on the chessboard
of our youth

all the things to be
all the things to prove
opening moves on the chessboard
of our youth

given breath, given life
at war with the light
and given time our choices choose

and things go right
some of the time
some of the time

Opening Moves

the dark of the night
hides the noise
the first sign of light
leaves a choice
crushing that line
hides the void

i meant to get home
before the dawn
but i needed to know
what lies beyond
the taste of this wine
is getting old

cry or don't cry
they'll leave in time
try or don’t try
down the wine
try not to die 
i'm headed home

always end up alone
in a room
always end up with only
one truth
the sign of the times
feels like a noose

cry or don't cry
they'll leave in time
try or don’t try
just close the blinds
cry or don't cry
we all leave alone

i evaded the void
avoided the noise
the sound of your voice
the crush of a choice
i’m crushed by a choice
we’re crushed by our choices

Or Don't

know nothing
throw up and groan

loathe lovers'
snow covered slopes

show up and
close up my throat

this grip is gross
keep it close to my chest won't let no one know
or should i show
when i know all these fuckers are gonna fold
hearts aglow
if it's a keeper then let me know
move too slow
used to sleeving my dreams and living low

nobody
showed us the ropes

grow up and
know nothing new

blow up your
phone with no truth

this grip is gross
keep it close to my chest won't let no one know
or should i show
when i know all these fuckers are gonna fold
hearts aglow
if it's a keeper then let me know
move too slow
used to sleeving my dreams and living low

i know it's not right
i know it's not right
i know it's not

be on my side
just this one time
don't raise the pot

you know i know nothing
you know i got no idea
what i've got

Living Low

when my brain stops whirring it gives me time to think
been on the blink
can't get a wink

stirring, whirling, churning in the heat
it's on repeat
doesn't miss a beat

think about the people in my life
trying to survive
then think who am i?

then i wonder who they need me to be
need me to see
need me to believe

well i guess it's none of my business
need to find some other interests
to pass the time, keep from crying

sometimes i'm my own worst influence
thinking i can make a difference
in their lives, when i can't in mine

what's the purpose swimming through the murk
through the hurt
only makes things worse

must be something you can see in me
that i can't see
that's all i need

but i try
feel so selfish either way at times
yeah it hurts
feeling bad to keep from feeling worse
but i try
in the end what's yours is yours and what's mine is mine

Other Interests

godless grace by the side of the road
frog in throat walk the whole way home
head in tow one step from letting go
hug the road down the backstreets going slow

stay, don't go
there's more i need you to know
sorry man for stepping on your coat

trading blows
now there's blood on our clothes
wish i could leave well enough alone

put in my place i'm shelving my woes
spend my days wasted and broke
all my pay thought if i was watered i'd grow
surrounded i feel most alone

stay too long
all my welcomes well worn
never been real good at letting go

one day i'll grow up and leave you alone
you won't have to run me out the door

Mangers

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