I Can't Go Back To Her

The Unlicensed Cover Album

Stop Talking

Why Bother?

Crustsox cover

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BRAINSOUP!

Low IQ

Valentine's Day

FBF COVER
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Too Far Gone

For The Hell Of It

I Love Her So Much, I Wish I Knew Who She Was

cover art from "the first horror movie written entirely by AI"

Lyrics:
This world will gonna kick you in the face
Sometimes It's best to know your place
Put your head down and get on it

This world will prey upon your dread
Some days you'll wish that you were dead
But you're told that's how it's s'posed to be

The stress will go straight to your head
If you're lucky you'll get ahead
But if it doesn't work out for you
You'll have breakdown in your own living room

Everything's a stimey
No strength to keep on fighting
There's no point in trying now

It's Over
It's Over
It's Over
It's Over
It's Over
It's hopeless now

It's Over
It's Over
It's Over
It's Over
It's Over
There's no way out

It's Over

Quitter

Gez cover from voidtrash

Check out gez:
https://soundcloud.com/gezebellegaburgably

Reverse Cowboy

Cover art by me

Lyrics:
I'm afraid of college
I'm afraid of spending money to fail out
My only knowledge
Is the shit that falls out of my mouth
When I try to speak I can't believe
That I'm not fucking special needs
At least I'm honest with myself,
I have absolutely nothing figured out

Rhyme random shit and call it a pop song
I can't fuckin play along
Every song I write's a diatribe
Too much to say, it's a waste of time
I neglect hooks to pour my own heart out
People ask me if I need help
But I can't even trust myself
Why would I tell anyone else

I'm a fuckin failson
I'm a troglodyte with nothing real to say
I'm a disappointment
Nothing I do will ever be the same
I'm a fucking failson
My dad's got a 401K
I'm a fucking failure
Every breath I take I'm more of a shame

My friends are all figuring out
How to get out of the house
And I'm still just tryin'
To get the foot out of my mouth
The only thing I'm good at
Won't take me anywhere
I guess I'll just pretend
That I don't care

Spitting image of my father
All the emotions, none of the barter
I'm the fuckin failson
failure of my family
The best I am is fucking friendly

I'm a fuckin failson
I'm a fuckin failure
I'm a fuckin failson
I'm a fuckin failure
I'm a fuckin failson
IM A FUCKIN FAILURE

Failson

Cover art by me

Lyrics:
Everything you say
Is another game
It’s all a sport to you
Everyday you play
And it’s all the same
I’m always the one to lose
You know what to say
I’m callin mayday
Wallow in pity and shame
Ain’t it god’s honest truth

I’m not your friend, I’m not your enemy
But for you I have no sympathy
I shuffle cards to play again
But the deck is rigged to burn my hand

Social distortion
Living abortion
Play all the greatest shits
Armed with precision
And indecision
But we’re gonna get through this
I fucking miss her
I can still fix her
Memories in my head
But it ain’t like that
I can’t just go back
And let it hurt me again

Walk the wire, rain of fire
Just a bad writer, sorting it through
Walk the wire, say a one liner
I’ll be coming back for you

Barbed Wire

Here’s my best xo_willow impression

All my life takes place inside a technicolor screen
There's so many pretty things that no one’s ever seen
Information overloads my CPU brain
Took one look back and now nothing is the same
Looking back on my life, it was rigged from the start
Core 2 duo brains and an aught processor heart
My eyes are filled with static and my soul is filled with fear
I’m always the one freakin’ out if I haven't been  clear

SHUT DOWN SHUT DOWN
I don’t even know how 
I can’t control my brain
In the digital plane

BOOT UP BOOT UP
My system isn’t good enough
I spent all my energy
On not killing the rest of me

DREAMING DREAMING
I feel like I’m screaming
I am for the pile
I can’t even smile

NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE
I can’t even compare
I’m like paper in the rain
I fall apart and you can’t read the name

My life takes place inside a simple 2D plane
Cuz I lost the third in my own miserable pain
I don’t ever think I understood myself
Until she came along and I felt like I could help
Just like at mcdonalds, this machine is broken
I’ve never liked a single word i’ve spoken
I will never realize or process that you’re joking
I think that all I’ve proved here is on my words i’m choking

SAFE MODE SAFE MODE
Try your best to steal the show
Don’t embarrass yourself
Cuz the hand has been dealt

BRAIN BROKE BRAIN BROKE
Everything I says' is a joke
I can’t play the cards that I’m given
I’m not the one grinnin

DREAMING DREAMING
I feel like i’m searing
I am just a tiny spring
I’m a puppet on a string

NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE
Life is hard but never fair
Hold the pain but never share
RIP OUT EVERY EYE THAT STARES

Cyborg Emo Nightmare

This one's dedicated to zoe.

The original version is so much better than mine:
https://soundcloud.com/user-206923461/in-the-end-it-meant-nothing-1?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

FOLLOW THESLEEPDEMONS:
https://soundcloud.com/user-206923461/in-the-end-it-meant-nothing-1?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

In The End, It Meant Nothing (thesleepdemons cover)

I’m wading through the River of the shadow of doubt
You’ve clickbait brain that wants to blow itself out
I’m lying to myself about where I should be now
Because You could never tell what this is really about

Self effaced, disgrace, a waste
of potential lives 
What’s the point in being born
When you’re just living to die
I wish you never came along
And messed up my life
Because no one’s gonna to lift you
If ya fall through the ice

You're just a bad reflection of your surroundings
At least that’s what you tell yourself, a jailbird sings
A gunny-sackin loser with no brains and a heart
I’ve gotta tie your ends together or you’ll tear me apart

A wash, a loss, a negative
A rhyme that’s too long
I never stop pointing out
What I think is wrong
Why can’t I just be quiet
And turn in for the night
And maybe still feel something
When things are alright

Wash my hands of everything 
Do right or do wrong
Because I can stop listening 
To my favorite song

Right now head is telling me
You messed it all up
Feel like I shouldn’t care
Or I’m not caring enough

Intruder

Cancelled

Bummed Out

Nice to see the world ain't changed much
Easily turned deaf ears blind eyes
But the fake-out curtain call is
Yet another sign

Say we’re at the end of history
That it makes you just and right
You ignore rot festering
Cuz it ain’t you they’ll crucify

Are you blind or are you willing
In the death or the disdain
Are you emblem or the source
Of all the coming pain?

Say we’re at the end of history
Makes excuses not to fight
Evil works its tendrils in
When it’s not held in the light

Is this decay or completion of design?
I have to ask whether it’s a sign
In the great haiku of history
These stanzas shouldn’t rhyme
Is this dark path just being forged
Or are we biting well-worn fishline?

The End Of History

written in collaboration with Ken

You’re so fucking annoying
Everything you do makes me wanna scream
Why should you tell the story
I’m not gonna let you bury me 

Why oh why should I be the one?
Why oh why should I?
Why oh why should I have to run?
Why oh why should I?

You’re so fucking annoying
Everything you do makes me wanna scream
You mean absolutely nothing to me
I just really wanna watch you bleed

Why oh why should I be the one?
Why oh why should I?
Why oh why should you have the fun?
Why oh why should I?

You’re so fucking obsessive
You never could take directive
It took a broken heart but now I see
You shouldn’t fuckin mean a thing to me

Why Should I?

Kickin’ rocks in my head
Nothing life has led
Now Im just sitting here
Consumed by constant fear

Failing conscience falls to greed 
Writing words no one will read
I am blind to what you see
The isolation’s killing me
Know nothing and do nothing
I can’t write and I can’t sing
I’ll never get just what you mean
The isolations killing me

I was never that smart
I cant write with a full heart
In a book of misery
Half to sing and half to scream

I can’t feel the syncopation 
I can’t hold a conversation
This world doesn’t work it seems
The isolation’s killing me
Anxious thoughts cloud up my head
And now its existential dread
Lost not found but now I see
The isolations killing me

What do I know
About living life
I can’t put on a show
And I just can’t say no
afraid to see
What could be
Wrong with me
I’m so obsessed 
But I guess I’m just depressed

Isolation

Why’s it always the worst
That think that they’re the best
No one to root for
When everyone’s a mess
It’s hard to see
And easy to forget
There’s no heroes
Or at least there’s none that’s left

It’s all perverse symbology
They think that they know everything
Analogies that nothing bring
They speak in faulty simile

Behind a lot of great men
Are things they left behind
In the shadows
Where many cowards hide
The cowards think
That they’ve been victimized
When really they
Have been the match to light


It’s all perverse symbology
Deluded men think many things
Analogies that nothing bring
Like boys who cry out “wolf” they sing

It’s all perverse symbology
They think that they know everything
Equivocate themselves with things
When they know not of what they speak

Perverse Symbology

Obsessed with the power you didn’t have in high school
So you like to watch other people burn, and you think that you’re so cool
You draw the line, and you tell everyone to walk it
But really you’re nothing that you promised

Leading others to a game you failed
It’s really just beyond the pale
Lose yourself in willing lies
And lose your ability to criticize

You say you’re the image of masculinity
But your job is to get people to buy your complicity
You claim to help but you make their problems worse
It's easy to watch people die when your bosses own the hearse

Pretending that you're someone you’re not
Hanging onto empty shock
It’s all a larp, or you’re what you’re not
So pick your poison and take a shot

(You're the one that caged the dove
You ain't got no christian love, now)

I’m tired of all of this, I just wish you'd all stop acting like kids
It’s just incompetent disguise, I wish you’d all just stop the fuckin lying
You’re just attention beggars starting shit to go-getter, about people that you don’t even like
You should take your own advice and put your own head on a pike

Show some spine? The only spineless one is you
You hate yourself and so you abuse
Think you’re the lead? Well nobody needs
Another worthless loser with demented dreams
Nobody asked? Well it’s all in the past
Project all your problems to cover your ass
You say you’re “fucked over by modernity”
but you’re the problem, and you’re a dying breed

LARP

I wrote too many things about you
So many thoughts strewn ‘round my room
Be it spite or discount blues
I only ever watch the news, and it’s
Crazy
Crazy
Crazy
Crazy

Take myself to task
I knew it wouldn’t last
What’s done is done
So hit the ground and run
What’s here is here
There’s no need to fear
I’ve come undone
I hope you had your fun

I’m so afraid of what I do now
Nothing really still feels new now
The weight on my neck’s like a brick
There’s no point in whittling stick, til it’s
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing

Talking to myself
can’t put it on the shelf
Fight my own head
Like it’s all full of lead
say what i think
It brings me to the brink
The question now
Is when it got so loud

Zoinks!

Ashamed to be alive
Too afraid to live, too afraid to die
I don’t know what I’m doing and I’m losing time

Afraid to care at all
Afraid I’m setting myself up
to take the fall

I can’t live the life
Don’t wanna fight the fight
I’m to dull to be bright
I just need some light 

All my life
Living on a lie
I don’t wanna try
And drag myself back together again

Ashamed of who I am
Ashamed of I’m from
Ashamed of all the broken ties I’ve left behind in time

Ashamed all my past
Afraid of the future
Why fight to live a life that’s not worth living anymore?

I guess I’m a failure

Hate to start up again
But it’s just now and then
I don’t understand why you'd do this to a friend

Maybe I lost my light
I won’t break tonight
Or at least that’s what I’m saying, but is it right?

I’ve been on the train
It doesn’t make you sane
I hate everything that goes on in my brain

I have no thought
I care but it’s not
A way to fix all the pain that I have wrought

Ashamed of who I am
Ashamed of the part of me
That’s still holding on to all the things I left back in the past

Ashamed of all I’ve done
Afraid of what I’ve become
Why fight to end up right back the same way I was before?

I guess I’m a drag now

Ashamed

Can’t tell if I’m just numb or if I don’t care
Can’t tell if I’m lost I just stand and stare
Can be blind to the past if you think too hard
Is the mind too blank to be kept with the heart?

cuz I’m lost in the throws of a weirdo world
I can’t understand anything I’ve heard
I don’t care about the shows on TV
And everything new means nothing to me

So online and yet so disconnected

I’m not laughing anymore
I’m not laughing anymo-o-ore
Mo-o-re
Baby, I’m not laughing anymore
Is this what it feels like
To not have anything you wanted?

Is this how it feels to be unthinking?
too lost to talk and too anxious to drink
A role is a place that it’s easy to hide
Playing it off lets me keep it inside

This feels like a scene where I should call line
But it ain’t that easy so I’m losing my mind
Can’t talk, can’t write, can’t make anything clever
I’m so lost I don’t think I ever had it together

I'm far too dumb and far too easy

I’m not laughing anymore
I’m not laughing anymo-o-ore
Mo-o-re
Baby, I’m not laughing anymore
Is this what it feels like
To pretend that you’re a martyr?

I never asked for you to be
Still around for me to see
It was your choice to chase me

You’re a persistent thorn in my side
On an overdose of pride
I laughed out of sympathy

I'm Not Laughing Anymore

I know this is nowhere near as good as the original, I based this on the wonderful quarantine live version, found here: 
https://youtu.be/EVZ5mx75KEQ?si=6WutIb-tcA_JwtXb
Or here:
https://on.soundcloud.com/efhWw

I didn't know Steakfry personally, but I have a lot of respect and admiration for his music. I made this cover because I love this song and also as a show of appreciation for his work. I don't intend to make any money off of it, and will license any future release through distrokid.

When I listen to his quarantine sessions, I have a hard time believing he’s passed away, and that’s because the music is so alive. Down-to-earth themes, a golden voice, and a unique, modern sound. I truly wish he saw more success and appreciation, and that he maybe even sees those things post-mortem. What a talented man, and by all accounts I’ve heard, a kind and genuine person. Truly the voice of a generation in my opinion. My music will never be that good, but his music is what I wish I sounded like. 

Fly high Steakfry.

Lyrics:
Catch me if you can
I'm just a lonely man
I roam around these roads
But oh I know, no one knows
That it's all in front of you
And there just ain't no use
In cryin', in lyin'
We're all out here dyin'

Oh-whoa-whoa
Cuz I want you
I need you right now
Cuz I want you
I need you
I love you right now

(solo 1)

What problem do I have?
Is there anything oh so sad?
Right here in front of me
Now I don't see anything
I just can't forget ya dear
Can't wait until you're so near
Wanna know how your love feels
I'll try and keep myself real

Cuz I want you
I need you
I love you right now
Cuz I want you
I need you
Right now

(solo 2)

Catch Me If You Can (Steakfry Tribute)

Notice me now
I make music on Soundcloud
Follow me and like my songs
Scream them all day and all night long
Follow my Twitter too
Tell me that I am cool
Like all of my tweets
And reply to me
I have nothing left
I have no girlfriend
So I fill the void
With the internet

The numbers on the screen must go up
The numbers on the screen must go up
The numbers on the screen, the numbers on the screen
Overstimulation, dopamine, what the fuck?

Wasting my time
Caring more about numbers than real life
Feeling like a loser
Getting excited by numbers on computers
My soul is eroded
My brain is corrosive
The internet'll fuck you up and you'll never know it
Having real goals has been erased
Now I sit and wait for them to go up all day

The numbers on the screen must go up
The numbers on the screen must go up
The numbers on the screen, the numbers on the screen
Overstimulation, dopamine, what the fuck?

Numbers On Screen Go Up - Fried By Fluoride Cover (2024 Version)

I'm never going out and I'm never going back
I can't leave those two alone cause they're always smoking crack
And I don't want a chaser
I don't wanna chase her
I can't keep the pace so I never really race her
You smirk a strange smile
And you ride a motorcycle
Your world is on my shoulders and I can't hold it over
On earth, day one
Your worth will never be that much
But you can pray above
You can use god as a crutch yeah

I can't go back to her
It's moving way too fast
But everything's a blur
I'm withdrawing in class
I'm in the atmosphere
Heard what I shouldn't hear
But I don't have the strength
Can't even run off with my legs yeah

Hey I'm on my way
I tryna see you everyday
But nothing's been the same
Since we never got to say
Our last goodbye
Hours in the sky
Just to say hello
And you say
Hell no!
I never say of what I want
But still I piss everyone off
You know Its never fair
But you said you didn't care
Cause I failed that test
Beneath your dress
Got so much older
Running from a boulder
Everyone has something to love
But somehow I ended up with none
Everyone gets something to love
But I never was
Never was never loved

I don't want your help
I don't want your money
Don't think you're cute
I don't think you're funny
All you ever do
Is annoy and and bug me
All you ever do is try to fuck me
You used hit me up like hey baby what's up
You used me for my love
But now you want to fuck
I even changed up how I dressed
Just to try to be the best
But you never even noticed
It made me so depressed

I can't go back to her
It's moving way too fast
But everything's a blur
I'm withdrawing in class
Im in the atmosphere
Heard what I shouldn't hear
I don't have the strength
Cant even run off with my legs yeah

I Can't Go Back To Her - Gezebelle Gaburgably Cover (2024 Version)

Don't you notice how
I get quiet when there's no one else around?
Me and you and awkward silence
Don't you dare look at me that way
I don't need reminders of how you don't feel the same

Oh, the burning pain
Listening to you harp on 'bout some new soulmate
"he's so perfect, " blah, blah, blah
Oh, how I wish you'd wake up one day
Run to me, confess your love, at least just let me say

That when I talk to you oh, Cupid walks right through
And shoots an arrow through my heart
And I sound like a loon, but don't you feel it too?
Confess I loved you from the start

What's a man to do?
Lying on my bed, staring into the bluе
Unrequited, terrifying
Lovе is driving me a bit insane
Have to get this off my chest
I'm telling you today

That when I talk to you, oh, Cupid walks right through
And shoots an arrow through my heart
And I sound like a loon, but don't you feel it too?
Confess I loved you from the start
Confess I loved you
Just thinking of you
You know that I've loved you from the start

From The Start (Laufey cover)

The changes in you reflect the changes in me
Like looking at my failures in the mirror
You're not who you used to be
The changes are deceiving me, 
But the time is drawing nearer
The path ain't getting any clearer
You see?
You pick at what is left of me

Do you want me out?
Do you want me there?
Tell me 'cause you ain’t been clear
Do you know what you want?
Do you know what you need?
Does any of that even involve me?
Did you ever care, do I even want to know?

Conflicted emotions keep the spark aflame
kindle to a dying hearth
But why keep a fire burning
That you didn't mean to start?
Perhaps its fickle, perhaps it’s amusing
Perhaps its just a thing you’re using
You’re the master of the heartstring,
I’m a puppet, you’re master of the scene

What will you do when they're all gone?
I've seen it before, know it won’t be long
Because what can you do, when the thrill is gone?
Will you ever realize what you’ve done wrong?
I wish you the best and do hope you see,
The best things in life are the things that be
But of all the things I wish you’d see,
Is you can’t keep crawling back to me

Changes (2024 Version)

I'm Maniac. I play guitar and sing n stuff.

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