This is a song that is very dear to me because it's the first song I've ever published. I entered it into says21 but unfortunately I didn't get to the final however it still has a place in my heart so I thought I'd upload it.

Technicolour Girl is about myself. In my personality I lack sympathy, which makes me lose a lot of people in my life. As I aged I learned to pretend to be bubbly and funny but when you get to know me I am filled with doubt and negativity, with a constant pain that many things in my life are going to break. I'm scared of losing people, people hating my music and being attacked for my sexuality. I don't know what love feels like anymore, but in my lifetime there has been a few people who I believe I loved who really guided me through my life and then suddenly dropped me because of things they heard about me or the realisation that I'm not perfect like their perception. As seen in the second verse I believe I am a strong beautiful woman and I'm just trying to prove that to people, though my mental issues get too much for people and they leave. I write my music based on the small amount of emotion I have felt through my lifetime and Technicolour Girl is a clear message of that. Being a woman with strong opinions has been tough. Sometimes it's just easier to hide yourself away but it makes you deteriorate. Within the last year I managed to regain confidence in myself and fall in love with the girl who I am instead of the girl I portray most of the time. With commitment issues, being queer and having mental health problems I've always been a lot to handle but I thank the people who loved me and support me even now.

Please if you have doubts about yourself, speak to someone you trust. Being the Technicolour Girl burdened me for my whole life and imagining that other people feel that way too is horrible to think about.

I love you. You're amazing. Here is Technicolour Girl.

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