May 22 Freak Radio Playlist

LYRICS: 

See the world that's blistering
Shone upon by a colorless sun
A wicked sun, a silent sun
Living between islands of pain
Gets a little hard but I'm in charge
Charge it to my credit card
Everybody has a hand in
We'll leap the edge and crash on rapids water
And consequences later

Something is attractive
Could be radioactive
Or my imagination
On the radio station
Gold on every axis
Enough to pay your taxes
We are for the people
Capitol or steeple
Among the pigs and prophets
We thought you might have bought it
To the fore we file in
Cue the sliding violin

When the money still remains
You don't talk until they pull the strings
Looking out for better things
I think your message struck a nerve
Take a bow and get what you deserve
Ride a transcendental curve
All the treasure that remains
Might be better spent on telling lies
Keep it in a sheep disguise

Shaking out your pockets
I think you finally lost it
Treat me like a play thing
Might be smoother sailing
Future past and present
Burn the farm and sell it
Slurry words and stipends
Might get a little violent
All the times you're wasting
Disaster in the making
A million mouths you're feeding
Smash through the glass ceiling

Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall and the rainfall
Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall and the rainfall
Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall and the rainfall
Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall 

If the world has gone to hell
You don't care because you took it all
And you still want more

Easy to feel deranged
Harder to make good sense of it all
Line 'em up against the wall

Through the cracks a glimmer of peace
Shake it off, it does no good at all
Until we make the final call

Nature does its own thing
No point in explaining
Off the top you're taking
Yielding next to nothing

If you look you see them
Whinging ad nauseam
In the heat we're brawling
Missed the final calling

Stretched so thin we relapse
Picked up by the bootstraps
Sounds a bit dumb to me
So why don't you kill me

Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall and the rainfall
Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall and the rainfall
Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall and the rainfall
Rainfall and the rainfall
And the rainfall

Rain Chime

Silent Sun

I've been empty, I've been humble
Been some kind of curiosity
I spent too many years imprisoned in a cell of pure hypocrisy
An eager tutor learned the time
But soon forgot the skills needed to count
I owe you big style oh you treasure
And by god owe you a large amount

CHORUS
I was all charged
I  was incomplete
Scratched up and scarred
But it seems I firmly fell on my feet
Wave the white flag
Ignore what I said
I had love jet lag
But then I kind of met you instead
So many talents
You don't know you have
We're losing our balance
To find it we require a Satnav
There's no hill to climb
There's no more I need
When it comes to my time
Surely you are my missing piece

Hear the cheering, hear the trumpets
Hear the carnival of chaos crash
I think I inadvertently created some kind of a front page splash

CHORUS

You're a jewel a pure treasure
You are everything that I could want
Would you like another cocktail in this Jamaican restaurant?

CHORUS

Missing Piece

I got a short term memory
Goldfish remember more than me
I forget half of what I do
Apart from time with you
Its tough when you are not around
I sulk and drop down to the ground
I tried to do what Prince did
But I removed no rib

CHORUS
Bed - We said
Head to bed
Or something just as fun instead

My heart is always yearning
A passion spiced and burning
Excuse my occasional flaws
I blame the manopause
To crave the icy finger
Then pray that it doth linger
I can't contain excitement
Lets just head up to the bed

CHORUS

My brain it sure is spinning
It did from the beginning
If anything its faster
I hope that I'm a Laster
To feel you in the morning
As the new day is dawning
I have an increasing head
Lets just head up to the bed

CHORUS

Something Just As Fun

There's a calling in the night
A constant hunger deep inside me
I always know when something's right
And if I fail at least I tried and tried

There's a calling in my head
A thought I never can switch off
You fell asleep, what if I'm dead?
You know we'd wake and laugh alot and again

CHORUS
I keep on calling out
Calling your name
We are both calling the same
Then we laugh
It's a game
And we dream of one day

There's a calling that I hear
And I am always listening out
I lust to always hold you near
I never had a single doubt at all

CHORUS

One Day

My heart's beating with some strange emotion
(What remains)
I think I swallowed an indian love potion
(What remains)
My heart cracked once and so did my liver
(What remains)
When half my life floated east down the river
(What remains)

CHORUS
But you're gorgeous
You're divine
So contagious
And all mine
Nothing tiresome
Nothing wanes
It's outrageous!

Black liquid that ran through my bones
(What remains)
My skin dented from too many stones
(What remains)
My back broke, I'm a little more brittle
(What remains)
I no longer play the second fiddle
(What remains)

CHORUS

Dark energy was sucked from my brain
(What remains)
Leaving nothing but an unsavoury stain
(What remains)
But I've recovered and I couldn't ask for better
(What remains)
Just hope what remains doesn't upset her
(What remains)

CHORUS
What remains

What Remains

I feel it fading into the night
All my past failings out of my sight

CHORUS
What a difference months (years) can make
What was I looking for?
Where was the time?
My past personas were just fake
I couldn't take no more
Show me the sign

You were a vision clear in my mind
Name in my songbooks and underlined

CHORUS

Gasp for a moment - losing my breath
All my past failings have died a true death

CHORUS

Past Personas

I'm hopeless at most everything
My whole life is a fractured lie
I want a chance to grasp afar
Before I crumple up and die

More painful than the written word
Are the scars that sit upon your spine
All fractured and a broken mess
I tiptoed down a wavering line

CHORUS
But I made my bed
I dreamt a fresh start
And I let you in
Into my heart

I'm looking up into the clouds
Decline to say it is my time
Oh so much to look forward to
I cough but I am feeling fine

The sins of past have washed away
But stains I have upon my shroud
I hope you haven't noticed the angry mob
The maddened crowd

CHORUS

Into My Heart

Written for IOC Songwriter Sessions 20th April 2022

# Lyrics

Crimson dust, dirty fingernails
All the baggage that I found
Drag both feet across the ground

Bearings fixed and set
Ever forwards with the flow
Tides dictate the way to go

For all you know
For all you know now

Weary head, forwards firmly held
Water high and rushing past
Flood of purpose pushing fast 

For all you know
For all you know now

For all you know
Waves ahead are breaking

For all you know
Its a fight worth facing

Before you go
Ways are waiting for you

Before you see
There’s a bright space for you

For All You Know

Edie is the title track from the forthcoming LP, out 3rd June 2022
Video here, all ochre and gold https://youtu.be/sBuMe7vnbDE 
Thanks for listening x

Edie

She got a pocket full of mighty fine, fine intentions
She got a way, she got a way that somehow makes you feel good
She got a story full of love and hate and other complications
Got you hooked on her smile, hooked and hung on a hook. (x2)

She got a promise full of smoky red wine redemption
She makes you pay, she makes you pay as if she's drawing your blood
She got a black heart full of war and peace and other aggravation
Got you hooked on her smile, hooked and hung on a hook. (x2)

She got you hung on a hook
Hung on a hook, she got you hung on a hook
She got you hung on a hook

Little cat all alone like that, in ballet flats in the snow
Little cat all alone like that, hey Edie, where you gonna go?
Little cat all alone like that, in ballet flats in the snow
Little cat all alone like that, hey Edie, where you gonna go?
I say Edie, where you gonna go? 
Oooooooh Ooooooooh

Edie oh Edie oh black-hearted Edie
Littered, lost love-lorn and ghost
Edie oh Edie oh black-hearted Edie
The one that I still love the  most
Edie oh Edie oh black-hearted Edie
The one that I still love the most

Edie(c)2022steph sweet All Rights Reserved
Fender jag, 500 bass and vocals

Edie

edie video

Brian Butts - Guitar, Drums, Bass, Keyboard, Master Mix
Marc Freak - Vocals, Lyrics https://soundcloud.com/marcfreak?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

DOWNFORCE
When the pressure subsides
As our worlds collide
And we can both confide
Our secrets learnt

As the downforce hits
And our giggling fits
Have us both in bits
Smiling but burnt

Stability maintained
As the downforce gained
Is the pressure just feigned
Or duly earnt?

CHORUS
And the pressures building up from inside
Yet I'm feeling more stable
And the pressures building up will subside

And the downforce
But neither want out
So we scream and shout
The pressure on

CHORUS

(Force felt / face melt / no doubt)

Neoteric

Bandcamp

Downforce (feat. Marc Freak)

A storm is raging outside
Odin rides across the fields
A storm is raging all through the night
Wolf and raven by his side

A storm is raging in me
Since I met you I feel this way
It keeps me more restless than I could ever tell
Triggered by your spell

But when we are together i have no words for you
But when we are together i have no words for you
But when we are together i have no words for you
Babe, my hesitation does not mean I would not want you

I can´t find my way
Where I got lost years ago
I lack the courage, I lack the faith as well
I cannot even see at all

How could you ever put up with me
How could you ever put up with me

Helreid Odin
Helreid Odin

The Storm / Helreid Odin (A Shamanic Incantation Of Love)

Marc Freak - Vocals, Lyrics https://soundcloud.com/marcfreak?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
Nigel Manning (The Windscale Blues Experiment) - Saxophones and Saxophone Arrangement https://soundcloud.com/windscaleblues?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
Brian Butts - Guitars, Drums, Bass, Keyboards, Master Mix

JACKPOT
Only won the jackpot again
This time all the winnings remain
They're claimed
You can't lose what you've never had
Though I gambled it all went bad
Oh so sad

CHORUS
(What a time we had)
I pick a lucky number
I picked you from the crowd
At that time it wasn't allowed
(Second chance and glad)
And so many years later
I came back to the game
And won at the jackpot again

When I wake with my drunken eyes
See you there to my great surprise
And its nice
Every time when I hold you near
Expecting you to just disappear
That's my fear

CHORUS

Only won the jackpot again
This time I hope that you remain
Your claimed

Jackpot (feat. Marc Freak & The Windscale Blues Experiment)

Scrambled with The Valuable Friends without whom this flight would not have been half as much fun.

@JanineLevinson - Co-Pilot known for flying without instruments, aka "Janners"
@Rick-4-1 - Bomb Aimer and Navigator aka "Mudlark"
@Phil-McWalter - Squadron 'ace' with handlebar moustache, black labrador and large unpaid bar tab in the mess. Plays tambourine badly, aka "Easy"

FLYING A LANCASTER BOMBER

Looking down at the waterfall from the windmill
We can see the land move 
You can see the land move
Yeah we all move
Oh yeah we all move
Oh yeah we all move
Oh yeah we all move
Oh yeah we all move

I’m flying a Lancaster bomber 
Down the spiral stairs of your heart
Trying to get out before the lights touch
Trying to get out before the dam bursts
Trying to get out before the dam bursts
Oh yeah we all move

I don’t wanna hear you go
Please don’t slam the door
You have taken me apart
Just like you did your car
I can’t help but look around
Whenever I get that perfume
I think that I have lost control
Just like our Saturdays

I’m flying a Lancaster bomber 
Down the spiral stairs of your heart
Trying to get out before the lights touch
Trying to get out before the dam bursts
Looking down at the waterfall from the windmill
Trying to get out before the dam bursts
You can see the land move 
You can see the land move
Oh yeah we all move

But I don't want to be the one
To take off and fly alone
And what of my precious height?
Will you be looking around
When I can't see the ground?
Or lost in my perfume
While I just float away?
As if it's Saturday...

Just like our Saturdays

Looking down at the waterfall from the windmill
We can see the land move 
You can see the land move
Yeah we all move

I don’t wanna hear you go
Please don’t slam the door
You have taken me apart
Just like you did your car
I can’t help but look around
Whenever I get that perfume
I think that I have lost control
Just like our Saturdays

Please don’t slam the door
I’m flying a Lancaster bomber 
Down the spiral stairs of your heart
Please don’t slam the door
Trying to get out before the lights touch
Trying to get out before the dam bursts
Oh yeah we all move
Oh yeah we all move
Trying to get out before the dam bursts
Oh yeah we all move
Oh yeah we all move
I’m flying a Lancaster bomber 
Down the spiral stairs of your heart
Please don’t slam the door

©Phil McWalter & Janine Levinson May 2022

Flying A Lancaster Bomber

This song was written in 2014 and recorded in 2018 by Jesus Estrada in his unique, idiosyncratic production style. A song about lost love, and the hope that somewhere, there is someone who is the right one. The track features a short piano solo from Jesus, and a little whistling from myself at the end.
 
“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”
― Kahlil Gibran

“When you loved someone and had to let them go, there will always be that small part of yourself that whispers, "What was it that you wanted and why didn't you fight for it?”
― Shannon L. Alder

Lyrics
I beg for forgiveness
She turns her back
I guess it’s all over
Love’s slipped through the cracks

Chorus: Please tell me there’s someone in the future for me … ah ahh 

Some sing the blues to bring comfort
Others pray to the lord
Many look to the bottle
While a few just fall on a sword

Chorus: So tell me there’s someone marked out for my company … ah ahh

A room’s no place for the loveless
But nor is a cold, lonely street
Where the wind howls through your memories
Bringing rain, maybe snow, even sleet

Chorus: Please tell me there’s some love in my proximity … ah ahh
Please tell me there’s some love in my proximity … ah ahh

She pleads for redemption
But he’s out through the door
We can see it’s all over
As love crashes to the floor

Chorus: Please say that there’s someone in the future for us all … ah ahh

A Long Time Coming

Someone

Pierre Bordetti productions (c) 05/2022.
Composed, arranged, performed, and produced by:
Pierre Bordetti

_ Always stay by your side _

Every morning,
When you rise,
when you smile,
When you dance
when you run,
You give life to everything,
You give life to everything,
You rekindle my flame,
You rekindle my heart,
When you rise with me,
When you rise with me,

Inside me,
I have a dream,
always stay by your side,

Inside me,
I have a dream,
always stay by your side,

Always stay by your side

I'm never satisfied...but in a race against time...hopefully I will get the chance to polish this turd, but I had to get it out of my head...like a tumor...

Can't Take This (Sad Demo)

I hope to open my eyes tomorrow...I still have dreams and don't want to fade away.

Dreams Fade Away (Dark Demo)

...and I Am He 

Would it be wrong to not do things I’m supposed to do?
Would it be wrong to not choose what I’m supposed to choose?
To make a bad decision most deliberately?
To make a bad decision with a little slice of pleasure
With a little spark of glee, give my heart up to the devil
Temporarily?

Or permanently?
Or permanently?
Not what I’m supposed to be
But the permanent me

Would it be wrong to tell the truth knowing you’d prefer a lie?
Would it be wrong to choose to share the secrets we agreed to censor
With a smile and a snicker and a little slice of pleasure
Like the little bump of speed from a quickie in a closet
An adrenaline adventure a betrayal I can savor
temporarily

Or permanently?
Permanenty
Not what I’m supposed to be
But the Permanent me

Right as the river
I’m floating so gently on
Which side of things
Will the croupier land me on
I’m obligated
The dice man has cometh
And I am he, and I am he
The dice man has cometh
And I am he, and I am he
The dice man has cometh
And I am he, and I am he

Permanently
Permanently
Permanently

Janine Levinson @janinelevinson : lyrics & vocals 
Mahan Mahan @mahan-mahan : instrumental track 
Lenny Bruce appears courtesy of himself and to add legitimacy to the otherwise obscure and mildly controversial "poly-bipolar women and masochistic men who.love them" phenomenon.

...and I Am He ~ Janine Levinson | Mahan²

Brian Butts - Guitar, Drums, Bass, Keyboards
Stu Head - Vocals, Lyrics https://soundcloud.com/stoojmusic?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
Kristopher Bolin - Vocals, Lyrics, Master Mix https://soundcloud.com/bawl-slant?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Fluxional

Horologe (feat. Stu Head of The Welton Shipwreck and Kristopher Bolin)

HI...AGAIN...DID YOU MISS ME?  HAHAHAA!   :o)    IT'S ANOTHER INSTRUMENTAL WITH BEAUTIFUL STRINGS, DRUMS AND ME IN BACKGROUND "BACK-UP" STYLE SINGING  *THIS 1 TOOK FORVER*....and ever and ever... I work on a lot of tracks at one time and rotate around and around and around spinning thru them..well this one was in my damn rotation too long!!!   SO I HOPE Y'ALL ENJOY- LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!
 MUCH LOVE TO Y'ALL!!!!!!!!

KRAE-LONELY-LOST-BEAUTY- _instrumental_ Kenna-Rae Background Vocals

Prolific musician, author, photographer and oddity.  With influences ranging from the lofi pop of Guided by Voices, the gothic melodrama of Nick Cave, the glam of Bowie and the nakedness of Iggy Pop - this is Marc Freak.  Former frontman of Freak Circus and Dead Joe.  An experiment in DIY and lofi.  The odd bum note here, the even odder bum note there.  But with art do we care?