This Playlist is About You

I stand east searching west
All I should die for seems second best
Palace strong foundation weak
Feeling all dirty and thinking all cheap

There is nothing in life that I wanted
What I need lies in hills far away
But the means of escape is too haunted
So here I stay

Am I more than just friend?
I find it confusing the signals you send
Maybe not even friend just someone I know
Whilst like a love sick school boy my feelings grow

And there's nothing here I would ask for
But somethings are too hard to explain
I'm confused, I'm a coward and I want more
But here I stay

There's nothing in my life that I needed
Standing east but lusting for west
It sounds selfish but I feel cheated
With second best

Searching West

I could be like anyone you'd want to be with
Pick a star, an idol that you'd want to live with
But to make it true you may need alcohol

I could look like Hollywood if you want it
But you'd need mind-bending drugs to truly see it
Those looks I lack - another mirror cracked

You cannot hide away from the winter, I know
I'm trying really hard to glitter - don't go, don't go

I can tell my eyes have seen too many late nights
I can feel that you should really be mine by rights
I've hit hard times - I've grey hair and age lines

I can sense the worry you don't really know me
I can tell you only partially like what you see
I can tell too much - I really should just shut up

If I talked as well as I write I know
You may not be scared off by the sight - don't go, don't go

I can trust that all I say will go no further
I can feel a friendship like no other
A humour cruel - we'd make a real evil duo

Evil Duo

Try being strong
When the whole world that surrounds you is going wrong
Trapped and ensnared
I've been lying here for days now underfed

Sometimes I let the words you use
Persuade me that I have a use
I'm besotted and renewed by you

Laugh and joke
There's some fifteen songs about you that I wrote
You ask how I am
And I tell you how I feel in anagrams

Its new days and I'm old news
But there seems hope in words you use
I'm besotted and renewed by you

Besotted and Renewed

What's the appeal in mystery
No big deal to have fantasy
But I can't see through the steam
And its all one big dream

CHORUS
And I can't see what's happened to me, what's happened to meet her

In my mind I'm a super power
Rescuing you from your forest tower
But I can't see through the steam
And its all just one big dream

CHORUS

A rub of the feet
Can really step up the heat

CHORUS

What’s Happened to Me

I'm keeping it going with hope enough
I'm ticking off days and sleep is rough
A shot in the arm that gives a boost
I've got too cosy in my roost

CHORUS
I open my eyes and the world still seems the same
You can strip all away but the hope will still remain

These prison walls may not be physical
But they're strong enough to stop me seeing you
I'm closing my eyes, forming a wish
I'm searching the ocean for one fish

CHORUS

There's one step forward two steps back
And I've no white flag for this attack

CHORUS

Hope

Its no time its no year
Well I'm flying when the coasts looking clearer
I feel fine give a cheer
Hell I'm crying don't judge a book by appearance

In the past in the light
It fades fast well thank God I'm a fighter
Called to task scared of heights
So I'll bask in the heart of the sunlight

CHORUS
When you say the slightest word I'll come running
I only need a single word not two
The dreams are good the prospects sure are stunning
I think I get carried away

Its no time its a fact
I'm no Einstein indeed I'm mentally cracking
I'm fine but lets chat
And I pine when my batteries are failing

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Carried Away

In a shot (bam) I'd flee from this land
To a distant place where we can walk hand in hand
Give it time (tic) we'd certainly click
I hope I've not been beaten by the ugly stick

CHORUS
Its true
Heaven is a place with you
We two

If I stare into space at your beautiful face
Its just because it takes me ti a much better place
In a short while I'll control my smile
I hope that you don't see me and you run for a mile

CHORUS

In a shot (bam) I'd flee from this land
I'm feeling so giddy that I can only half stand
My heart beat when I dream how we meet
Its fair to say you've gone and swept me off of my feet

CHORUS

Heaven is a Place With You

Creatures and plant life evolve but the worlds vaguely the same
I've a short shelf life
I've been the heir to fortune just in name

Picture a princess
Picture such a beauty as you wish
Though I may confess
I've picked up the most tasty dish

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And I will always feel the same through pain and thunder
And I will always feel the same
And I will always feel the same until you cast me asunder
A chance to run dear as I'll always feel the same

Sat at a table staring gormless at your eyes
The best I'm able I'll lift you up into the skies

A voice mesmerising
It suits the accomplished written hand
You are so tantalising
I've a different wish than originally planned

CHORUS

The Same

You can't stop the waving frantic from the shore
I've sent all my loving and I'm still sending more

CHORUS
I'm simmering under
I'm testing understanding
I'm literally under your skin

I'm full of the wise cracks my stories the same
There are butterfly flutters each time when I see your name

CHORUS

I work like I'm clockwork in some ground hog day
I'm waffling endlessly and I don't go away

CHORUS

Under Your Skin

If you open up your arms
There's a vastness that engulfs me
And once the stormy weather calms
We'll throw down all our chains and stumble free

If a God looks down from high
I am nothing but a speck of dirt
It's moronic but I try
Please be patient as the bubble's burst

CHORUS
I've got nothing to do without you
I've got nothing to do at all
I've got nothing to do without you
I am bored after all

Nothing to do Without You

Like a very distant star
Sparkling with mystery
I stare, looking from afar
Wondering where the future leads
And every night the starlight seems brighter
Twinkling dreams across the ripples on the water

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I think of all the things I want
And wonder how those things would be
And I feel such a lonely voice
Calling out to sea

Let me sail upon your waves
Embrace the calm in me
Take me to the better days
I drown in joy beneath the deep blue sea
And every night the starlight seems stronger
Twinkling dreams across the ripples on the water

CHORUS

Calling Out To Sea

I'm sure you'd never be bored
'cause what's to be bored with what we have
It's pure, we play the same chord
And what a great chord that makes me smile and laugh

CHORUS
I can hear you breathe when I wake at night
Then I realise that I'm just dreaming
But I feel a warmth from your body held tight
This time I tell it true
This song is about you

I'm sure you'd never be bored
'cause what's to be bored with what we have
There's no cure for the feeling you've stirred
But please keep on stirring - I'm crush starved

CHORUS

This Song Is About You

Coughing and sitting at the end of the world
I thought it was round, but I'm trying hard to stay chilled
Closing my eyes to get ready to drop
Into the ether with no-one to shout out "stop"
Something is flashing and catching my mind
Sparkling and dazzling and turning me half blind
The sun is coming out again today

Look at the streetlights that guide all awake
Hustling and bustling despite all the things at stake
Heading to bed when the sun fades away
Marking the end of another successful day
Streetlights and sunsets defining my life
The positives I grasp when negativity is rife
The sun is coming out again tomorrow

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We can be anything if we try hard enough
We can be victory and who is left to judge?
This sticky plaster's held it all for long enough
The street lights and the sunsets that I love

Self-certification - I prove who I am
Nothing to do with the politics, all a sham
Yes I'm aware but my heads in the clouds
Never been one that inclined to follow the crowd
Just need one thing and I'm talking about you
A light in the darkness and that is the humble truth
The sun is coming out again today

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Street Lights And Sunsets

Such striking eyes, totally mesmerising me
Like a fish circling the hook
Can't resist, must take a look

CHORUS
Maybe creature of habit maybe the dream of dreams come true
I'm the fish on the hook gasping for breath as I'm reeled on up to you
I am praying please don't take a look and then cast me back out to sea
There is more than a connection I can sense that exists between you and me

Darkness divine, waiting my time
I can only look and stare
And hope you won't go nowhere

CHORUS

Such striking eyes that demonise me willingly
Turning me into a slave
And that's what I truly crave

CHORUS

Eyes

In the darkness you light my way
When I'm speechless you say what I want to say
Lets just face it this is the only way
You're the one voice that helps me through the day

CHORUS
I know its a struggle to believe
I know from all the stories that I weave
I know that you've always been the one for me

If I was offered a plate of gold
Far more treasure than I could ever hold
Although I was baked in a greedy mould
For you I would swap all of the money in the world

CHORUS

I would walk through the gates of hell
I would fight through the fiercest battle
I'd still be standing as the mightiest fell
And there's no doubting that we just plain gel

CHORUS

In the darkness you light my way
When I'm speechless you say what I want to say

CHORUS

You’ve Always Been The One For Me

Don't remember the reason but tears swell in my eyes
I'm easy with my emotions that manhood so belies
If you picked from the Eden Tree I'm the most bruised of fruit
You may wish to take a different life route

CHORUS
You are the seedling that grows through the everything
And grows to incredible height
You are the burning torch that keeps on flickering
And glows in the dwindling light
Through every season you are the reason
I wake from the perilous night
And you held me
You held me tight

All the rubbish discarded and left in open view
Turning over a clean sheet that's fresh and white and new
Think I planted the Eden Tree, the first one to stand
And before it we stood hand in hand

CHORUS

Climbing high up the Eden Tree and looking over our lives
The busy bees are all pollenating their hives

CHORUS

Eden Tree

I just had a quick glance and saw golden romance
A trick of tarot cards
I paid up my coin for being so annoying
And demanding the truths hard
And time isn't slowing
My feelings are growing

CHORUS
Generally I reach for forbidden kind

Read my fortune and mind - I've got hearts to find
Before I'm bone and dust
I'm looking out far - I'm going to follow the star
There's a faith in which I trust
And time isn't slowing
The star keeps on glowing

CHORUS

And time isn't slowing
Through the water I'm rowing

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I think I'm out of my mind

Forbidden Kind

I'm having dreams about someone I don't know
So good I've had it three nights in a row
I'm having dreams about someone I don't know
I'm having dreams, so serene, but what can they mean?
In you I'm believing

I'm having dreams about someone I don't know
I feel a warmth in my heart and down below
I'm having dreams about someone I don't know
I'm having dreams, wonderful things good talking and drinks
In you I'm believing

Each one the same and I cherish each frame
Like a film in slow motion
To hold you so tight from the morning 'till night
And I've no intention waking up

I'm having dreams about someone I don't know
The kind of thing I'd have written on my headstone
I'm having dreams about someone I don't know
I'm having dreams, so serene and what can they mean?
In you I'm believing

I’m Having Dreams About Someone I Don’t Know

Chapter Seven of a concept album about a rock band performing their first celebrated gig whilst the world comes to an end.

Ch 07 - Only in my Wildest Dreams - Just as hope is lost, a figure of beauty appears.  A true love is born.

ONLY IN MY WILDEST DREAMS
At a time when I'd given up and trashed any hope
I saw an angel shining vibrant through the dust and the smoke
Its no joke

CHORUS1
I'm jumping - my heart started pumping - this truly is something
Only in my wildest dream
She's running towards me - My legs have gone wobbly
Only in my wildest dream
The smile when the eyes meet - A beauty so complete
Only in my wildest dream

She ignores all my faults, disregards how I look
Since the world went and ended I've been down on my luck
What a schmuck

CHORUS2
I'll endeavour to keep her forever - till death or whatever
Only in my wildest dream
I can sense I'm  new man - to be her true champion
Only in my wildest dream
Let's dance through pollution - we're new evolution
Only in my wildest dream

CHORUS 1 & 2

Only In My Wildest Dreams

Prolific musician, author, photographer and oddity.  With influences ranging from the lofi pop of Guided by Voices, the gothic melodrama of Nick Cave, the glam of Bowie and the nakedness of Iggy Pop - this is Marc Freak.  Former frontman of Freak Circus and Dead Joe.  An experiment in DIY and lofi.  The odd bum note here, the even odder bum note there.  But with art do we care?