feat. guitar riff sample from Mircea Andrei Florea

Impenetrable // secondhand metaphors

I don’t want to sound dumb or so, but the first time I got serious about emotional introspection was at my 35th birthday party. It was nothing special, two or three people came to play darts and have a beer, two or three others would pat me on the back (harder than usual cause I was the bday boy and they were extroverts) after I’d hit the center of the target-board. Everyone got drunk and their white cheeks were stinking red though nobody sang and I secretly missed it cause all good parties end with a dallied bday song. Carter was going, but just before, he gave me this stupid-ass card saying “happy bday, you’re 35! how's that for you?” and how was that for me? How was it? I was ten pounds overweight, had a senior dog and the last time I went shopping I got a framed photo with a racing horse. How was that for me? MY BIGGEST DREAM WAS TO BE SWAYED BY A STRONG BRIBE AND A VERY FIRM HANDSHAKE. Momma named me Ben and pathetically so I grew up believing that she thought I’d be biiiig as an adult. My impression was strengthened by being “oh my little Ben” all throughout infancy till one day when seeing my foot got a size larger I told momma to stop it with the little, I was Ben (becoming BIG). I never did though but it never made me sad before.

Voice & text: Catrinel Radoi

Music: Maria Persu 

special thanks to @minulescu <3

ben becoming big // secondhand metaphors

the parts birds like
the parts birds love 
     I rest
a driver brings them to me
     what wasn't for nobody – speed & violence
I have your hand
     open on a dinner table – 
sand cliffs brushing over the seventh day 
      no sleep 
all rage eating salt and something of yours
    untouched machines bleeding
in wallet a prisoner
in bucket a child
in bed alone 
nervous, sad, poor 
for how long should I wait? 


special thanks to Elfriedagushers for the goth vibes & to @minulescu for the good times

Music: Elfriedagushers & Maria Persu & Catrinel Radoi
Voice: Maria Persu 
Lyrics: Catrinel Radoi

nsp (nrvs, sad, P00r) // secondhand metaphors & Elfriedagushers

feigning distrust at your door
I hate knocking 
rust is better than nothing 
a creak and you open up 
have you been waiting for long
and rivers push thoughts all over
black light feeds the room 
close to its chest 
I am the room and im shaking 
today I’ve let it slip 
truth
Softly like a coin unpicked 
Softly like a coiling curtain 
staring backwards 
I just wonder what you think failing’s like
things that people love
knowing possession in silence
before giving it away 
breathing is deceiving, I should subtract myself. 
Rocking back and forth 
chairs watching over
our shadows growing bigger 
so much bigger
than the flooding moon

Music: Maria Persu & Catrinel Radoi 
Lyrics: Catrinel Radoi 
Voice: Maria Persu

A tribute to Anne Sexton

Anna Clinically // secondhand metaphors

the problem of consistency

Voiced by Milo Thesiger-Meacham
Salzburg Summer Academy, 2024
Class of Fahim Amir, assisted by Lisa Moravec 
AI generated image based on prompt 'walking feet of different animals' 

FULL TEXT:

The footstep, a spectacularly fleeting, often traceless bundle of motion, sound, and intentionality.
Amongst the footstep's many powers is to speak resonantly. The fact is quickly observed upon hearing the impatient stomp of a horse whose mobility is restricted by the whip of a coachman or coachwoman. Even when it manifests alone, that is, not followed by another of the same kind, a footstep is a potent multispecies vessel of emotion.
To the footstep, touch is a must. This worldmaking, shapeshifting critter concerns surfaces and the boundaries between bodies. Soft paws tiptoeing on the burning-hot asphalt of a torrid city walk. Plastic Adidas soles traversing the muddy trails of woodlands. Metal hooves and their disciplined cadences on cobblestone.
Most commonly, a footstep presents itself in a couple or a group, closely followed or even accompanied by another. As if collective composers of a musical piece, couples and groups of footsteps sequence themselves into rhythmic or arrhythmic patterns. They are known to nurture the promise of proximity, as well as foster one’s ability to depart–joyously, reluctantly, or hurriedly. They convey an activity’s degree of violence or intimacy, alongside its ability to impose itself in space.
By means of the footstep, touch fabricates its own words, opening up the language of mobility, together with its many hierarchies.

the footstep: a shapeshifter that walks the earth

NAHHH productions 
asserting my agency as a casual manele enjoyer and celebrating the awkward sighs of actresses in conversations with male interviewers 

bechdel test : anna karina

TRACKLIST

Leo Hermitt – Love Memo        
aloisius – eighteen
700 Bliss/Moor Mother/DJ Haram – Living                
Halı Dokuyan Kızlar – Semah Mihrican Bahar
WL007 NO BEAT/Dj Alves no Beat/Whanted Fluxos – Então Grava Ela Me Mamando X Pra Não Me Engravidar        
Plevna/Suce Fraga – Djem
Dj BeBeDeRa        – Tarraxo Funguiça Das Negras 
IDLIBRA – Breganbass
Mayurashka – Mountain Pads        
Azu Tiwaline – Tessiture        
Elektro Guzzi – Fizz        
Aintel Euaholm - Zodra de Cirkel 
Lena Platonos/Red Axes –And We Hear "I Love You" (Red Axes Remix) 
De Ambassade – Hé Romy
ISOR29 – Banshiki
Le Frit – Crabification Bay        
Bhed – Somni 
Santiago Martínez – Ableton Love 
Efraín Rozas – Los que me acompañan (Those who are with me at every moment)

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