These uploaded tracks are "sound-skeletons", moving towards an album wich is made in a room of sorrow, the grief after my beloved daughter Annies sudden death. The album is named  "A Tribute to Annie!", and is made in the dearest memory of her. She only became 20 years old.. This specifik track is about me, as the grief takes a new turn, you know, grief takes many turns.., and I hear Annies voice telling me not to dig to deep in my bad conscience, not to let bitterness and growling bite me to hard, that I better move forward..
I am not a guitarist, and all this is very unpretentious.. lets see what it can be, so if you please, follow me! ;)

Jump now!

This song is about a dream I had, and its at least 4-5 years ago.. It was not Annie who died in the dream, it was my husband. Thats why I didn´t understand.. The dream was so intense and I carried a little baby at my bossom, when suddenly someone came and took it away. I recognized the enviroment, it was early spring and the rain poured at the window.. it was grey and cold. I heard a voice saying; "This is when the bear leaves the pit.." Every spring I felt worried.. 
Annie died in the very beginning of March, and the day after her death they announced at the Television that the bears at Skansen just got out from their pit and long winters sleep.. How should I know?

Dreams.. (How should I know?)

The dirt in peoples mouths.., things the say, things they think, they say they know, but know not a thing.. they spread their dirt around them without any clue.. its just what they do..

It Hurt!

As I was looking at a happy ending, I saw what I wanted to see
Instead betrayal and a just pretending, its time for me to leave..

As I was hoping for a higher love, I cruised safely in my belief
But written at my nose how could I deny that ugly thing.., Infidelity..


Infidelity

Annie lived her life like the speed of light, and chew it like a shark.. I guess that people who dies young, in someway they know deep inside, or there is a feeling that makes everything inside and around them intense.. She was such a beauty, such a sparkling spirit, so deep and big in her heart. But also in many ways, a burden of frustration, something that she couldn´t put her finger on, but she could sense...

She got to be free!

I sit here alone tonight and I wonder where you are and what you´ve become..
I hang my head and I try to cope, cause I miss you.. there´s nothing here I´m on my own..
I´d like to ask you God, how could all your angels turn their faces away?
One night in a million years, couldn´t you spare her, for what reason did it happen this way?
I wonder why?

WHY?

I give up on this.. so its what it is.. :) I just couldnt get it really right, but sometimes it is like that.. 

I know you!

Sunday comes as a messenger misfit, sunday wants the juvenile, sunday knows but dont want it to tell, that soon it is ringing at the door
Sunday has no better excuses, sunday leaves it like its rockn and roll, sunday wants me to believe it, while you´re beneath, still i´m living tall
Its ringing at the door.. Its ringing at my door..

O, no.. my heart is breaking in thousand pieces..!

Sunday has no legally weapons, it was just like in coincidence
All its misery´s crawling with you, yea its hopeless, but so very true
When its ringing at the door..
Its ringing at the door.

O, no.. my heart is breaking in thousand pieces..!

Breakdown Sunday.. (Heart in Pieces)

In the dearest memory of the tragic loss.. Missing our Daughter, Sister, Brother, Son and friend. Them two who were friends, but Annie left us 2 years earlier. Jimmy just a little time ago. 

Precious Grief

The better version. I thought I had deleted the other one. Well well.. in progress I am! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_apNNq_iPY 
In the dearest memory of my beloved daughter Annie Shaw

Clock is ticking..

Song made 1996 after a hard time divorce..

YOU!

In the most unpretentious way, a "sound-skeleton", a hint, .. as I am on my way to complete an album dedicated and in the memory of my Dear beloved Daughter Annie, who left us, oh so very much too soon. The first step towards "A Tribute to Annie!" .. <3 <3 <3

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