I surrender to my heart and I am ready to Love again if you are willing to let me in.
She tells me, "Nobody's ever touched me like this."
How foolish. So foolish, the men you've been with.
I can't get enough of your flesh.
I'll embrace your imperfections although you're flawless to me.
Last night was something to be reminisced.
Last night I'e never felt less hesitant.
So strange how even after all this time not much has changed.
My ………. stood the test of time to my heart and I am ready to Love again if you are willing to let me in.
She tells me, "You're much more loving this time."
She brings me to my knees, so vulnerable and helpless.
Get out of my mind.
I can't get enough of your flesh.
Get out of my mind.
I'll embrace your imperfections.
Get out of my mind.
Although you're flawless to me.
Get out of my mind.

*music by Chad Lagore & Maria Joaquin
 Lyrics by Maria Joaquin
Recorded, mixed and mastered by Ryan Kusz from Llimb Media

Sweet Surrender

Lascivious

Lyrics by Maria Joaquin
Music by Justin Carlson

Casual Sex

Despite my better judgment I'm saying yes . . .
Giving into temptations of the flesh . . .
Our bodies burn with lust and soon they coalesce . . .
"Push Her away if you know what's best.
Oh Tommy, She will only hurt you."
See Her body rise . . . hear Her breathing speeding up . . .
Feel Her legs quiver with just one touch from my hands on Her thighs . . .
And my lips kissing the small of Her back . . .
And Her legs wrapped around my neck . . .
No regrets.
She swims over the ocean. She's over the mountain.
Still I wont let her in.
How She's fighting with a vengeance to get me in Her arms and in Her bed.
She's begging me to stay but I wont.
I insist on leaving and I'll show no emotion.
Oh my how my tongue stumbles. My god my body troubles me with these insecurities.
Here I am now aged at 24.
Figured that I could have been so much more than who I am today.
So to help, I will swear off heartache.
Still there's somehow I can't seem to shake this feeling that She's giving me.
"You're incapable of loving."
If I'm incapable, then tell me what's this feeling that I haven't felt since when . . .
"You're incapable of loving." She tells me.
If I'm incapable of loving, then tell me what's this feeling in my stomach that I haven't felt since I was 18?
She will get what She wants and I lack what I need to feel anything because,
"You're incapable of loving." She tells me.
If I'm incapable of loving, then tell me what's this feeling in my stomach that I haven't felt since I was 18?

Heartless & Hopeful

Without warning She says, "Hey gorgeous."
Without warning She suggests, "Is your body completely covered in tattoos?"
I wondered, Oh wouldn't you like to know me in that way . . .
Oh wouldn't you like to know if this road ends or where it goes ?
Now I'm waiting for Her to say, "Let's go back to my place . . ."
Because my time is running out and soon I'll be on a plane for the western coast. 
I need to know what your body's been begging to boast.
And I can see it in your eyes. It comes to no surprise.
Well I hope that you say it, I hope that you say it.
And just like that, my heart beats deeply and we're heading back in a cab to your place.
Suddenly it becomes a race against that rising sun.
It had to be this way . . .
No, I don't want to watch the tv.
I want to know just what you're feeling about this situation that we're finding ourselves in.
Naked beneath the sheets and twisting tongues between our teeth.
My coloured skin contrasting up against your body.
And now I'm forced to grieve my old friend Vulnerability and all His insecurities I thought I buried.
And you still look so good even in my blood. I want to lick the salt off your sweaty skin.
Without warning I find myself laying naked in your bed.
Without warning, my lips, they make their way between your legs.
Without warning your hair comes crashing down on me like an ocean wave across my face and over my shoulder blades.
Without warning . . .
And I know it sounds crazy, but oh I got to see if there's something there 
or am I fool for these fantasy feelings of a fading failing affair ?
But maybe I could sink my teeth in her?
"Oh Tommy, don't you dare."
But I'm trying, believe me darling, I am trying to remember you. 
But the distance, it only brings darkness. And it's getting harder and harder to know 
what you were like that night when we met up in front of your store 
and we paced the streets of Toronto  till our feet were sore.
For miles and miles I could have swam for more if it meant that I would wash up on your shore.
We should have had more time than this.
We should have had more time that we did.
More time to converse and more time to kiss.
We should have had more time than this . . 
We pace these streets with no sense of time.
I feel displaced but I'll set it aside.
If I walk away and leave you tonight, I will regret it for the rest of my life.
Your hair cascades like ocean tides. I can't escape the pull of your stride.
I swim away for miles and miles. I'll breath you in and die for a while.
We should have had more time than this.
We should have had more time that we did.
More time to converse and more time to kiss.
We should have had more time than this . . 
You will be missed until the next time that we kiss .. .

Maria-Joaquin