House on a Hill - Marissa Levy

Packing me up into boxes
I know that it's time
42 years of towing the same family line

I found a shirt from the high school
you found a stack of regret
a whole lot of stuff, and it's rough but I know you'll forget

Chorus:
and I don't know how I'm 
supposed to forgive you
for all this perfection
that I gotta live up to / oooooh

Bethesda seems small in the summer
or maybe I'm just growing up
one little toast go ahead raise up your cup

Bridge:
All of this time and all of your life you've been telling me what I should do
look what you built in this house on a hill

House On A Hill

Your heart beats like a hummingbird
too green for the world
you’re afraid of the stars
and what could’ve been ours
Your breath freezes in crystalline
As you sigh all the time
And those crosses you bear
would have made them all mine

Chorus:
I thought I could love you
I thought I could love you
but this all feels so new
There’s just no room for you
I thought I could love you
I thought I could love you
the world is so cruel
and I made you the fool

My dreams waking me up again
I’m alone in my room
I’m afraid of the dark
And what’s after the spark
You cry soft like a hurricane
And you blow me away
I’m so scared all the time
I won’t know what to say

Made You The Fool

Baby put the chainsaw down 
You’ve been working so hard to get clear
And you feel like a mess but you’re doing your best
And you’re showing up just to get found
So baby put the chainsaw down

Baby put the clippers away
You Just cut yourself down every time
it’s just seems like your needs always pop up like weeds
And it feels like a slog every day
Baby put those clippers away

Baby you can put your roots down
you know that this time you’ll survive
Cause your hope starts to sprout
And Stops seeding your doubts
And you’re Lucky to just be alive
Baby you can put
Baby you can put
Baby you can put your roots down
Baby you can put
Baby you can put
Baby put the chainsaw down

Baby Put The Chainsaw Down (Spire Studio Version)

I ran through Washington Square Park
I thoughtI saw you and then
we’re splashing in puddles in the rain
and I am 18 again

I think about you now and then
and how you talked in your sleep
and how you gave up your dreams
so you could chase after me

Do you want to go back?
Do you want to go back?
Do you wanna go back in time with me?
Do you want to go back?
Past regret and all that?
Do you want to go back in time with me?

Another song about the rain
I can see you’re rolling your eyes
You’d say  you and your cliches
I’d think you and your disguise 

And now it’s darker than your eyes
The night you went away
when you finally chose you
The night that I chose to stay

Do you want to go back?
Do you want to go back?
Do you wanna go back in time with me?
Do you want to go back?
Past regret and all that?
Do you want to go back in time with me?

A little older, but maybe not smarter
We made our choice
Rode our path
Broke some hearts along the way
And now you’re in front of me
And all you have to say is

Do you want to go back?
Do you want to go back?
Do you wanna go back in time with me?
Do you want to go back?
Past regret and all that?
Do you want to go back in time with me?

Washington Square Park (piano)

I’ll take the wheel while you rest in pieces
There’s a light on the dashboard been blinking for days
And I’ll ramble on endless while you pass the time
You were fine you were fine you were fine

There are things to be said about staying inside
And your family Keeps calling to ask how you been
we slipped out of time but I saved you the rhyme 
You were fine you were fine you were fine

You are brilliant and crazy I’m a sad sorry scene
And this world is too beautiful scary and mean
And it’s hard to stay positive, head to the ground
Feeling too lost to ever get found

Your hands on the keys hit me harder than usual
Didn't quite know you well, somehow I care
Watch you sink to the bottom, got all kinds of time 
You were fine you were fine you were fine

And it’s 4am somewhere and somewhere is right here
I haven’t been sleeping, your songs in my ears
And I’m fighting the dreaming, choking back tears
Haven’t seen you in so many years

Mixed metaphor, symphony, four letter words
Metronome counting our breaths marks and rests
Scratch pad all filled up with circles and lines
You were fine you were fine you were fine
Doesn’t mean that this pain can’t be mine
You were fine you were fine you were fine
I’ll be fine, I should just give it time
You were fine you were fine you were fine

I’ll take the wheel while you Rest In pieces
Left a light on the dashboard been blinking for days

Fine Is A Four Letter Word

She, Queen bee, leader of fools
She had all the bands I loved before they were cool
Me dumbstruck at that flower in bloom
who steals all the oxygen when she walks in a room 

But those girls they grow up
Always looking for love
And it's never enough

Oh woah oh

Sharp tongue, short skirt, and a smile
Never the type to stand too still for a while
Passed me by, never a glance
Never could talk to her, never gave me the chance

But some girls just get by
Living recycled lives
And they never ask why

And I just want to tell her
There's more than fluorescent halls
I seek perfection outside of these walls

Oh woah oh

She queen bee, still living a lie
A house and a baby girl, some random guy
I Wasted time obsessing 'about her
Got caught up in all the drama and all the allure

But us girls who were tough
And our edges were rough
We are enough

And I just want to tell her
There's more than fluorescent halls
I seek perfection outside of these walls

Oh woah oh

Queen Bee (Rough)

Buried underneath a pile
of a 20 something year olds clothes
I barely see the parquet tile
peeking through the taffeta
But I can see the saddest eyes
I can feel that moment coming
As we packed lies in cardboard boxes
Yeah, I packed our dreams in that one
Oh Can this one go?
Did you have room for us in any of them
Oh I think I know
And I don't need to hear the answer

Chorus: You can fill the gaps in your memory with sawdust
Paint a fuzzy picture of how you saw us
Make up your own version of what we talked about
Just you and me on the floor the night that I moved out

I've been over this a hundred times
I've played the whole thing out
A kid, a car a mortgage payment
Forty something, miserable
I drink too much I'm overthinking
Hard to breathe the rooms still spinning
No more time left clock but these mistakes are part of growing up
And out of love, there isn't room for you in my next chapter oh
I think you know, you don't really need the answer

Buried underneath the weight of
years and years and years and years
Pictures of us slowly fading
We're we ever twenty something
God I know I loved you harder
Oh I know we tried our best
Found ourselves in dusty boxes
Really don't remember you this tall
I guess that's all
I made some room for you in my life story
Oh I think you know
That we don't really have the answers

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