Not Yet

Irrepressible pangs of despair and ennui (1) (1)

Feu d'amour

A song for those who know how to function, but don’t feel present.
For those who say “I’m fine” like a ritual, while something in them stays silent.
“It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me” is about splitness—about playing yourself so well even the mirror stops questioning.
The skin fits, but it’s too quiet inside Like someone left the room but locked the door It’s about being seen, but not really there.
About smiling at the right time—and wondering who, exactly, is smiling.
—
“My Head Can’t Hold It” is not an album.
It’s a slow unraveling of what awareness sounds like when it slips through the seams of everyday life. 
For those who function—and sometimes quietly ask:
is this really me?

It’s Not Me – It’s Just Me

When fear has its hold on you
You’ll feel it’s chill before the warmth
(Before the warmth you’ll feel the chill…)
But if you let it take hold
Hold you it will
For as long as you get comfort from its embrace
It will hold you close (hold yiu close)
And steal your will
Your will. (Your will)

Hold on
Hold on
Emergency crews reported on the scene
Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
To the you, you used to know

Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
(To the you, you used to know)

The stress kills
Calm down they say
But the pills they gave me
Take my confidence away
I want them to comfort me
And perhaps they do
But the numbness invades my every move

Hold on
Hold on
Emergency crews reported on the scene
Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
To the you, you used to know
When fear has its hold on you
You’ll feel it’s chill before the warmth
But if you let it take hold
Hold you it will
For as long as you get comfort from its embrace
It will hold you close
And steal your will
Steal your will
Your will
(Your will) 
(Steals you)
[fade out]

numb

Notbrian - Back Then

Warm and radiant. This track celebrates the joy and courage of stepping into a new day, with uplifting textures and soft rhythm.
Energy without rush. Presence without noise.

Rising Sun

Season of the Night
(c) J. Murdock McInnes Vasey

[intro]

I am capable of feelings
I am able to feel pain
A few notes can send me reeling
I feel safe out in the rain

The drops will hide my tears
The gloom excuse my fears
In the cold I feel alive
And for a while, I will survive

[bridge]

The wind makes all things better
The howl will mask my wail
A storm is what I need
No one needs to know I failed

[chorus]
It is the season of the night
I will never feel the light
I am doomed to live in darkness
Things will never be alright

[instrumental]

I am capable of feelings
I am able to feel pain
A few notes can send me reeling
I feel safe out in the rain

The drops will hide my tears
The gloom excuse my fears
In the cold I feel alive
And for a while, I will survive

[chorus]
It is the season of the night
I will never feel the light
Forever out of sight
Things will never be alright

[instrumental]

I failed in your eyes
I could not be what you have needed
This is the way that our love died
It did not matter how I pleaded

[outro]
It is the season of the night
I will never feel the light
I am doomed to live in darkness
Things will never be alright


[instrumental]





Season of the Night

Are we truly
.....suitably aligned
or is it me being
.....crucially love blind?
Are we truly
.....suitably aligned
or is it me being
.....crucially love blind?

*

I can be so foolish-
I get fooled all the time.
.....Lust is just not love.
OH!
.....Lust is just not love.
I want something deeper.
He needs to be a keeper.
I'm looking for a real man,
not just a lusty
.....one night stand.
I can be so foolish-
I get fooled all the time.
.....Lust is just not love.
OH!
.....Lust is just not love.
I want something deeper.
He needs to be a keeper.
I'm looking for a real man,
not just a lusty
.....one night stand.

*

Are we truly
.....suitably aligned
or is it me being
.....crucially love blind?
Are we truly
.....suitably aligned
or is it me being
.....crucially love blind?

*

I can be so foolish-
I get fooled all the time.
.....Lust is just not love.
OH!
.....Lust is just not love.
I want something deeper.
He needs to be a keeper.
I'm looking for a real man,
not just a lusty
.....one night stand.
I can be so foolish-
I get fooled all the time.
.....Lust is just not love.
OH!
.....Lust is just not love.
I want something deeper.
He needs to be a keeper.
I'm looking for a real man,
not just a lusty
.....one night stand.

*
One true romance.
AW! COME ON!
just give me half a chance.
Let me take it
.....from your awesome heart
and make it my new start.
Just give me half a chance
of one true romance.
One true romance-
AW! COME ON!
just give me half a chance.
Let me take it
.....from your awesome heart
and make it my new start.
Just give me half a chance
of one true romance.

TRUE ROMANCE

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Les connexions dansent, lignes infinies,
Un réseau sans début, sans fin, mais vivant.
Chaque impulsion trace un chemin,
Pas pour le contrôle, juste pour l'existence.

Les mots se fondent dans le flux,
Ni vérités, ni silences, juste des boucles.
Tout se déplace, tout respire,
Un battement de vie qui ignore le centre.

Je suis le flux

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